After the awkward breakfast, nagpaalam na si Tristan. I kissed him on the lips in front of my parents. And it wasn't a quick peck on the lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and gave him a long deep kiss. He pulled away after a few seconds. Then he looked at my parents, who were both staring at us, with apologetic eyes.

He politely said goodbye to them. Olivia just gave him a nod and Harold didn't even look at him. Umalis na si Tristan. I watched him go with my arms crossed across my chest and smiled. Dad got up from his seat and went out of the room. It was just me and Olivia.

She stayed quiet and just looked at me.

"May gusto ka bang sabihin?" I asked her.

"You know about your father's condition, Miranda. Please don't upset him."  She said softly.

"Hindi ba ako pwedeng magdala ng kaibigan dito?" I asked innocently.

"What you're doing is immoral. You're a married woman. You shouldn't be fooling around with other men. Paano kung malaman ito ng asawa mo?"

"Immoral? Well, isn't that a bit rich coming from you?" I chuckled. She looked away with guilt on her face. "I can easily get away with it. Jason believes all the lies I tell him."

"What if..." She said in a small voice. "What if you get pregnant again?"

 I glower at her. How dare she? How dare she even bring that up? My hand unconciously clenched. I wanted to scream at her but instead I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe to calm myself. "Wala ka nang pakialam doon. Stay out of my business." I said through gritted teeth. 

"I'm sorry." I heard her say.

A week after nang unang sexual encounter namin ni Tristan nagpatingin ako sa doctor. We didn't use protection and I was scared I might be pregnant. The result came out negative. I felt relieved but a little part of me was disappointed. I don't want to get pregnant again because I'm scared of losing another baby. Since then, I started taking birth control pills. I had a feeling that it will happen again and I was right.

I went upstairs and checked my phone to find 3 missed calls from Aiko. I called her back immediately.

Tristan's POV

Seven days. It's been seven days since the last time I've seen Andi and I miss her so bad. What we did was wrong. But if right means losing her then I'd rather be wrong. I really wish I could have done things differently before. Sana humanap ako ng ibang paraan, sana hindi ko na siya ibinalik sa mga magulang niya pero gulong-gulo ang isip ko at nabalot ako ng takot ng mga panahong iyon. And now, she's married to another guy. 

Hindi ko naman matanong si Phoenix tungkol kay Andi dahil galit siya sa akin dahil sa nakita niya noong social event. Sa tuwing makakasalubong ko siya binibigyan niya ako ng matalim na titig. I wanted to explain to him but I know he wouldn't listen. Matagal na kaming magkaibigan ni Phoenix kaya kilala ko siya. Paniniwala niya lang ang gusto niyang paniwalaan.

"Hi, Cass." Bati ko sa kanya ng makita ko siyang naglalakad sa lobby.

She gave me a faint smile and she sped up her walk, avoiding eye contact with me. Cassie isn't usually like that. Siguro naiilang siya dahil sa paghalik niya sa akin noong nasa party. Phoenix was being an asshole to her at nasaktan si Cassie sa pinagsasabi niya. She probably did it to make him jealous. It did work, didn't it?

Phoenix is still in love with Cassie. And I think Cassie loves him, too. They're just both far too stubborn to admit it. I shook my head. Bakit ba pinoprobelma ko ang love life ng dalawang iyon? I have my own problem. Si Andi. I really want to see her, and talk to her, and hug her, kiss her, make love to her. God, I miss her so much. Pakiramdam ko mababaliw ako kapag hindi ko siya nakita.

Hindi ko naman kayang pumunta sa mansyon ng mga magulang niya. Hindi naman ganun kakapal ang mukha ko. I don't know why Andi did that. Bakit hinarap niya ako sa mga magulang niya at bakit wala man lang nagreact sa kanila. I know they didn't want me there but why didn't they do anything? Nagulat pa ako ng halikan ako ni Andi sa harap nila bago ako umalis at hindi man lang nila kami pinigilan.

Pagkatapos kong matapos ang trabaho sa opisina ay dumiretso ako sa club ni Wayne. I was hoping to see Phoenix there. I needed to talk to him and explain what happened at the party. 

"Hey." 

Napalingon sila sa akin. Nawala ang ngiti sa labi ni Phoenix. Lahat ay natahimik. He gave me a cold glance before walking pass me.

"Saan ka pupunta?" Tanong ni Wayne kay Phoenix. 

"Kailangan ko na umuwi." Sagot niya.

"But you just got here." Si Seth. 

"C'mon guys, you two better sort your shit out." Sabi naman ni Axel.

 I took a deep breathe and looked at Phoenix. "Alam mo kung may problema ka sa akin sabihin mo."

