A/N: Sup bitches. I'm finna pump out about four chapters in the next few minutes because school and work are killing me right about now sooooo 😊

Edit: Hello lovelies~ Just dying over here. I had to move all of the story onto a giant piece of paper to get my thoughts in line and the story wasn't a mess lol. Took me a minute but now it's a lot easier for me to make changes without having to change every single chapter

"What do you want to talk about?" I ask in a cold tone as I sat down in a chair.

Max licked his lips and sighed. "Can you at least pretend you want to talk to me?" He asked.

I give him a tight smile which told him my answer. "You know I would if you didn't cheat on me." Max looked down and I glare at him a little before dropping it. I can't even be mad since I cheated too.

"Listen, Jason, I regret it. I regret cheating on you, okay? It wasn't suppose to happen-"

"Just like us." I mumble, crossing my arms.

Max sighed and continued anyway. "I want to be with you, not her. It was a big mistake."

I stand up ready to end this conversation. He's just gonna break up with me so might as well tell it straight out. "Max, I slept around a lot. I fucked any decent face and you're sitting here telling me you want to be with me despite all that? We've been together for a year and I know that's what you think of me, so just get it over with." I scuff.

Max grabbed me and kissed me hard. "I don't think you're a slut, Jason." Max whispered against my lips. "You're more than that." His hands held my face close as his eyes didn't leave mine. "You're kind, worry about others, always put the closest people to you first like Amelia and Derek, so what if you slept around a lot before? That was the old you, not the current you. I love you, Jason." I go to roll my eyes but Max quickly said, "No matter how much you don't think I do. Abigail loves you. Amelia loves you. Derek loves you. I love you with everything in me."

Slowly, I push his hands off of me and sit back down quietly. Max sat down next to me and I look at him. "Jason, I . . . I really want to talk things through. I never wanted to hurt you." I nod my head, waiting for him to continue. He goes to grab my hand and I move it away. Hurt flooded his face but nodded his head as if he understood I didn't want him to touch me right now.

"What about it?" I ask.

"You know I love you right?" He quizzed softly. I couldn't help but to roll my eyes in disbelief. Max was quick to pull my face to look at him. "I do. I still love you." I bite the inside of my mouth and looked at him. Max leaned in and I lean back. His eyes looked hurt but I didn't care. "Jason, I made a mistake. Being drunk was no excuse and it never will be. But please just give me another chance. Just one more. I want to prove to you that you mean so much to me. Let me prove it." Max begged.

I look down then at his brown eyes before sighing. Might as well get it out now. "I slept with Damien." I state.

"Damien?" Max asked.

"My ex boyfriend. I slept with him on my business trip."

Max was silent. My eyes traveled over to his face to see it filled with hurt and anger, but he just quietly nodded his head. "I started it. I knew exactly what I was doing." I clear up and he licked his lips.

"I deserve it. You had every right to cheat on me after I did that to you."

I cross my arms and lean back slightly, sighing. "Max, lets do both of ourselves a favor and break up. Delete my number, give me back my key and move out. I'll give you two weeks." I stand up and start to walk towards the door. "Please go."

"Jason, I thought we were gonna talk!"

"Conversation's over." I grumble and open the door. That's when Max closed the door, grabbed my arm, spun me around, and pressed his lips on mine. God . . . I miss this . . .

His hands held my face and I slowly fell into the kiss. My hands slid up to his sides and I close my eyes. Max slowly pulled back and rested our foreheads together. His hands gently rubbed my neck and he kept our eyes locked. "Jason, don't lie like that. I'll do anything to have you back. I deserved to be cheated on, not forgiven, dumped and cussed out. But I want things to work between us. It's so fucking hard but it's worth the struggle to be with you every day." Max whispered.

I step back but he didn't release me fully. "Max, no. We both cheated on each other. Let's end it right now. We clearly can't be faithful so what's the point in dating anymore?" I question.

I thought that would make Max come to his fucking senses for once but it didn't. He didn't give up.

"I don't care that you cheated, Jason! I'm sorry about how I treated you when we first met but it's different now. I love you, and I want to be with you. We can deal with the cheating later okay? Please, I'm willing to beg on the ground if it means I get you back."

"Max . . . " I trail off with a quick glance to his eyes. "I'm sorry." The hope that was trapped in his eyes started to disappear. "I'm sorry for cheating on you." I finish and he hugged me.

