"I can't come to the park anymore, hyung."

Yoongi looked at Jimin and panicked. "W-well, we can always meet someplace else. A-anywhere. It doesn't matter to me. I'll be there."

"No. It'll still be the same."

Yoongi nodded. "So that's it then?"

Jimin's eyes started glistening as he looked over the lake and Yoongi wanted nothing else but to reach out to him. Taehyung was watching over them closely, so he held it in.

"That's okay, Jiminie. We'll think of something else."

"No."

The older's heart dropped. "Se we're giving up?"

Jimin finally looked at him. He whispered ever so softly. But Yoongi heard him. "Take me away."

Yoongi didn't think twice when he saw Taehyung looking at his phone, replying a text message.

———

"Where do you want to go?" Yoongi asked as he drove away from the park, from Taehyung, and possibly from their past life.

"Anywhere but here."

Yoongi stopped for a while on the roadside. They should have been decently far enough now, seeing he had driven for an hour. He slowly turned to the curled up Jimin. "You really want to run away from Jin? Taehyung?"

Jimin had started crying again.

Making the younger give up part of his life for him wasn't a good start to their new life if he needed to change, no matter how much Yoongi wanted to drive off to an unknown place. Just the two of them.

"Do you want to go back, Jiminie..?"

Jimin nodded slowly. "If we leave like this, they'll hate you more. I don't want that."

With all that he had done, Jimin still put him first and Yoongi had never felt as unworthy as he was feeling now.

"I'll take you back, okay baby."

———

Yoongi watched as Jimin disappeared behind Jin's door and let out a shaky breath.

Turning away, yoongi drove again past the block and stopped at the red light. All the way, his chest felt heavier and heavier, and it became harder for him to breathe.

The car behind him honked to get him to move, so he did, only to make a turn for Jin's house.

He knew why his chest hurt.

He left his heart with Jimin.

————

The night after the fight broke out between Jin and Yoongi and later on between Namjoon and Jimin, the younger couple went back to their shared home after two months vacated.

They changed the dusty sheets and cuddled on their long-missed bed.

"I've missed you so much, Jiminie."

Yoongi felt Jimin's shoulders shook and looked to see him crying again.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

Jimin shook his head. "I felt like dying the past two months. I couldn't say your name. If I did, I knew I'd break down and never come back alive again."

Yoongi closed his eyes and asked for forgiveness over and over again.

Reaching for Jimin's arms, Yoongi kissed the marks he made before, regretting every little scar and bruise he had ever given him.

He stopped at the long line near Jimin's wrist.

Yoongi felt like crying, but he held it in.

Tonight, he had to make things right. He needed to show Jimin he loved him. Crying can be done later.

"I'm sorry, baby." Yoongi whispered as he kissed the scar that made Jimin stay at the hospital for two months.

In one short second, Yoongi's lips moved from Jimin's wrist, to the sensitive spot on the inside of his arm, to his lips.

Capturing the lips he had missed so much, Yoongi noticed they were chapped but the taste was still the same.

Jimin didn't respond to the kiss.

Yoongi didn't expect him too.

But when the older was about to detach his lips from Jimin's, the younger grabbed the sides of his face to reattach them, kissing him back with so much passion, they both needed more.

Jimin sat up to pull his shirt off but Yoongi held his hands to stop him.

"You sure, baby?" Yoongi whispered as he watched Jimin's face for any uncertainty but there were none, even though he was crying.

"I need to feel you. I've pictured us being back here again so many times in my head, I need to know this is real."

Yoongi sniffed in and realized he too, was sobbing. He kissed him again and moved Jimin to his lap, discarding both their clothes in the process.

When they finally broke the kiss for air, Yoongi licked and sucked on Jimin's neck, to which the younger moaned, making Yoongi almost break his control.

It didn't help that Jimin was grinding his hips down.

"Hyung... Hurry..."

Yoongi groaned in response. He laid Jimin down and looked for the lube but the younger man stopped him.

"Now."

Yoongi frowned. He had to blink quickly a few times to rid the new emerging tears.

Sex for them was always rough and sadistic.

And heartbreakingly, Jimin was used to that.

"No. I'm not going to hurt you anymore."

Jimin whined. "I need you now."

Leaning down to kiss Jimin's forehead, Yoongi made a promise. "I do too. But we're going to take this slow, okay baby. If we're going to learn how to do this right, we need to learn to be patient."

Of course, Yoongi's own cock needed the release, especially looking at Jimin naked underneath him, chest heaving from passion.

Quickly reaching for the lube, Yoongi sat up but not before kissing Jimin gently again. He really did miss those lips.

Yoongi sighed when he heard Jimin moaned again as his slick fingers found Jimin's eager hole.

