Even as the couple left, I didn't feel as great as I thought I'd feel. I still wanted to cry, and I still felt like crap.

"Master! What did you think of the food?" Hongbin asked dramatically to the older, wiser chef. His eyes hopeful.

"It was all right. A bit better than average, I'll give you that. You used a special herb I see." Hongbin smiled.

"As expected! You noticed!"As hongbin and his 'master' was having a deep conversation about pots and kettles, I slipped away and ended up outside the restaurant. It wasn't as hot anymore as it was becoming evening and the sun seemed to calm down a bit. Not as aggressive as before. But my heart didn't calm down. Unlike the sun. It only burned more. Like a forest fire. Once it's lit, it's very hard to control. And as we speak it has already spread and burned everything. It's one of my flaws. I'm aware of it. I stared off at distance, nowhere in particular. Because I felt blind. It was just me and my depressing thoughts. Weighing me down. Everything else was a blur.

"Miha..." Leo called softly. He followed me. Why did he follow me?As he spoke it felt like someone dropped a rock on my chest.

"Please...Talk to me." I wish I could Leo, but something is stuck in my throat. I can't. No words would come out. What am I supposed to say? As I watch you stare at your ex-wife with melancholy longing? Even when she's with another man!

"Miha..." He called again, yet I kept my back towards him the whole time. He didn't try to turn me around either. Looks like he's not ready to face me as well.

"Miha!" This time it was not Leo. "The car is ready." Hongbin called off.

***

I reached our room and a relief came over me. As soon as I entered the room, I stormed off to the bathroom and took a long hot shower. And off course, it was just an excuse to cry my insides out. My waling and weeping sounds were perfectly covered by the sound of the water falling from the shower head.

After I was done crying a river, I felt a little better. I looked at the mirror and my eyes were puffy and red.

Who cares? That's right. No one.

I stormed out, heading straight for the bed. It seemed like a routine now. I didn't even pay any attention to what Leo was doing. He might as well have been dying or not in the room at all for all I cared.

"Miha..." He let his presence known by calling out my name but by that time I was already under the protection of the blankets. He couldn't see my face so I might as well pretend to be sleeping...again. Although I know he won't buy it, nobody falls asleep in 2 seconds but he can't do anything either. He knew. He knew that I knew who Sena was. He didn't do or say anything wrong, so why was he apologizing? I would have forgiven him thinking I'm overreacting, perhaps I misunderstood his expression. But if he had nothing to be guilty about, what is with the guilty tone? Why is he calling my name repeatedly like he's sorry about something? Where did the confident Leo go?

I ignored him. And after the 5th time, he also gave up. I almost wished he'd try to cuddle again like last night just so I could swat away his hand. But nothing like that happened and he accepted defeat quietly, like a coward. Which only seemed to tick me off even more. It wasn't even night, yet I felt my eyelids drooping. I felt the bed dip next to me but he made no attempt to disturb me. The event of today put more mental strain on myself than I imagined. Because I felt myself feeling lighter and lighter until I fell asleep...but not in bliss.

A sudden sound made me jolt awake from my slumber. At first I wasn't sure what kind of sound it was. Maybe Leo was doing something, I thought. So I closed my eyes once again. I didn't care what he did anymore. But after the third time I realized it was a knocking sound. Someone was knocking on the door. It seemed like whoever was on the other side, wanted to be as careful as possible. The knocking sounded controlled and soft yet audible.

Knock knock.

There it goes again. This time the sound is even more desperate. I slipped the blanket away from my face, but barely. Just enough for my head to snap to the side slightly to capture the time from the clock that was on the wall.

1:47 am

What the heck? How long did I even sleep?When I turned my head a little more I noticed Leo's face, which was a bit too close for my liking. He wasn't touching me but his body was relatively close to mine. As close as it can be without touching. His forehead was creased, the annoying guest was disturbing his slumber as well.

Knock Knock.

I quickly turned around and threw my blanket over my head as I caught Leo's body turning in annoyance. I heard him mutter some curse words and felt the bed get lighter as he got off the bed towards the source of the noise.

"Hongbin, if it's you I swear-"

His annoyed rant got cut off by whatever was standing behind that door.I felt my urge to come out and see what got Leo tongue twisted but decided against it.

"S-Sena?" He stammered out as I felt a chill down my spine.

"What are you...?" He asked in total disbelief. I could imagine his face very well.

"Shh!" She said, probably frowning. Her tone was laced with a hint of annoyance. As if she wasn't at our doorstep at odd hours but it was the other way round. "Is your wife sleeping?" She asked as my heart raced faster. What kind of situation is this?! What is she planning on doing? I felt like jolting up and screaming 'fuck yeah I am, why you ask?' but a rational part of me told me to stay calm and see where this leads to. Just how far has Leo revived his feelings? And whether Sena is a threat or not. In order to get those answers I need to stay put.

"Come on!" I heard her frantic voice order. "Close the door."

Then the sound of carefully closing of the door came and I finally sat up. I need answers. I'm not giving up Leo to some bitch who broke his heart once.I inaudibly dashed to the door and placed my ears on it. I could faintly make out their conversation. They were right outside the door.

"...Doing?" Leo asked, he sounded terrified.

"Look, Sorry I couldn't find a better time but I'm leaving tomorrow and I wanted to talk to you before I leave."

"O-okay...what?"

"I'm sorry okay? I'm very sorry for earlier. I just couldn't tell them that we were married before. You understand what it means to me as a woman? Jeong Ho doesn't know about it and I'm afraid how he'd look at me if I told him that. Besides if words get out I'm a divorcee, you know how people would react."

Wow. She only cares about herself! She has no concern for Leo's feeling what so ever!

"And you had your wife too! I thought it'd be better for us to hide it." She continued her excuse.

"I understand." Leo said to my surprise. How can he not be angry?! I'm barely keeping my cool!

"I thought you would. You always did." She sounded grateful and genuine but there was a hint of longing, to my dislike.

"I do think about you sometimes." She continued. I almost drop kicked the door. "I really do. I miss you." And performed a Russian hook on her face. "I still remember how well you treated me. I haven't found a man equivalent to you yet. I do regret my decision back then. But I was having a difficult time. I'm sorry I never explained anything to you properly when I left. My father died recently and my mother was getting remarried. We were newly married. I had no job and you had a bright future in front of you as a lawyer. Your parents were rich, unlike mine. I wasn't even that smart. I didn't have confidence to pass the lawyer exam. I knew it wasn't the right course for me. But because it was my father's wish I kept going. It was when he died that everything fell apart. You were so sweet to me. You didn't even tell your family in case they were against it. You left everything for me. And everything was just so perfect. I really did love you. Never think for one second that I didn't. But it wasn't enough. You...you were the problem! You were perfect in every way. And when my mom remarried I realized I have nothing but you. I was afraid I wasn't good enough for you and ....And I wanted to make something of myself too. Not just be your wife... but you didn't seem to get the drift. You wanted children but I didn't. I couldn't tell you ...I couldn't tell you I was feeling inferior of my own husband. You know my nature. Off course I didn't. So I wanted to get away from your shadow. I felt it suffocating whenever you did something sweet like buy me flowers or cook me dinner. I felt worthless compared to you. And a burden and when you accepted the fact that I don't want children so easily, it ate me inside. I knew how much you wanted children. I felt like a terrible human being and I couldn't stand it anymore. You were too good for me." She finally breathed and choked on a sniff.

"I'm sorry Leo. I'm really really sorry. I wish I could go back in time and fix things but it's too late for that. I'm sorry."