Succumbing my mind to the darkness
Until the demons take hold over it,
Demons aspiring to take over my mind,

My thoughts,
My soul,
My memories,
My understanding.

Tearing me,
Shredding my train of thoughts
Into millions of micro splintered pieces
Scattered on the floor.

Confusing me,
Filing me with poison and lies
Until toxic has spread throughout my system, my veins.

I try to be good,
I really, really do.

But it's so hard to be good
When your being is a killing machine,
A vile murderer.

My mind has blackened.

I don't care anymore to be good
It has my mind now;
I can't be saved anymore.

The only thing left is to surrender to its enigma of obscurities
To embrace my shadows,
To dance with darkness,
To be a sinner disguised as perfection.

-j.m.lopez 🖤