Time alone doesn't necessarily mean you're isolating yourself but rather stepping back and finding a new perspective by reflection.

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Angrily, I rose to my feet took a seat on my bed no-one uttering a word. Awkwardness filled the air. "Oh, you're alive?" He asked. "Nia was getting worried."  I looked at Nia and she gave me an apologetic smile. 

Annaya was glaring at me "Couldn't you at least answer the damn door." I was on the edge of letting my emotions go that I had worked hard to control. Yes, I had ignored them all but I needed time so that no-one would feel sorry for me.

If not I would've broken down and cried in front of everyone

 I just needed time to think, everything had been moving so fast I had no time to breathe. 

"Okay everyone go!" Nia yelled, everyone left except her and Annaya.

Though I am 99.99% sure they were listening through the door. "Are you alright?" Annaya asked.

"Yeah I am, my foot is almost healed," I replied attempting to sound happy.

"So no your not," Nia said annoyed.

"I am," I replied.

"No your not!" She yelled.

"Nia ..." I started.

"No Angel listen, I was there at your mom's funeral. I saw your pain the way you were breaking and I know the feeling all too well. I've been there but I had Elijah you have no one, not one person, you cried on your own. You don't open up because you're scared and you pretend your okay. Believing that if you pretend it becomes reality. It doesn't, you mask yourself in front of others and yourself. Your reflection because too unnoticeable and with every day you're falling." Nia had tears streaming down her face she really did understand. 

I hugged her and Annaya joined after letting go I spoke. "No, I trust you and Annaya a lot I have opened up to you two more than imaginable. Thank you, so much for being here and knowing the real me, not the nerd. Not the girl who drank far to much at parties but the real me. I am in pain but as days go by I have to try to be okay and slowly find happiness for me.

"Annaya was crying her tears flowed like a river. Both of them were about to set me off.  Annaya sobbed, "We all have gone through a lot but look now we are able to cry together something we've always done alone." 

"I would join you but I think I have none left." I laughed.

"What the hell Angel, are you a water fountain." Annaya laughed with me.

"You need a refill our something?' Nia said playfully rolling her eyes.

We all sat on my bed laughing hysterically. "Let's go eat." Nia declared.

"I am ..." I felt two heated glares on me. "Definitely very hungry." Exaggerating the d.

As we got up to leave Nia caught sight of herself in the mirror. "Annaya come here, look at what we look like thanks to Angel." She said pointing at her puffy we when Annaya joined her in the mirror she crossed her arms. 

"Ummm, I have makeup and years of experience." I shrugged.

"No we cried and we're proud of it," Annaya said nodding at Nia.

"Okay, you weirdos." I laughed.

"I like your laugh so much." Nia said "Laugh more often.''

"I'll try, let me get a good look at your faces and it'll set me off." I smiled.

"Wow, Angel you're filled with so many facial expressions today," Annaya said giving me a thumbs up. Both of them ignoring my joke so as per usual the person inside my head laughed at her own joke.

"Annaya let's just go." I sighed.

"Another one." Nia chimed.

"Nia sighing isn't a... never mind." I opened the door. They smiled at me cheekily before we all headed downstairs.

I saw the others all scattered around the sitting room acting as if they were doing something. What gave it away was Lucas was holding a magazine but it was upside down. I held a smile, "So Lucas what are you reading?" I asked innocently. Everyone turned to look at him. Annaya and Nia laughed as I smiled slightly watching Brandon shaking his head in dismay and Debbie trying to tell him it's upside down.

"We've got a mission, gather round," Elijah said annoyed. I began to walk to the kitchen to start on dinner. "Lilith where the fuck are you going?" He snapped.

"That way," I replied pointing to the kitchen.

"Didn't you hear we have a mission." He said frustratedly.

"Yeah have fun," I replied unsure of the purpose of this conversation.

Annaya began to laugh and Nia looked very amused. Elijah sighed "You are coming too."

"Oh, why?" I asked.

"Cause it's your job you get paid for this stuff." He replied.

"Then can I have a sick day, my legs still hurt I'll work tomorrow," I said pointing at my leg.

"No, you'll help out a different way then."

"Yeah, I am I was going to make you all something before you leave." I smiled innocently.

"Are you trying to piss me off?" 

"Yes is it working, am I fired or should I quit?" I asked hopeful.

"No Lilith, are you stupid?" He asked me with a sigh.

"No how are you today?" I was in a bitchy mood all of a sudden of course the asshole always brought it out of me.

"They aren't going there today anyways so we can go there tomorrow," Axel said while looking at his phone. I walked into the kitchen wanting a yoghurt. I had begun eating when Nia and Annaya looked at me with lifted eyebrows.

"You can be an annoying ass bitch." Annaya laughed.

"Oh really, shocker," I replied holding my hand to my chest.

"Yeah, we should add drama queen to the list." Nia playfully rolled her eyes.

"You're being a hypocrite," I replied to Nia.

"How?" She asked raising an eyebrow.

"You are the most dramatic person I know." I laughed.

"She's not wrong." Annaya joined me.

"Well, we'll see when your buts are on the floor."  She said placing her hand on her hip.

"See." Annaya and I chimed at the same time before we began to run for our lives around the kitchen before we called for a truce. I don't really know what made Nia scary but I would never want to fight her when she's mad she gives me chills.

"Should we actually cook then?" Nia panted.

"Let's go then," I said breathing out.

"I don't cook, I bake." Annaya smiled.

