14. Ready
The air was thick with the scent of jasmine and the sound of cicadas, the heat of a summer afternoon pressing against the walls of the house like an uninvited guest. Arati sat in the small courtyard, her hands still stained with turmeric from the morning's cooking. It was quiet—too quiet for her liking. Even the occasional rustle of the wind in the trees seemed to be stifled by the tension that lingered in the house. Her father-in-law's words still echoed in her ears, each one a dagger, each one a reminder of the world that waited to judge her, to pull her back into the life that had never truly been hers.
She had never felt more torn—torn between the woman she had been, the dutiful daughter-in-law who had quietly accepted her role in the family, and the woman she was becoming. The woman who dreamed of films, of creating stories, of escaping the confines of her home and stepping into a world where she could be more than a reflection of others' expectations.
Her fingers tightened around the glass of water she held. The heat of the day seemed to reflect the heat of the emotions swirling inside her, but it was Rishi's quiet promise that she clung to, the only lifeline that kept her afloat in the storm of uncertainty.
"Arati," his voice, soft but insistent, had been her anchor the night before. "You're not alone in this. I'll stand by you, no matter what."
But standing by her wasn't going to be enough. Not when her father-in-law's rage filled the house like a thunderstorm, and her own heart was wracked with guilt and confusion. How could she have been so naive? How could she have thought that sharing her dreams, her passion, would not bring this storm crashing down on them?
One evening, as Arati was working in the kitchen, stirring the pot of rice with slow, rhythmic movements, her father-in-law entered. His presence was unmistakable, his heavy footsteps echoing in the quiet room.
"You're still at it, then?" he said, his voice sharp, as if the words had been carefully prepared. "Studying these foolish things. Do you think you'll ever be anything more than a housewife, Arati? Do you truly believe this nonsense will get you anywhere?"
Arati froze, her hand stilling over the spoon, the familiar sting of his words hitting her like a slap. She had expected it, but that didn't make it easier. Her heart raced, and for a brief moment, she thought of retreating, of running back to her study where she could hide behind the books. But instead, she turned slowly, her face calm, her voice even, "I don't expect it to be easy, Baba. But I do expect to live my own life, to follow my own dreams."
Her father-in-law sneered. "Dreams? What you're doing is madness. Women like you shouldn't waste their time on such foolishness. You should be helping your husband, raising children, making this house a home."
"I am making this house a home," Arati said, her voice firmer than she had ever allowed it to be. "But that doesn't mean I can't have my own life too."
Her father-in-law's face twisted in disbelief. "You have lost your mind! How dare you—"
But before he could continue, Rishi stepped into the room, his presence a calm and steady force. His expression was unreadable, but his voice was quiet and resolute.
"Father, enough."
The words hung in the air like an unspoken challenge. Arati could feel the tension rise, could see the storm brewing between them. She wanted to speak, to say something that would break through the tension, but all she could do was watch as Rishi faced his father, his shoulders squared in silent defiance.
"You don't understand," Rishi continued, his voice gentle but firm. "Arati is not just my wife. She is a person. A person with dreams, with ambitions. She deserves the right to pursue them."
Her father-in-law's gaze flicked from Rishi to Arati, then back to Rishi. For a long moment, no one spoke. The silence between them was thick, heavy, as if the entire house was holding its breath. Then, in a voice low and bitter, her father-in-law spoke.
"Is this what you have become, Rishi? Supporting your wife's foolishness?"
"I am not supporting foolishness," Rishi replied, his tone unwavering. "I am supporting my wife. The woman I love. The woman who has a right to be who she is, without fear of being crushed by expectations."
Her father-in-law's face flushed crimson with rage. "You are weak. Letting your wife rule the house, letting her bring shame—"
"I will not let anyone speak of my wife like that," Rishi interrupted sharply, his voice now full of quiet authority.
The words hit Arati like a surge of warmth. She could feel the weight in her chest lift just a little. For the first time in days, she felt something that resembled hope.
Her father-in-law, now quiet, glared at them both, his fists clenched. He opened his mouth to speak again, but Rishi held up a hand, silencing him.
"I am not asking for your approval, Father," Rishi said, his voice calm but firm. "But I will not stand by while you attack Arati for having a dream. This is her life, not yours."
And then, with a final, sharp look, Rishi turned to Arati and took her hand, leading her out of the room, away from the tension that hung thick in the air.
As they reached their bedroom, Rishi turned to her, his eyes soft but serious.