My heart is telling me to give him another chance but my mind is saying don't do it and get away from him. I didn't know which one to listen to but in the end, I picked the one I wanted more. "I'll give you another chance." I whisper.

Everyone's going to hate me for this but I still love him.

Max pulled back and pushed his lips on mine. I accepted the kiss as I slip my arms around his neck. "I missed you so much." Max mumbled and pecked my lips.

"I missed you too." I pull back slightly and lock eyes with his soft brown ones. "Max, you know our relationship is toxic." I say slightly soft.

"Then let it be toxic. I love you. I want to be with you, not some random girl or guy. I want Jason Royal to be by my side."

"Max-"

"Jason, we both are toxic for each other. I've always known that since the night we met but I don't care as long as I'm with you. Toxic or not. You are worth it no matter how bad the struggle is."

A small smile fell on my lips and I kiss him softly. "You're such an idiot. Why be with me?" I ask.

"Love." I squeeze his hand and smile lightly.

Max kissed along my ear to my neck before whispering, "Can we? I want to show you how much I love you."

Pressing our lips together, I gave in and agreed to his small request. "Go ahead." I say against his lips and he pulled me closer. A smile came on my face and I throw my arms around his neck. I kiss his neck and bite the spot, making a hickey. "Max . . . " I pull back a bit and kiss him softly. "I'm sorry." I whisper.

Max caught my lips in a hard kiss, taking my breath away. "It's okay."

"I shouldn't have done it even if I was mad. I regret it." I say, sliding hand through his hair.

"Jason-"

"Let me finish." I say and lick my lips. "You're the first person I've loved in years. I should've treated you better. You forgave me so easily when I didn't even want to look at you for cheating. I promise to never cheat on you again." Max looked at me shocked and I hug him. "You know I'm not an affectionate person but you deserve an apology from me."

Max grabbed my face and pressed a hard kiss on me. I was pressed against the wall and Max dove his tongue into my mouth. I immediately kiss back, tangling our tongues. His hand was holding the base of my chin and pushed it up more as he devoured my mouth. A weak groan escaped my throat, trying to keep up with his pace. A breathy gasp of air escaped me as Max pulled back, licking his lips.

"Bedroom. Now." Max growled back sexually and locked our lips together. I immediately let out a groan, kissing back. He pulled back and started to pull me to my room. Before we could step inside, I had my lips on his. Max and I stumbled into my room, kissing harder than before. My fingers dug into his hair tightly as my hips rolled and rubbed up against his. Max then slipped his tongue into my mouth, forcing a solid moan out from me. He then picked me up and threw me on the bed, climbing on top of me in a heartbeat. Our lips were connected again in a fast but sexual pace.

His hands lifted up my hips and they were gripping my ass. "I love you." I mumble against his lips, sliding my arms around his neck.

"I love you too."

We locked our lips hard as our hands took off each other's clothes. Max grinds on me as my tongue slips into his mouth. He pulled back and kissed along my neck as his hand started to pump my dick. "God." I groan out rocking my hips. "You make me so wet. I fucking love it." Max pumped my dick with a tight squeeze.

"What else do you love?" He quizzed into my ear.

My teeth bit my bottom lip before I said, "Withering underneath you." In a heartbeat, Max had my hands restrained underneath one of his. His eyes were dark but I knew him better than myself, they were actually filled with lust. His lips pushed hard on mine and I kiss back eagerly. When he pulled back, I say, "My drawer." Max had a smirk going over to the drawer and opening it. He immediately pulled out my black bondage ropes.

Max trailed that over my chest before bitting my neck with a few soft kisses. He placed that next to me before sitting on my lap. "Hands." I hold out both of my hands and Max started to wrap the rope around it. Before I knew it, it was all over me. It crossed all over my back, stomach, and chest. From my neck, all the way down to my legs. Max licked his lips, looking me over like I was a treat.

Without hesitation, he started to rub my dick, making me shudder. A painfully slow rub which made me groan in anticipation. "Max, please just fuck me." I beg. Max just smirked and kissed down my chest to my dick and wrapped his tongue around it. A moan escaped from my throat as my tongue curled tightly. My hips began to rock so I could get some more friction. My fingers dung into his dirty blond hair, throwing my head back. "Fuck, Max." I groan out. His hand pulled on the ropes and made me groan even more. He shoved two fingers into my ass as he sucked my dick skillfully.

