Ehehe the first chair Tenor Sax couldn't play bc he got braces so I was alone and had to play his solo part and I messed up even though I practiced it because  I can't count that part for crap and then my teacher was like "You have to play it" And I got the notes but I'm 99% sure that the tempo and timing coming in were so off and aaaaah

  And then it just stressed me out because I was feeling anxious already because there's just the two of us (why) and then it got me stressed out more and more anxious and it just spiraled down from there so now I feel pretty bad :D

 So yeah that sucked but I had a fairly good day before that. Idk though lately everything's been stressing me out and I've been feeling down a lot, eeeeh.

I had to go to an Aikido Seminar over the weekend and miss the school retreat where they went to rebuild a fish wall, swim and go canoeing and it made me sad. Because I missed a fun time with bonding in exchange for numb feet :/ The Seminar wasn't that awesome tbh

(Edit 11/28/2015: Okay it wasn't horrible though.)

I feel so bad for posting this tbh but I hate how sensitive I can be sometimes and I hate not knowing what people really think of me and such so that adds more stress and anxiety especially on worse days so I'm just constantly stressed socially

Okay this turned more into a vent session that I really needed more than I expected if you're still reading this then thank you for putting up with this stuff.