"What are you baking... actually never mind," I said knowing the answer.

"Cake!" She shouted excitedly.

"Wow, we would've never guessed," I said sarcastically.

"Hey, sarcasm isn't part of my recipe Angel, stick to cooking." She patted me on the shoulder.

"Whatever, Nia are you cooking or baking?"I asked her.

"I prefer cooking but I feel like you've got this on your own wish I could say the same about Miss Cake over there last time amazing cake but nearly burnt the house down." Nia sighed.

"How?"

"She forgot to switch off the oven which led to a fire..."

"Small fire." Annaya interrupted.

"Sure a small fire in the kitchen," Nia said exaggerating on small.

"All of I sudden I don't feel safe," I whispered to Nia.

"Don't worry that's why I'm here." She replied.

"Hey, what's all this whispering about?" Annaya asked while getting the flour.

We didn't answer, Nia went to help Annya while I began my cooking. I got some chicken wings and began to season them adding all kinds of spices and sauces. Once the seasoning was complete, I placed the chicken in the oven leaving space for Annaya. "I left space for your cake," I told Annya as I began to wash the rice.

"We have two ovens," Nia replied "One for desserts and one for normal foods."

"That's extra as fuck," I said starting the rice cooker.

"Welcome to the thug life," Annaya said continuing to mix her mixture.

"I really missed a lot I moved in with you guys but I still don't know the kitchen." I sighed, "I was really off wasn't I?" 

"If you weren't then we would have thought you were a real weirdo and that's saying something coming from me." She smiled.

"That certainly would be something," Nia said concentrating on the icing she was making. I laughed at the way she had sad that without batting an eye. Ignoring, the way Annaya was glaring at her. I went on to make my soup and before long I was finished and so were the girls they were just waiting for the timer of the oven to go off. Then, all they would've left to do was add icing. 

"The icing is all wrong," Annya said frowning at Nia "You added to much icing sugar it shouldn't be this stiff. Let's start over."

"Annaya it's fine." After I had tasted some.

"No, it needs water." She yelled getting a cup of water which Nia snatched before splashing it on her.

"Oops, I thought you were the icing you were acting a little stiff," Nia said glaring at Annaya.

"Bitch!" Annaya yelled and a full-on water fight broke out, running around to the sinks and splashing each other. Causing, everyone in the sitting room to come to the kitchen and see Nia and Annaya drenching each other and me in the middle socked from top to bottom. So happy I was wearing black.

"Omg god are you fucking kidding me both, over fucking icing have you lost your shit!" I yelled at that moment and egg landed on my head the room fell silent everyone was still. I looked at Annaya furious.  "Annaya this better not be what I think it cause I just had the craziest thought you threw an egg and it landed on my head." I breathed in and out and walked towards the cupboard to get a tissue as I opened it a bag full of floor landed on my head.

"Nia you didn't roll the flour up and now I have half a cake on my head." Hesitantly I removed the bag and I took out my phone I really was something. I slumped to the floor in laughter. "You wacky as bitchs never have I been this angry and amused at the same time."

"Really?" Annaya asked.

My face dropped, "Yes, at the moment I'm just damn pissed so pissed that it's funny."

"Sorry Angel." They both said at the same time.

"Yeah just clean up and portion the food the while I sort this out," I said pointing at my head.

"You," I said pointing at Lucus. "You took pictures right?" I held out my hand and he passed me his phone I added my contact and sent myself the pictures and video.

"Oh, you didn't delete them?" He asked confused.

"No cause hate to admit it it's pretty fun and I'll probably laugh at it in a few hours," I smiled. "I  mean we all look stupid."

"Yeah, we do." Annaya laughed as Nia playfully rolled her eyes. I carefully walked out of the kitchen into my room, I wasn't going to spread my mess anywhere else. Laughing slightly, I smiled at my state in the mirror, it had been far too long since I had a food fight. Running the shower at the right temperature I got all my shampoo and conditioners ready. 

Images from the laughs and smiles I've had that day flashed through my head giving me a small fraction of hope that happiness. After a long shower, I wrapped my hair in a towel after changing into comfortable clothes. I headed down the stairs and into the sitting room where everyone was watching t.v. I looked at them for a while a sight which had become in some way homely.

"Oh my Lilith are you checking me out?" Brandon asked with a smirk.

"I wasn't," I replied with the same challenging smirk I walked up to him and scanned him. "Now that I have there isn't much to see," I said bluntly.

"Ouch, you could've left it at I wasn't." He said holding his chest. "Dinner was nice by the way," He smiled.

"Thanks," I replied.

I gave Annya and Nia a smile before looking at the kitchen. "So why is the kitchen still messy?" I asked.

"We thought it'd be smart to clean after we ate." Annaya smiled.

"Okay fair let's clean now then." I sighed.

"Why don't you start without us," Annaya said as Nia moved away from her seat.

"What was that Annya, sounded more like Angel you clean up the mess I made," I said with gritted teeth.

"Yeah..."

"Annya it took nearly an hour to get that shit out and you..." I ran at her ready to do some serious damage.

"Hey, we're all friends here!" She yelled running away we circled the sofas until I jumped over it and dragged her by her ear to the kitchen.

"Ouch Angel that hurts." She complained as everyone laughed.

"Good," I replied.

We spent a long while cleaning that kitchen but when I say it was sparkling after I mean it. Once we were finished Elijah told us the plan for tomorrow.

Was I ready to return to my usual scene...

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