I'm so eh lately haha

Like I don't really want to go to Aikido or school??? I just sorta want to fade away.

And I feel like trash and kinda paranoid (hmmm) and I'm wondering wtf are these songs in my playlist anyway. (How did you get here I don't remember adding you!!) (curse word coming up) I dunno I want to sleep forever with my weird-ass hyper realistic dreams.

...I'm sorry the sentence sounded weird without that word.

Sorry to be unloading this at you people though. :/ I need a place and this book is becoming less random things more me tossing baggage into baggage claim.

  You know what I find ironic though is that people will say (At school at least) like, 'if you notice these signs then tell someone!1! Or this is how to notice that something's going on and how you should respond' and then no one does. I just can't help but find it ironic. I mean how many people do you think had to sit through classes in health or lectures or whatever, and have to maybe hide their scars when they start talking about cutting, or respond to questions about depression or anxiety because they're experiencing it firsthand? Food for thought.

  I'm so morbid. I'm sorry. I'm just tired.

Also I had three incidences over the past two days where I ended up saying exactly what other people were going to say ('Ah, demon spit?' 'That's what I was going to say!' '...oH!! Haha!!') or doing a vocal thing at the same time and pitch '.-. It was cool.