A loud moan escaped my throat feeling everything he was doing to me. His brown eyes looked at me as I tried to bite back my moans. My eyes squeezed shut trying to not cum so easily. Suddenly, I felt a hard and fast vibration in my ass making me moan out. "M-Max . . . ?" Max lifted up and kissed all along my neck. He started to thrust it in me, making me wither underneath his touch. "Max I'm gonna cum." I groan out, trembling from everything. His hand squeezed my dick tightly, causing a small whimper to come out, and he pressed his lips on mine.

"You're not cumming for another ten minutes." Max hissed on my lips.

My eyes widen. "M-Max please I need to-" A shaky groan escaped my lips, feeling the vibration in my favorite spot. I couldn't hold back my moans as Max bit all over my exposed neck, squeezing my dick tight. Slowly, his lips left sloppy kisses on my neck after kissing me hard. They eventually traveled to my chest and I was already itching to be fucked. "Max, come on." I beg softly.

He wasn't listening and continued to move his kisses slowly down my body. Max started to pump my dick and I moan. "You're so fucking hot right now." He growled into my ear, moving his hand faster. A bit pissed, I face him and kiss him before biting his lip hard. Max pulled back slightly with a glare.

"Stop teasing me so damn much . . . I'm already a mess because of you." I hiss.

Max gave me a smirk. "You're about to become a bigger mess." He yanked the vibrator out and slammed into me. Screams flew from my mouth as Max rammed into me without slowing down. He spread my legs, pounding into me, and I moan loudly.

"Fuck, yes!" I cry out moving with him. Max stroked my dick quickly and I came soon after. He lifted me up so I was on his lap.

A weak moan escaped me. "You got really tight." Max whispered into my ear with a soft bite. His hips gave a hard thrust and I trembled. My fingers dug into his shoulder as I started to ride him quickly. Throwing my head back, I bite my lip with soft groans. Max let out a few groans, going faster.

"Max, untie me." I say weakly, looking at him. He undid the rope and threw it aside. I dig one hand into his hair and the other into his back as I locked our lips together in a hard, steamy kiss. Unable to hold back, I slide my tongue into his mouth, tangle them and start to move my hips around.

Max pulled back and said, "Hold on." My back was slammed into the bed as Max started to go to town on my ass.

My nails dug into his back as I moaned. "H-harder." Max slammed into me and locked our lips together. He moved faster, harder, and deeper. I have no idea how long he was going for but he came hard, shaking a bit. His hips moved slowly as he rode out his orgasm. Soft groans came from both of us as Max came to a stop. I grab his face and kiss him. He kissed back, squeezing my ass. "Again." I say and he smirked.

"Of course. One round is not enough to satisfy me." He chuckled kissing me.

"I wonder who you got that from." I say teasingly, kissing him back. I flip Max onto the bed and push him into me. I let out a groan, my hands squeezed Max's stomach as I started to move. I rocked my hips as I rode him. Max grabbed my waist and I slam my ass on his hard dick. Low screams came from my mouth and my hand started to stroke my dick. I kept getting faster until I was out of breath. I place my hands on Max's chest and take a shaky breath. I started to move my body faster. Max groaned loudly. "Jason." My body was on the verge of cumming like crazy but I kept going. "M-Max!" I cry out, nearly cumming.

"Together." Max said and I lean down. We locked our lips in a French kiss. Max took control and moved faster. Moans came from my mouth. One more hard thrust and I came with Max. My breathing was heavy as I sat there. "The night is far from being over." Max whispered into my ear and I smirk.

"Definitely."

***

I look at Max and he gave me a smile. "I love you." He whispered into my ear and kissed it.

"I love you too." I lay on him and slid my hand into his. We were laying on each other but he occasionally kissed my skin that was near his lips like my neck, shoulder, sometimes my cheek. "Why do we do this, Max? We know it won't work out."

"We don't know that." I lock my green eyes with his brown ones.

"It's pretty obvious." I retort and his hand squeezed my ass.

"So what if we messed up? Who are we with right now?" I roll my eyes at his smooth talk. Max chuckled and kissed me briefly. I capture his lips and we made out under the covers, getting a bit nasty.

And by a bit I mean we had even more sex.

Letting out a shaky breath, we laid in the messy bed. "Max, this is so bad for us." I say. He leaned over and kissed me.

"So?" He teased and I smile. "Let it be bad for us. We both love it."

"We should shower. We are covered in sweat and cum." I say, lifting up. I stand up and wince slightly. Shit, my whole body is sore from head to toe. We were going for a solid day almost two.