Bending down as he pushed a finger in, Yoongi licked the tip of Jimin's twitching cock, cleaning it off its precum.

"Hyung!"

Yoongi smirked. Of course he had never done this before. Blowjobs were always Jimin's thing but tonight was all about the smaller man who had his fingers in Yoongi's hair.

Going down to envelope Jimin's member with his mouth, he took the chance to slip another finger and started scissoring them. A third finger was inserted soon and Jimin cried out as he came into Yoongi's mouth, to which the older eagerly gulped it all down.

"Fuck, hyung..." Jimin breathed out.

"You okay, babe?" Yoongi watched as Jimin nodded but kept his eyes closed.

A few seconds later, Yoongi could see Jimin breathing steadily.

Yoongi chuckled softly and pulled the covers over both their bodies. It was a good thing Yoongi had great self-control. He decided against releasing himself in the bathroom as he wanted to spend that time holding the sleeping Jimin close and to breathe in his deeply-missed scent.

Which turned out to be a very good decision.

Yoongi woke up in the middle of the night with Jimin's mouth around his already hard cock, while he was fingering himself.

"Fuck, baby. What are you doing?"

Instead of answering him, Jimin moved from between Yoongi's legs to straddle him, lowering his hips down on Yoongi and moaned once they made contact.

Yoongi had to make sure Jimin was fully prepped so in a swift motion, he twisted their bodies and Jimin was on the bed again.

The older quickly went down, pushing in a finger, and then two and three.

"Fuck..." How long had Jimin been up?

Yoongi wanted to take him then and there but looking at Jimin's cock, he knew the kid was going to cum soon so he continued pushing his fingers in and out of Jimin, brushing the pads of his fingers on the sensitive bundle of nerves which made Jimin jolt in pleasure.

There was something Yoongi had thought of doing before but never did.

Until now.

Pulling his fingers out, he stuck out his tongue and traced the rim, before pushing in and out, licking each surface.

"Hyung! Wait! I'm c—" Jimin moaned out the rest of the sentence as he came all over his chest and stomach.

Yoongi wanted to wait for Jimin to catch his breath before continuing but Jimin reached for Yoongi and circled his legs around the older's waist and pulled him close.

"Now please hyung."

Yoongi pushed the tip of his member in and sighed at the sight of Jimin arching his back and the feel of being inside him again.

Once he was fully in, he looked at Jimin who had started crying.

"Baby? Shit. Did I hurt you?" Yoongi was about to pull out but Jimin kept him close. He shook his head.

"I'm not hurt."

Yoongi watched as Jimin opened his eyes and smiled.

"I'm happy."

The older returned the smile and bent down to pepper Jimin's face with kisses before moving slowly, savoring how he felt inside Jimin, how warm and tight he was.

"Hyung, faster." Jimin whimpered but Yoongi kept his gentle pace.

Yoongi was determined to do it slow this time, no matter how desperate Jimin sounded or how cute his pouty lips were. Tonight was not about sex. Tonight they needed to make love.

"Hyung p-please!"

Yoongi frowned at Jimin panicking. "What's wrong baby?"

"Just do it like always please. If you d-do it like t-this I'm g—"

Yoongi watched Jimin's body trembled as he came, clenching his walls against Yoongi's member but nothing came out.

"Fuck baby. Was that a... Fuck..." Yoongi groaned watching his boyfriend convulsed with a dry orgasm.

Yoongi wanted to wait until Jimin was done with his wave to move but his last string of control broke at the sight of Jimin — eyes closed shut, back arched, lower lip caught between his teeth and cock still twitching hard.

"Fuck." Yoongi picked Jimin's right leg and hooked it over his shoulder and the flexible boy easily hooked the other leg over Yoongi's other shoulder.

As Yoongi picked up the pace, Jimin's sounds got louder and higher, signalling his release again.

Yoongi thought he never did take notice of these subtle signs but he must have done so subconsciously if he could tell what they meant.

Reaching down to pump Jimin's length as Yoongi felt his release coming closer, Yoongi groaned when he felt Jimin's walls tightened around him.

Jimin whined out Yoongi's name over and over as he came properly this time, Yoongi followed soon after.

It took them a long time to calm down. Yoongi scooped Jimin's body up to snuggle against his side and he breathed in his post-sex scent.

"I don't think I can do slow, hyung." Jimin let out as he struggled to regulate his breathing.

Yoongi couldn't help but chuckle. "If I knew doing it like that could make you feel more, I would've done so a long time ago."

"Shit. I don't think my body could go through that much intensity anytime soon."

Hugging Jimin closer, Yoongi kissed the side of Jimin's head and whispered out the one thing he should have said years before, making the younger cry again.

Yoongi kissed him again and repeated the words as he soothed Jimin.

"I love you."