Andi's POV

Nanonood kami ni Tristan ng tv. His head is resting on my lap. I gently stroke his hair and looked at him. He's been really sweet to me simula ng mag-confess siya ng feelings niya sa akin. Pero I'm not sure kung ano ba talaga kami. We kiss pero simple and short peck on the lips lang, it's not a passionate kiss we shared noong night na may nangyari sa amin. Boyfriend ko na ba siya? I don't really know how relationships work. I've never had a boyfriend before.

"Bakit?" Tristan asked when he caught me looking at him.

"Nothing." I answered. But I really wanted to ask him kung ano na ba status namin. Pero I don't have the guts. Should I just be contented sa kung anong meron kami? 

Binalik niya ang atensyon niya sa tv. 

"Tristan, how many girlfriends have you had before?" I asked, out of curiousity.

"Hmm... hindi pa talaga ako nagkakaroon ng girlfriend sa totoo lang." Sabi niya. 

"Really?" I'm not convinced. Impossible na hindi pa siya nagkakaroon ng girlfriend.

"Bakit parang hindi ka naniniwala? Hindi pa talaga. Just short flings and casual sex." Sabi niya. Then napaupo siya at humarap sa akin. "Pero alam mo, Andi, may nakilala akong babae. Maganda siya at mabait. Gusto ko na nga yata siya eh. Ano sa tingin mo ang dapat kong gawin para mapasagot siya? Hindi kasi ako marunong manligaw."

I looked down trying not to cry. God! Meron na pa lang siyang babaeng nagugustuhan. So all those kisses and hugs meant nothing to him? Am I just one of his flings?

His hand held my chin, forcing me to look at him. My vision were blurry with tears. "Andi, bakit?"

Inilayo ko ang mukha ko sa kanya at umiwas ng tingin. "W-wala. I got something stuck in my eye."

"Ah ok. Gusto kong makilala mo siya, Andi. May date kami ngayon at isasama kita." Sabi niya. What a sadist! He knows naman that I'm inlove with him tapos gusto niyang iharap ako sa babaeng gusto niya! 

"No, thanks. I'll stay here na lang." Sabi ko. Tumayo ako sa couch at lumakad papunta sa kwarto.

"Saan ka pupunta? Hindi pa tapos ang palabas." I heard him say. I ignored him. Who gives a darn about the show. I so hate him. Pinaasa niya lang ako. May pa- I like you I like you pa siya. Yun pala may iba na siyang nagugustuhan.

After a few minutes, kumatok siya sa pinto ko. "Andi, nagtext na siya sa akin. Papunta na daw siya. Kailangan na natin umalis."

"Then go! I'm not going with you. Ayokong maistorbo ang date niyo." Sabi ko.

"Gusto ka nga niya makilala." Sabi niya. What an ass!

"Ayoko! Dito na lang ako." Sabi ko naman.

He opened the door at pumasok sa kwarto ko. 

"Ang rude mo talaga. You can't come into my room!" 

"It's not locked." 

I crossed my arms. "That's cause it doesn't have a lock."

"Sumama ka na, please?" He begged.

"Bakit ba gusto mo ko isama? Do I really have to be there?"

"Oo naman. You're important to me, Andi. Gusto kong makilala mo ang unang babaeng nagpatibok puso ko." He said with a big smile on his face. Oh how I envy that girl. I wish I could make Tristan that happy. 

Maybe yung like na sinasabi niya is different sa like na iniisip ko. He just likes me as a friend? But why does he kiss me? Kasi gusto niya lang? This guy is so difficult.

Bigla niya hinatak ang isang kamay ko. "Halika na."

"I said I don't want to go!" I shouted. Hindi niya ako pinansin. Hinatak niya ako palabas ng apartment at bumaba kami at sumakay sa motorcycle niya. Napilitan na akong sumama sa kanya. We went to this fancy restaurant.

Pinaupo kami ng receptionist sa isang table. I flipped open the menu that was given to us by the waiter. Ang mamahal ng mga food. Tristan is very frugal hindi siya gagastos ng ganito kamahal, he must really like the girl.

"Umorder ka na." Sabi niya.

"Nasaan na yung date mo?" Tanong ko.

"Traffic daw kaya medyo mala-late siya. Umorder ka na lang." He said.

