I swear I've been dying lot recently (not literally off course), but recently Leo has been so nice and sweet to me... My brain just couldn't handle it, so it kept getting shut down from time to time. After the chocolate incident, I blushed like a retard every time he looked at me. The rest of the day past by smoothly. We talked, ate, laughed, just like close friends. Leo has been taking care of me a lot. Over all, I felt like I was living in dream land. It was so surreal. I secretly pinched myself from time to time to remind myself it was real. And it was! It was all real!

However, I knew it couldn't last long. Just as the time was approaching for us to go home, I felt a restless sadness inside me. It wouldn't say I didn't see it coming, because I did. When I first started to like Jinhee and Hongbin's company, I knew I was in trouble. Especially Jinhee. She has started to feel like a best friend, and it's ironic since I only knew her for a couple of days. I guess you don't need time to feel closer to someone (Biggest example would be Leo).

While on the other hand, I've known Yuki, a Japanese student, for 3 years- and the closest I've felt with her was when we sometimes went shopping or to the movies. That is basically all we did. I used to think she was my best friend because we hanged out a bit more than my other friends. It was usually her who called asking to hang out. Now that I think about it, perhaps because she was a foreigner and she probably can't blend well with other Koreans. I was one of the first people who befriended her, maybe that's why she always insisted to tag along with me. Wow. I can't believe I'm doubting my three years of friendship over a 5 days one.

When I first came to Bali, I never imagined it'd change my life this much. And me as well. I can't say I'm the person I was a week ago. I became more open minded and outspoken. I wonder what my mother would think of me now. But for the first time, I wasn't scared of her. Because that wasn't my home anymore. I don't have to care what she thought anymore. My place was with Leo. He was my family now.

That day, Jinhee was acting extra caring, which was weird to everyone but me. The boys went to their rooms and we went shopping together after coming back, even though I was tired. We bought a lot of dresses and tops and shoes. Jinhee, as promised helped me through them all. She said my taste in clothing got better but I still needed to work on it when I insisted on buying a cat print shirt. I didn't mind though, I bought it anyway and Jinhee got it for me cheaper by bargaining with the seller. She's like a pro.

That night when we came back to our hotel, she hugged me in front of my room. She said this,

"I'll kill you if you forget about me when you go back to your fancy smancy house in Korea." I laughed. I promised her I'll keep in touch with her and that we weren't leaving right away. We still had some time left.

She just nodded with her lips smacked tight.

"I'll give you a surprise tomorrow." She said. "Because I like you. I wish you could've stayed here longer then I would have shown you the entire Bali. There's still so much you haven't seen."

"I'll come back. Definitely." I assured her.

"You say that now, but who knows when. I'll miss you." She looked sad. Which made me happy, as weird as that sound. I guess I was tired of all my fake friends.

"I'll miss you too." I said with glassy eyes. "I'll see you tomorrow. Good night." I said turning away before I started crying.

I entered the room, Leo was on his phone on the bed. He looked up and frowned in worry when he saw my on-the-verge-of-crying face.

"What's wrong?" He asked, putting his phone away. I went to the bed laid down next to him in a fetus position and turned the other way.

"Nothing." I said as I tried to control my tears.He snaked his arms around me into a protective hug and whispered on top of my head,"It's okay. I know you got attached to everyone here. You don't want to leave. Right?" He said as I nodded my head. How did he know?

"I understand. But we have go to back. You know that." He said as I nodded again. I was crying because I knew that.

"Shush now, don't cry. Everything will be all right." He said as his hand was running through my hair. It was so warm and felt so nice, I was in bliss. Not even my mother was so caring. And for the first time I realized that he cared about me. He cared, he listened, and he understood me. I never had someone like that before. My chest swelled with a feeling I couldn't understand. So this must be how it feels to be loved.I didn't want to lose him. He was all I had now. I loved him more than anything else. Even if it meant I'd have to give up on my studies then so be it. I surprised him by turning around to face him. He looked at me in wonder. I smiled and wrapped my arms around him, my face near his throat. I could see his Adams apple as he gulped, probably out of surprise. Closing my eyes, I inhaled his wonderful smell. I think I heard him laugh quietly before he hugged me tighter. And there we laid, our body entangled and close, it wasn't uncomfortable at all. It was the exact opposite. It was a symbol, a symbol that no matter who I lose in the future, I'd always have him and he'd always make me feel better just by being there by my side. That night we fell asleep like that, and I think I dreamt about laying under the stars with Leo. I wasn't sure but it was pleasant.