"You were right," he said quietly. "It won't be easy. But you can't let them break you. You've come this far. And I will help you go further."
Arati looked at him, her heart full of gratitude and love.
"I don't know what to say," she whispered, her voice trembling.
"You don't have to say anything," he replied softly, brushing a stray strand of hair from her face.
She nodded, her heart swelling with gratitude for his support. But beneath it, she felt the gnawing anxiety. It wasn't just her father-in-law's disapproval that worried her—it was the entire world outside, the judgment that came with defying expectations. Women like her didn't become directors. Women like her didn't chase their dreams. They got married, had children, and kept their homes in order. They didn't reach for the stars—they settled for the life that was carved out for them.
And yet, Arati couldn't stop. The more she learned about cinematography, about storytelling, the more she saw the world differently. She wasn't just reading words on a page; she was living them, breathing them in, and suddenly, everything she had once known felt inadequate. She wasn't just a housewife anymore. She was an artist, a creator, a woman on the verge of something bigger than herself.
One afternoon, as she sat at the kitchen table with her notes spread out before her, Arati heard a knock at the door. She looked up, startled, as Debi entered with a basket of freshly picked vegetables in her arms.
"Arati, I brought these for the curry," Debi said with a smile, but there was a glint of something else in her eyes. "I heard from Sreeparna and Charulata. They're both proud of you, you know."
Arati's heart skipped a beat. "They told people?" she asked, her voice trembling slightly.
Debi shook her head. "Not in a bad way. They're proud. And Sreeparna said you shouldn't worry about what others think. People can't understand everything. But they see what you're doing. They know your heart is in it."
Arati felt a warmth spread through her chest. "I didn't want to cause trouble," she murmured, looking down at her hands. "I just wanted to share my passion with someone."
"You're not causing trouble, didi," Debi said softly, her tone more gentle than usual. "You're living your truth. And that's something worth celebrating. You're inspiring others, whether you know it or not."
Arati's eyes filled with tears. For the first time in what felt like forever, someone was telling her that it was okay to chase her dreams, that it was okay to be more than what society expected of her.
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Arati sat by the window, the soft light from the kerosene lamp flickering on the pages of her latest film journal, she heard the unmistakable sound of a letter being slid under the door. Her heart sank as she recognized the handwriting on the envelope. It was from her parents.
Her fingers trembled slightly as she opened the envelope, the scent of old paper and ink filling the air. She could already feel the heavy weight of their disappointment in the crispness of the handwriting.
The letter was short but filled with a clear, suffocating concern.
Dear Arati,
We hope this letter finds you in good health. We have heard troubling things from our neighbors, and we cannot keep silent anymore. We are shocked and deeply distressed to learn that you have been pursuing these studies in cinematography and film direction. We understand that your husband, Rishi, has been supportive, but we cannot fathom why you have chosen such a path.
A woman's place is at home, Arati. Your responsibilities lie with your family, your husband, and your in-laws. You are the heart of the household, and such aspirations are not suited to your role. You have been raised with the values of modesty and service, not with the ambition to pursue a career that is foreign to us and to the community we live in.
What will the neighbors say? What will people think when they hear that you, a woman of our family, have abandoned your duties and taken up such... unconventional pursuits? We raised you to be a woman of respect, someone who brings honor to our name. We really did not expect this from you of all people. But this... this is a disgrace.
Please, Arati, consider your actions carefully. We hope that you will remember the life that awaits you as a wife and mother. Do not squander the precious years you have in pursuit of a dream that can never be.
With love and concern,
Ma and Baba
Arati sat, the words burning their way into her heart. She had hoped, deep down, that her parents would understand, or at least give her the benefit of the doubt. But this letter—this condemnation—felt like a hammer to her spirit. She had expected disappointment, but this?
You of all people....
Her hands shook as she placed the letter down as the words relayed in her mind, but the tears that welled up in her eyes were not the ones she expected. They were not of sorrow but of frustration, of anger. Her parents—the people who had raised her, nurtured her—had no understanding of what she was trying to build.
Rishi found her like that, sitting in the dim light of the study, the letter in her hands, her face pale and drawn.
"What's wrong, Arati?", he asked, his voice gentle, yet laced with concern as he approached her.
She couldn't speak at first, her lips trembling as she handed him the letter. Rishi read it silently, his brow furrowing as he reached the final words. When he finished, he placed the letter down on the table beside her and turned to face her.