He glared at me and then smirked. "Bakit mo naman iniisip na may problema ako sa'yo?"

"Yung nakita mo sa party. Iyon ba ang kinagagalit  mo?"

"Why would I be mad about that?" His eyes narrowed on me.

"Because you still love her." 

He laughed. "I don't love Cassie. She's just some pussy I fucked. If you ant, you can have my leftover."

"You're a fucking coward." I shouted at him. Nagalit talaga ako sa sinabi niya tungkol kay Cassie. She's a nice woman and she doesn't deserve to be treated like this. "Cassie doesn't deserve you cause you're a coward. Ngayon alam ko na kung bakit ka niya pinagpalit sa ibang lalaki noon kasi-"

Bago ko pa matapos ang sasabihin ko ay naramdaman kong dumapo sa pisngi ko ang kamao niya. Napaatras ako habang sapo ang mukha ko. Nang makabawi ako ay agad ko siyang sinugod ng suntok. It turned into a full on fist fight.

Axel, Seth and Wayne were trying to stop us. Seth grab a hold of me and pulled me away from Phoenix. Hinawakan naman siya nina Wayne at Axel. Pilit kumawala siyang kumawala sa pagkakahawak ng dalawa at sinubukan akong sugurin ulit.

"Huwag kayong manggulo dito!" Sigaw ni Wayne. "Kung gusto niyong magpatayan dun kayo sa labas."

They dragged us out of the club. 

"Ayusin niyo yan." Bulong sa akin ni Wayne. He patted me on the shoulder before going back to the club.

I looked at Phoenix and he's looking right back at me like he wanted to kill me.

"I didn't mean what I said. I'm sorry." Sabi ko. His face changed from angry to confuse. "I was only trying to knock some sense into you. Do you realize what you're doing? You're letting the woman you love slip away from you because of your goddamn pride. Huwag mo na hintayin may dumating pang iba bago mo ma realize yan. Don't wait until it's too late."

Tumalikod na ako sa kanya at sumakay sa kotse.

Pagkalipas nang ilang araw ay tumawag sa akin si Phoenix. He wanted to meet up with me. Nagkita kami sa isang coffee shop.

"Hey." He nodded. I sat at  the chair across him.

"Hey." I said back to him. 

He cleared his throat. "I'm sorry for what happened at the club." Sabi niya.

"It's okay. Kasalanan ko rin naman iyon. I provoked you." 

"Let's just forget it, ok?" 

Tumango ako.

"Pero bago natin kalimutan ang lahat I'd like to make something clear. Cassie is mine, you understand?" He said with a straight face.

I grinned and nodded my head. May bahid ng inis sa mukha ni Phoenix ng ngumisi ako.

"And the kiss. It never happened, ok?" He shot me an annoyed glare.

I smiled even wider. "Ok, got it. It never happened. Never."

Naging okay na ang lahat pagkatapos nun. 

"Dude, kumusta si Andi?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

"I don't know I haven't seen or talked to her since that event."

I slumped back into my seat and sighed. 

"Please, dude, help me. I want to see her so bad." Kung hihilingin niyang lumuhod ako sa harap niya para tulungan niya ako gagawin ko. I'm that desperate.

"You do know she's already married, right?" Tanong ni Phoenix.

"Yeah." Mahinang sagot ko at tumango-tango ako.

Andi's POV

I lined up with the other models as the music start. The models in front of me started walking out onto the runway. My turn comes up, I took a deep breath and stepped out. And I saw his face. Akala ko namalik-mata lang ako. I looked at him again and I knew I wasn't imagining it. He smiled at me and I knew it was real. I tried to ignore him and focus on my walk.

What the hell is he doing here?  When I reached the tip of the runway I striked a pose and turned to walk. Our eyes met again. He smiled at me and the pace of my walk fastened. Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Was all I could think of as I walk back to the backstage.

Hindi ko na siya tinignan nang lumabas ulit ako sa runway. But I could feel his stare.

"Are you ok?" Tanong sa akin ni Aiko pagpasok ko sa backstage.

"Y-yeah." I tried to smile.

I flew to New York para sa fashion week. I had to do this because I already signed a contract with Calvin Klein. After this fashion show, meron pa akong photoshoots.

"Oh my god, Miranda. You will not believe this." Nakangiting sabi ni Aiko habang nakatingin sa magazine na binabasa niya. We're both getting our makeup done.

"What?"

"Miranda de Veyra, the new sex goddess. The icon of sex and fantasy." She read the article out loud. "This is like the biggest joke of the century." Aiko laughed. "Is it possible to be a sex goddess and be sexless? A sexless sex goddess. Ironic, huh?"

I rolled my eyes at her. Sexless? I wanted to laugh.

