Lukas ran out of the house as fast he could he texted his friend Navia

Lukas: Hey had a little issue can I come by for awhile?

Navia: sure
...

Lukas got on his motorcycle and rode off to Navia's house when he got there he knocked on the door texting Navia that he was there.

Navia stopped talking to her friends and ran to the door to let Lukas in. "Guys this is Lukas he's a friend" Navia said pointing to Lukas.

"Lukas these are Dove, Briar, Lakota, Nova and Lachlan" Navia introduced "hi" they all said smiling. "Sit down" Navia smiled Lukas did as requested "so what's up?" Navia asked sitting beside Lukas.

"I just- I keep having nightmares about when I found Philip passed out in the barn. I was scared, I didn't know what to do and I got nervous when I was sick and kissed Philip to find him in the closet of the house with half the cough medicine empty. We argued about me pushing him away and I ended up running out of the house. I pushed him and yelled at him. I'm a terrible person" Lukas sighed.

"Lukas, it's okay you were concerned you're allowed to show emotions to people it doesn't make you look weak. It makes you look strong. It shows that you trust someone and if you show your emotions Philip will show his." Nivia explained.

Lukas broke "then one day 7 months ago Philip found me passed out with tons of empty bottles. I just couldn't take it I felt like if I was to leave the world it would make Philip a better person than me" Lukas choked up "you felt as if you drank it would repress your memories and nightmares. You thought you were ruining Philip for loving him. You felt like it would ruin your reputation." Nivia concluded Lukas nodded his head tears glossing his eyes.

"I can't love him. I don't know how" Lukas spoke softly. "Oh Lukas, it's okay to not know how to love someone. Love is like when you want to just hold someone or something and tell them stories or express their best features. Love is when your heart beats fast and your cheeks light up. When you cant help but compliment the person" Nivia said.

"He said that I kept closing up. Pushing him away. But hiw can I let him in when all that's going to happen is I make him a bad person make him someone he's not. I can't do that. I shouldn't." Lukas let it all out he let his walls down to show how much he was hurting.

He didn't care if Nivia or her friends saw he just couldn't keep hiding it.