"I'm so sorry, Arati," he said quietly, "I should have known this might happen. Your parents..."
Arati shook her head, wiping her tears away quickly, frowning heavily.
"I don't understand. Why can't they just see? Why can't they see that this... this is me? This is what I want. This is my dream. It's not about abandoning my family. It's not about disrespecting them. It's about finally being who I am."
"I know," Rishi said softly, kneeling down beside her, his hand resting gently on hers, "I know. And you are so brave for pursuing this, despite everything. But, Arati, we both know that for people like your parents, especially in our society, this is... hard to understand."
She looked up at him, her eyes filled with confusion and hurt.
"I don't care about what society thinks anymore. But my own parents? How could they write to me like this? How could they say I'm disgracing them? Ever since I made sense of things around me, I have been trying my hardest to be the best daughter. Talking when talked to, sitting still, making tea, serving food, eating after everyone, burying down feelings....", her voice cracked.
"I know it's hard," Rishi said, his voice soothing but firm, "But you have to remember, it's not really about you. It's about the world they know. The world that expects women to stay in their place. They love you, Arati. But their love is shaped by the same traditions that they've lived by their entire lives. They can't imagine a woman wanting more than what they've been taught is her duty."
Arati looked down at the letter again, its cruel words still hanging in the air between them.
"Do you think they'll ever understand?", she asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
Rishi didn't answer right away. He reached for the letter, folding it neatly and setting it aside. Then he turned back to her, his expression thoughtful.
"Maybe one day. But even if they don't, it doesn't change what you are doing. What you are becoming. You have every right to pursue your dreams, Arati. You have every right to define who you are, no matter what anyone says. You are not what anyone expects you to be. You are who you choose to be."
Arati closed her eyes, letting his words wash over her like a balm. There were still so many battles to fight—both within her and outside. But for the first time in a long while, she felt something shift inside her. Maybe her parents didn't understand. Maybe the world didn't understand. But Rishi did. And she would not let go of that understanding, not now, not ever.
The next day, as Arati sat in the study, surrounded by her books, her thoughts swirled. The letter had wounded her deeply, but it had also sharpened her resolve. She had spent so much of her life living for others, living according to expectations that were never truly her own. But no more. The dream she was chasing, the path she was on, was hers. And even if she had to walk it alone, she would walk it with her head held high.
She opened her latest book on direction and began to read. Slowly, the words started to settle, and a new fire kindled within her. No matter how long the road, no matter how many doors were slammed in her face, Arati would continue. She would not allow anyone—not even her parents— to silence her.
Later that evening, after a quiet dinner, Rishi returned to their room and found Arati with pen in hand, writing something on a sheet of paper. He came up behind her, his presence warm and familiar.
"What are you writing?" he asked softly.
Arati looked up at him, her eyes reflecting the quiet strength she was beginning to feel.
"I'm writing to my parents," she said, her voice steady.
Rishi smiled, a gentle understanding in his eyes, "I'm proud of you, Arati."
Arati nodded, her heart full.
Dear Ma and Baba,
I understand that you are worried, and I know that this is difficult for you to accept. But I want you to know that what I am doing is not a betrayal of our family or our values. It is not a disgrace.
I have spent my life fulfilling the roles that were expected of me, and I have loved doing so. But there is a part of me that has always longed for something more. My heart calls me to create, to tell stories, and to live as more than just a wife and daughter-in-law.
This is not a rejection of the life you've given me, but an affirmation of my own. I am not abandoning my responsibilities or disrespecting you. I am simply becoming who I am meant to be.
I know you may not understand, and I respect that. But I hope you can accept that this is my choice.
Please trust that I will always love and honor you, no matter the path I take.
With love,
Arati
As Arati sealed the letter, she knew that this was just the beginning of a much bigger journey.
"I've been thinking" she said, her voice full of a quiet excitement, "I want to take the next step. I want to learn about actual filmmaking. Not just theory. I want to see how it's done, to experience it."
Rishi's expression softened, and he walked over to her, his eyes full of understandin,. "I think it's time, Arati. You've been studying hard. You've shown more strength than anyone could ever imagine. Let's take the next step, together."
Arati smiled, her heart lighter than it had been in weeks. For the first time in her life, she wasn't just surviving. She was living. And with Rishi by her side, she felt like the world was full of possibilities.
"I'm ready," she whispered, a quiet affirmation of everything she had learned, everything she had become.
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