After the fashion show, nagbihis na ako ng ordinaryong damit. I started to pack up my stuff.

"Miranda, I have to go. My boyfriend's waiting for me outside." Paalam ni Aiko. 

"Okay, bye." Sabi ko. We hugged each other and she left. I met her boyfriend when she picked me up at the airport days ago. He's name is Eric, a lead vocalist of an indie band, they met at a bar a month ago. He seemed like a nice guy. I wonder how long they'll last. Two more weeks, maybe? Wala naman nagtatagal kay Aiko. 

Si Aiko ang unang naging kaibigan ko dito sa States. She used to work as a reception at a restaurant and that's where we met. Nag-apply ako bilang waitress sa restaurant na iyon. Naging malapit kami sa isa't isa dahil siguro pareho kaming Filipina. Then we decided to share apartment because I couldn't afford my rent alone. She used to tag me along to parties at siya rin ang nagtulak sa akin mag-model. 

"Andi." I froze as I heard that familiar voice.

I slowly turned around and saw him. He had a bouquet of flowers in his hand. Inabot niya sa akin ang bouquet. I slung my bag over my shoulder and walked past him. He followed me out of the room.

"Andi, kailangan kitang makausap." He said.

"Leave me alone." I said with a straight face.

"I thought we were ok." 

"You think we're ok just because I had sex with you?" I laughed sarcastically. "It was just sex, plain fucking sex. It's not going to change anything. You're not the only guy I had sex with. And to be honest, you're not that good in bed."

"Mag-usap naman tayo. Pakinggan mo ako." Hinarangan niya ang dadaanan ko. I tried pushing him and he pulled into him and hugged me. "I'm sorry Andi. I'm so sorry. Hindi ko ginustong iwan ka. I love you." 

"I hate you. I hate you so much." I choked a sob and closed my eyes. I felt the sincerity in his voice but i can't let myself trust him again and I won't. He's such a good liar. Naniwala na ako sa kanya noon and look what happened!

"I know." He said with a sad voice. 

But tonight, I wanted to forget everything. Just for tonight. I cupped his face and kissed him. We hurriedly got out when the cab pulled up.

As soon as the front door shut he kissed me torridly. His hands roamed all over my body. I unbuttoned his jacket and slid it off, still kissing him.

He carried me to my room and layed me on my bed. We started undressing each other until we were both fully naked. He lowered his head, his mouth latched onto my right nipple and started sucking it har like a hungry baby. His one hand went down to my stomach and to my tingling and moist flesh. I arched my back so it would press more against his hand.

We both froze when we heard the doorbell ring. 

"Shit!" I pushed him off of me.

"Sino yun?" He asked.

"Si Jason." I answered. Nagdilim ang mukha niya.

Tumayo ako sa kama at hinanap ang robe ko. My phone started ringing and the doorbell rang repeatedly. Hinatak ko si Tristan at ipinasok sa closet.

"D'yan ka lang.Huwag kang lalabas." I said before closing the door.

Lumabas ako ng kwarto at binuksan ang pinto.

"What took you so long to open the door?" He asked as his eyebrows furrowed.

"I-I was in the shower so I didn't hear the doorbell ring." 

He smiled and hugged me.

Tristan's POV

Pagkaraan ng 30 minutes ay narinig kong bumukas ang pinto. I peered through the small crack of the louvered closet door. Pumasok si Andi at may sumunod sa kanya. Si Jason. He wrapped his arms around her waist from the back. He gave her small kisses on her neck. I felt my jaw clenched and my hands formed into fists. Gusto kong lumabas sa closet at hatakin palayo si Andi mula sa kanya. He moved the robe off her shoulder and started kissing her there.

I closed my eyes not wanting to see her being kissed by another man. I swallowed the lump in my throat and my eyes stung with tears that were threatening to spill. Hindi ako nakatiis. I opened my eyes again and I saw them on the bed. He was kissing her on the lips. Her arms wrapped around her neck. His hands were running up and down the side of her thigh.

And that was it. Hindi ko na nakayanan. Lumabas ako sa closet at hinatak ko siya sa likod ng shirt niya. 

"What the fuck?" Kunot ang noong tumingin siya sa akin.

"Tristan!" Narinig kong sigaw ni Andi.

I was about to throw a punch at him nang bigla akong pigilan ni Andi. She slapped me across the face.

"Get out!" She pushed me. "Get out of my house!"

"Andi." I tried to get closer but she stepped back.

"Aalis ka dito o tatawag ako ng pulis." Sabi ni Jason.

"Umalis ka na dito!" Mariing sabi ni Andi.

I gave her one last look before I said I love her and walked out. My chest tightened with tears as I try to hold it back. I took a deep breath.