Pumili ako ng pinakamahal na food to get back at him. He is such a dickhead for making come with him sa date nila ng girl na gusto niya!

"I'll have steak and lobster." Sabi ko sa waiter.

"How would you like your steak cooked?" Tanong ng waiter.

"Medium well." Sagot ko. 

Humarap siya kay Tristan. "How about you, sir?"

"Ah... tubig na lang ako." Sabi ni Tristan.

Umalis na ang waiter pagkatapos nun.

"Why didn't you order anything?" I felt bad. I'm sure Tristan worked hard for that money at masasayang lang dahil sa expensive na pagkaian. 

"Hihintayin ko pa siya." Sabi niya.

"Oh... okay." 

Dumating na ang inorder kong pagkain pero wala pa rin ang date niya. 

"Gusto mo?" Tanong ko while digging in to my food.

"Oo ba." Sabi niya. And I shared my food with him. Nagustuhan niya naman iyon. Mauubos na namin ang pagkain namin pero hindi pa din dumadating ang ka-date niya. I don't know kung tatawanan ko siya o maaawa ako.

"Are you sure pupunta pa siya?" I asked.

"Sigurado akong pupunta yun." 

"Then why isn't she here yet? We've been here for almost an hour." 

"Oh nandito na pala siya. Sabi sa'yo dadating yun!" Napangiti siya while looking sa pinto ng restaurant. 

Napatingin dina ko doon. "Where?"

"Ayun oh!" Sabi niya and looked at me.

Ang dami kasing naglalabas-pasok sa restaurant. "What is she wearing?"

"White shirt, jeans, flip-flops, glasses." Sabi niya habang nakatingin sa akin. Napatingin ako sa suot ko. I'm wearing white shirt, and jeans, and flipflops, and glasses. Napaawang ang bibig ko.

"Kanina pa pala siya nandito." He said smiling then he took my hand. "Ang tagal kong naghintay na dumating ka sa akin. Pero hindi ko agad na realize na ikaw na pala ang hinihintay ko."

I wanted to jump into his arms. All along ako yung binabanggit niyang babaeng gusto niya? 

"Y-you don't know how happy you made me, Tristan." I said.

"Hindi mo rin alam kung gaano mo ako pinasaya mula nang dumating ka sa buhay ko." He said and kissed my hand. 

He paid for the bill and we left the restaurant. Umuwi na kami pagkatapos.

"Tristan, I'm so sorry kasi napagastos ka ng mahal. I know we don't have alot of money. Dapat nagamit mo yun sa mas important na bagay and nagastos mo lang sa isang dinner." I bit my lower lips.

"Okay lang yun. Masarap naman eh. Saka first date natin iyon kaya worth it naman." Sabi niya.

"I did that to get back at you. I was really jealous kasi nung sinabi mong may gusto kang ibang babae." 

He grinned. "Hindi ko alam na selosa ka pala."

Niyakap niya ako at hinalikan sa labi. I knew it was going to be a quick peck on the lips na naman. Before he could pull his head away, I wrapped my arms around his neck. I'm ready to give myself to him. I kissed him back passionately. I could tell that he was surprised because his lips stopped moving. I ran my tongue along his lips. Nagsimula na ulit gumalaw ang lips niya. He nibbled on my bottom lip and I opened my mouth for him. He slipped his tongue in my mouth and I could taste him. He taste so good. I've been craving for this kind of kiss.

Hinawakan ko ang isang kamay niya and brought it to my breast. I want him to touch me everywhere like he did before. He cupped my breast and gently massaged it. He caressed it over and over. Then he suddenly stopped. Bumaba ang kamay niya sa tiyan ko and it went inside my shirt. Tinanggal niya ang hook ng bra ko and his hand went back to my breast. His hand freely touching my bare breast. He rubbed my nipple between his fingers and it feels so good.

His lips left mine and traveled down my neck. He sucked and gently bit it.

"Oohh..." I moaned.

I ran my fingers through his hair and grabbed on. Para akong nanghihina and I needed something to cling on to. Itinaas niya ang shirt ko at bumaba ang ulo niya sa dibdib ko. He sucked my left breast while his hand massaged my right breast. He took my nipple in his mouth, lightly biting it. His mouth is so hot and wet.

