"What do you want me to do? I can't exactly just go up to him and say 'Hey babe. I'm sorry I made you suicidal. But I really, really do love you,'" the last four words came out a whisper, "'so let's start over.'"

"Okay."

Yoongi turned around so fast at the voice he had missed so much that he felt a muscle pull. But that didn't matter right now.

Jimin was in front of him. Finally.

It took him all his strength not to scoop the fragile looking man into his arms and hug him, to inhale his scent that Yoongi had started to forget and that scared him the most.

Yoongi looked at the man he loved so much. He took in everything he could, the messy hair, the sunken cheeks, and the lifeless eyes.

Yet, Jimin still looked beautiful and the sight of him took Yoongi's breath away.

"J-Jiminie..."

Taehyung and Jungkook moved away from them and Yoongi thanked them in his head, grateful for this moment alone with his Jimin.

"Hi hyung."

"H-how are you?" Yoongi mentally slapped his own mouth. He just drove this kid to take away his own life, yet here he was, asking how Jimin was feeling.

Jimin smiled but the smile didn't reach his eyes and that hurt Yoongi's heart. "I've been better."

Yoongi returned Jimin's smile with a tight-lipped one. He had a million things he wanted to tell Jimin if they ever meet again but right now, the only thing that crossed his mind was "I miss you."

Jimin's once full-of-life eyes glistened.

Fuck.

"I do too." Jimin whispered. "But Jin hyung said I should move on. And the me in the future should have nothing to do with the you right now."

Nodding, Yoongi looked down at his feet. "For once, I actually agree with Jin hyung."

Jimin let out a chuckle, looking at the ducklings that were following the mother on the lake. "He would have loved to hear that."

Smiling, Yoongi nodded again. "Yeah, he would."

Jimin turned away from the ducks to Yoongi. "What are we now, hyung?"

Looking straight into Jimin's eyes, Yoongi dared to ask the inevitable. "Did you mean it? When you said 'okay' just now?"

Jimin bit his plump lower lip and Yoongi clenched his hands so he wouldn't reach out to kiss it. "I do. Did you mean what you said?"

"I do. God knows I do. But baby, I... I have no idea on how to love."

"I've been with you for so long I don't even remember how too."

"But I'm willing to learn. With you. For you." Yoongi sounded a little desperate now, but he didn't care. He needed Jimin to know he loved him. He needed Jimin to see his desperation.

He needed Jimin.

Jimin nodded. "I'd love that." He finally smiled and this time, his eyes did too. And Yoongi could feel his blood pumped faster, sending small eletricity jolts to each nerve in his body.

For the first time since the hospital, Yoongi finally felt alive.

"Can I at least hug you?"

"Not now."

Yoongi's eyes dropped. He understood. He was asking for too much.

"I don't want them to see. They might tell Jin hyung."

"Okay." Yoongi couldn't help but smile even if he couldn't touch Jimin's pale soft skin. "It feels like having to hide around from your parents."

"It really does." Jimin smiled too.

Yoongi took that time to stare at Jimin, to remember every little detail about the man. He took a mental note to make sure Jimin would eat more if they ever got back together.

When they were back together.

"I'll ask Taehyung to bring me here again tomorrow. Maybe we could-" Jimin stopped talking when he saw Taehyung approaching them, handing Jimin his phone.

"Hello? Yes hyung. Okay. I'll come home now." Returning the phone back to the Taehyung, Jimin smiled slightly at Yoongi. "I have to go. It was good seeing you again."

"You too. And Jimin," Yoongi took a deep breath, "I'm sorry..."

His voice was raspy and shaky. Like how a person would sound when he held in his tears.

As Taehyung turned away, Jimin looked at Yoongi and moved his lips, but no words came out.

Yoongi smiled.

I love you too, kiddo.