Hindi na kami madalas nag-uusap o nagkikita ni Aiko. She's always busy with Tristan. I don't know what's the real score between them since I never bothered to ask but I do know they've been seeing each other a lot.  Naisipan kong bisitahin siya. I wanted to know what's going on between the two of them. I hope it's nothing serious.

I got in my car and went to her condo. I pressed the doorbell and waited for someone to open the door but no one did. So I turned the doorknob and I found out it wasn't locked. Gosh! Napakaburara talaga ng babaeng iyon. She always forgets to lock her door. Paano kung may pumasok na magnanakaw dito? I called her but no one answered so I just welcomed myself in.

"Aiko?" Tawag ko ulit sa kanya. I heard her voice from her room but I didn't understand what she was saying. Akala ko alam niya nang nakapasok ako sa condo niya. Lumapit ako sa kwarto niya and the door was slightly opened. I peeked inside and what I saw made my heart drop. 

I was frozen for a moment, my jaw dropped in disbelief and my eyes widened in shock. My head was spinning and my heart was aching. I slowly took steps back and hit something behind me. Nahulog ang vase na nakapatong sa mesa sa tabi ng sofa. It made a loud crashing sound as it hit the floor and shattered into tiny pieces. I wanted to run from this place but my feet felt like it was stuck to the ground.

"What was that?" I heard Aiko said. Lumabas si Tristan mula sa kwarto. We just stared at each other for a few seconds. I could see the shock in his face when he saw me. His face went from shock to emotionless. Lumapit si Aiko kay Tristan and wrapped her hands around him from behind.

"Oh hi, Miranda." She said with a smile. 

"I-I'm so sorry." Napayuko ako. I was trying so hard to hold back my tears. Damn it, Andi, don't cry. Sabi ko sa sarili ko. "Sorry talaga nabasag ko pa itong vase mo." 

"It's okay. I hated that vase anyway." Aiko giggled. "Kanina ka pa ba nandito?"

"K-kararating ko lang. I'm so sorry." I said, trying to keep my voice steady. I didn't want to look at them so I kept my eyes on the ground.

"Don't worry about it. Bakit ka nga pala nagpunta dito?" 

"I just... uh... dropped by to say hello." Sabi ko. 

"Guess what?" She said with a huge smile on his face before looking at Tristan with twinkling eyes. Tristan averted his eyes from mine to Aiko's. They were both staring at each other and I knew what Aiko was going to say. I knew she was going to say the words I dreaded to hear. Binalik ni Aiko ang tingin niya sa akin. "Boyfriend ko na siya! He asked me to be his girlfriend kanina." Aiko said happily. Umakbay si Tristan sa kanya and he kissed her on the side of her head. Watching them was torture.

I felt physically sick. I had to inhale deeply to keep the tears at bay. I didn't even know how I managed to smile. "Oh...  I'm so happy for you guys." I tried to sound cheerful but my voice slightly cracked. Good thing they didn't notice it. 

 "I-I need to go." Sabi ko. I didn't know how long I could hold my tears.I could feel myself slowling losing control.

"Already? But you just got here." Sabi ni Aiko.

"May pupuntahan pa kasi ako. Dumaan lang ako dito." Dahilan ko.

"Oh ok. See you when I see you." Sabi niya.

I answered her with a smile before turning around. Nagmamadali akong lumabas sa condo ni Aiko. I was half running, half walking. I just wanted to get out of that place. I found myself crying in the elevator. Hindi ko na napigilan ang pagbuhos ng emotion ko. I couldn't believe it. I don't want to. They probably continued doing it pagkalabas ko sa condo. It hurts so bad thinking of him kissing another girl, touching her in intimate place... just like he does to me. What's worse is sa best friend ko pa niya iyon ginagawa. 

I still couldn't stop crying while I was driving. I still couldn't stop my tears when I got out of the car. 

"Hey, what's wrong?" Tanong niya ng makasalubong ko siya. 

"Nothing..." Mahinang sagot ko while I was looking at the floor.

"No, you don't cry about nothing." Sabi niya. Napayakap na lang ako sa kanya at umiyak. He rubbed my back while I cry. He brought me to our room and tried to comfort me.

"Si Tristan ba ang dahilan?" He asked. I didn't answer. "What did he do to you?"