"Sore?" Max asked and I nod my head, bending over to grab my towel off the floor. I groan loudly when a hand came right down on my ass. I look back and Max was smirking. He gave me a wink and got out of the bed. He walked over and kissed my neck. I lean into his lips. My hands grabbed his waist and we stood there looking at each other. Max grabbed my chin and smiled. "I love you."

"I love you too." I reply back.

I pull back and head to the bathroom. I start the shower and Max came in. He pulled me by my waist into his chest and buried his face into my neck. I close my eyes and leaned into him. "I have to head into work after we get ready." Max mumbled.

"I just got back from trip . . . And it's Saturday. Isn't it your day off?" I ask. The sound of the water hitting the bottom of the tub filled the room.

"It is, but they need my help and won't leave me alone even though I told them I never work weekends." Max said and I nod my head. "I'll finish fast so we can spend some well needed time with together, Jason." Max whispered into my ear.

I lean in and rest up against him and Max slid his arms around my waist. We stood there listening to the water until it started to fog up the room. "Let's get in." He said and we stepped into the shower together.

I step under the water and let out a sigh of content as the hot water hit my tight muscles. I jump out of my skin feeling Max tickle me. I spin around seeing him smile. I smack his chest with a small pout. "Jerk."

He laughed and pulled me close. "Maybe so." He said and tickled me more making me laugh and squrim in his hold.

"Asshole!" I laugh and he stopped with a chuckle. Rolling my eyes, I nudge him and give him a small glare washing up.

After a few minutes, we got out and and got dressed. Max grabbed his work clothes from his side of the closet while I just pulled on some jeans and a shirt. Max came over and kissed me softly before saying, "I'll be back." I nod my head and see him out.

Deciding to finally do my work, I head to my home office and get to work, doing bills, checking new applications for a job, and new emails. After awhile of working, I head to kitchen to get a small cup of coffee.

As I sipped my black coffee, I sit in the living room with my laptop and some work. I heard the door open after an hour or so. My eyes glanced over and see Max walking in. I finish up what I was doing and turn off my laptop. He walked over and sat next to me, pulling me closer. "I know we just made up but somethings been bothering me." Max said.

"What is it?" I ask, looking at him.

"You said you cheated on me with an ex." He explained and I nod my head.

"How did you guys even met?"

I sigh and lean back. "We dated back in college. We ran into each other at a beach we used to go to." I explain.

"That's it?" Max questioned.

"Yup." I run a hand through my hair. "He just won't leave me alone about us getting back together. I keep telling him no, but he's a stubborn person. Once he set his mind on something, he doesn't think of anything else."

"He wants to get back to together with you?" Max asked in a harder tone.

I shrug my shoulders. "I guess. I broke things off when I moved to New York and got over it. Apparently, he never did." Max grabbed my face and kissed me slowly.

I kiss back before pulling back slightly. "Promise me you won't meet him again." Max pushed. I raise an eyebrow.

"You don't need to tell me twice. I hate running into him." I state and we both chuckled a bit. Max threw his arm around my shoulders and kissed me again.

***

Max kissed my shoulder blade and I look up at him. "What was that for?"

He smiled and said, "I just wanted to show you I love you." I give him a sad smile and we share a quick peck.

Things have definitely changed. Max was being fully honest with me and even tells me to check his social media so I don't have to worry, but I trust him just enough. It was weird but it was sweet. We've only started back up two weeks ago but I feel like I can trust him fully already.

"I have something planned for us tonight." Max said and I raise an eyebrow.

"Like what?"

"A date." My lips turned up and I couldn't help it. It was honestly sweet he was making it up to me. I grab his hand and he walked around the couch and sat with me. I bury my body into his and lay my head on his shoulder.

"Max, why do you love me?" I ask out of nowhere. Max squeezed my hand and kissed it.

"Why not love you? It took me forever to realize how amazing your heart is even if your actions didn't show it." Max shifted to face me and smiled before capturing my lips softly.

"We are so toxic." I say half seriously.

"Do you care?" He asked with a smirk.

I shake my head, saying, "No."

Max pulled me as close as he could before kissing my cheek. "Go get dressed. Something nice but not formal." Max whispered into my ear and I roll my eyes at him.

"Fine."

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Wooooooooooo lets goooo! SO FUCKING TIRED BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?! FUCK SLEEP! THATS WHAT MONSTERS ARE FOR!