I was disappointed when he stopped. But then, he took my hand and brought me to his room. I thought he was going to stop na talaga. Pinahiga niya ako sa kama niya. And I watched him as he take off his clothes. I stared at his nakedness. Hanggang sa bumaba ang mata ko sa thing niya! It's so long and thick. I wanted to look away pero I can't.

"Pwede ka pang magback out." Sabi niya.

"No, I want to do it na." 

Sumampa na siya sa kama. "Andi, hindi mo kailangan pilitin ang sarili mo. Maiintindihan ko kung tatanggi ka."

"I... I want this!" I grabbed his thing with my hand. It was hard. "I really do, Tristan."

He groaned and I instantly pulled my hand away.

"Oh my god! I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm so sorry." I said, embarrased. 

"Hindi iyon masakit. It feels good." Sabi niya.

Ibinalik ko ang kamay ko sa kanya. I got really curious and let my hand explore his thing. Inalis niya ang mga kamay ko doon.

"Kapag itinuloy mo yan. Maagang matatapos ito." I didn't understand what he meant pero tumigil na din ako.

He started taking off my clothes too hanggang sa hubad na din ako katulad niya. He opened my leg and started kissing my tummy down to my private part. He planted small kisses around it.

"Please, Tristan..." I whimpered. I want him to touch me there. I moaned when his lips reached my slit. He opened my womanhood hood with his two fingers and licked it. He found the most pleasurable part. He started licking and sucking it. He licked it in circular motion, it made my leg tremble. 

I felt his finger push inside me. It didn't hurt like before but I felt a slight discomfort. He started moving it in and out of me hanggang sa sumarap na. He was going so fast and I wanted to explode. Then slowly slid another finger and I felt a sharp pain.

"Relax, Andi... I'm trying to loosen you up." He said. He continued moving his finger, very slowly. Hanggang sa makapasok na ito. He took his finger out and in again. He was going faster hanggang sa wala na akong maramdaman na sakit.

I felt this sensation in the bottom of my stomach. I need to let it out because if I don't I feel like I'll explode. My back arched off the bed, I can feel it flowing out of me. My whole body is shaking.

He stopped licking me and knelt between my legs. He looked at me with his clouded dark eyes. He spread my legs wide open and pulled me closer to him. His huge thing brushed along my lady part. I took a deep breath. Here it goes. Andi, please, don't ruin this! Sa una lang masakit yan, after that hindi na. Just like yung mga nababasa ko sa pocketbooks.

He pressed against my entrance. He slowly thrust himself in. He moved inch by inch and bent down to kiss me on the lips. Napakapit ako sa braso niya. His lips distracted me from the pain. But God, it still hurts. My nails dig into his flesh.

"D-don't stop, Tristan. Just keep going." I whispered. 

He started moving a little faster hanggang sa mabawasan na ang sakit. He moved in and out of me. I felt both pleasure and pain. 

"Andi, malapit na ako..." He panted.

And I could feel it again. That pleasant pressure swelling inside me. I let myself go, my body started to relax. He made one lst huge thrust and I felt a warm, thick liquid shooting inside me. He rolled off of me and lie down beside me.

"That would be five thousand pesos." He said with his eyes half open. 

"Huh?" I stared at him confused.

"May 50% discount ka pa nga. I normally charge ten thousand for sex." Sabi niya.

"I- I don't have money." Sabi ko.

"Ang dami mo ng utang sa akin, Andi. Hindi bale, nakalista na lahat iyon." He chuckled. I realized that he was just kidding.

He nuzzled his nose into my neck. 

"Tristan, what are we?" I can't help but ask. We already had sex yet hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano ba talaga kami.

"Tao." Pilosopong sagot niya.

"I'm serious." I said.

"Sa akin ka lang at sa'yo lang ako." He answered before giving me a kiss on the neck.

"So... you're my boyfriend na?" 

"Kung sasagutin mo ako." He said.

"My answer is yes." I said, smiling.

"Girlfriend na kita, wala ng bawian. I love you, mahal ko." Sabi niya. I felt butterflies in my stomach when he said I love you tapos he called me 'mahal ko'. Am I just dreaming? Kasi kung dream to I don't want to wake up na.