"Sila na ni Aiko." I couldn't contain my sobs.

"So you still love him huh?" He said in a low voice. 

"I don't want to but I do." Pag-aamin ko.  

"He's the guy who left you three years ago. Are you forgetting that, Andi? You shouldn't love him. Hindi ba kaya ka bumalik dito para gumanti sa ginawa niya sa'yo." He said with frustrated tone in his voice. I didn't say anything I just kept crying. He cupped my face and kissed me on the forehead. "Stop torturing yourself. You've had enough. You deserve to be happy... Tigilan mo na ang mga ginagawa mo. Maybe if you let go of your hate for him, you'll finally let go of all the feelings you have for him."  

He lowered his head to me and kissed me on the lips. I was shocked at first. We never kiss when we're alone. His eyes were closed so I closed mine too and kissed him back. We've kissed before but it was all fake. It was all for the show. Noong nasa New York kami and I hid Tristan in the closet. Nung sinundo niya ako sa airport... It was all fake.

And now that its real, it felt wrong. It always feels wrong when I'm kissing another guy other than Tristan. I hated it. I dated alot of guys but I couldn't bring myself to sleep with them. Siya palagi ang naiisip ko and right now I just want to stop thinking about him. I kissed Jason harder trying to make it feel right. He gently pushed me down and I felt my back touch the bed. I opened my eyes. 

I suddenly pulled away from the kiss and he looked at me confused. "What's wrong?"

"I just- I can't... I'm sorry." Sabi ko sa kanya. Hindi ko kaya.

"No, I'm sorry." He whispered. 

Jason had been there for me when no one else was and he understood how I felt. Sometimes I wish I could love him back.

Tristan's POV

I just watched her walk away. I was just standing, watching her leave. I didn't do anything. Every step she took was like a stab in my heart. I wanted to ran after her but I couldn't. I guess I've accepted that we just couldn't be together again. It's not that she's not worth the fight anymore. She said she didn't want me anymore. Ito naman ang gusto niya hindi ba? She was the one who asked me to let her go.

"Babe..." Naglalambing na sabi ni Aiko paglabas ni Andi sa pinto. I closed my eyes tightly and inhaled a deep breathe. I didn't even know if I made the right decision. I didn't do this to hurt Andi. I really do like Aiko... but I love Andi. Hindi na magbabago iyon pero sinusubukan ko naman na siya kalimutan. Masaya na siya kay Jason at nangako akong hindi ko na siya guguluhin pa. I broke that promise at Phoenix's wedding. I lost control. Nagseselos ako habang nakikita ko silang magkasama ni Jason. Naiinis ako sa tuwing hahawakan niya si Andi. I felt like I should be the only one touching and kissing her. Ngayon tutuparin ko na ang pangako ko sa kanya. I'm going to try to move on. Hindi ko na guguluhin ang relasyon nila. 

"Tristan." She said trying to get my attention. I woke up from my thoughts and looked at her.

"Come on..." She smiled teasingly. She took my hand and pulled me back in the room. I took her out to dinner at inihatid ko siya dito. Next thing I knew she was kissing me and leading me to her bed. And  before we could do anything Andi came.

She bit her lower lip seductively and looked me in the eye while unbuttoning my shirt. Pinigilan ko ang kamay niya when she got to the fifth button.

"I don't think this is a good idea." Sabi ko sa kanya.

"Why?" She looked at me puzzled.

"I don't  have any protection with me." Sabi ko. I would never be stupid enough to have sex with a girl without protection. I use protection with every girl I've been with. Except Andi. We never used condom once. I love feeling her raw insides. When we were still together, we always use pull out method but most of the time I forget and come inside her. She was too young at that time and I thought it would be selfish if I get her pregnant. Pero kung sakaling mabuntis siya ng mga panahong iyon I would be the happiest guy. Deep down I was secretly wishing she would get pregnant. Now she and her husband are planning to have a baby together. It hurts like hell to even think of her carrying another man's child. 

"May convenience store sa labas." Sabi ni Aiko. 

"I'm sorry, Aiko. I'm tired." Sabi ko sa kanya. "I think I'll just go home."

"Tristan." She pouted.

I smiled faintly and kissed her on the forehead. "Goodnight."