A Young Girl's Pleas

When the evening came, I was waiting in her room.

She carefully stepped in her room, holding something behind her back. She was faced away and thus, did not notice my presence yet.

I could feel her wanting to scream internally from excitement.

She was making it a lot harder on me.

"Hey Levy," I exclaimed, moving my legs as I sat on the bed of the room.

She turned around in surprised as if she didn't expect me. She mouthed something. I saw her scribble down something and held it to my face with a frown showing on hers.

'When did you get here?
And how long you've been waiting'

I smiled, "Awhile, but it is fine. I just missed you that's all. I guess he's more interesting than me," I laughed dryly, the words I spoke almost hurt me.

She shook her head,

'That's not true and you know it'

"Sorry I don't mean to act all jealous, what an Ardizevepa can do when my only friend is never around. I don't mean to be clingy but I heard something..." I frowned, turning my head away.

'No, I understand how you feel. It isn't fair to you.'

I then glanced back at her, "Well how was your day?"

Levy began writing... and writing... And writing for so long.

She ripped out several pages and gave it to me.

Abyss was she giving me a book to read.

'Today was so wonderful. Lucino showed me his garden. It was so beautiful, I loved every place he had shown me so far. You should come by sometime. I'm sure he won't mind,'
she wrote on the first several pages.

I looked at the next section to see that she talked more about him,
'He's so selfless, I never met another like that. He even offered to carry me some when I get tired and my feet hurt too much from the pain. I wrote down and talked about everything excluding the part that I'm a mermaid from the sea.'

'He stated he was going to choose a bride soon, I know he'll pick me. I'm so excited. He even kissed me on the cheek yesterday. It's not the lips, but I know he will soon.'
Then I finally finished what she wrote.

Oh how could I tell her everything with all she said.

She seems so happy and loves him so much.

I could only think in despair. Those are just rumors and maybe he is selfish and won't believe them.

I knew she loved him, after all..

A Mermaid's love was the greatest thing and if the prince accepted it, she could finally be happy. I understood that and that is why I know when Levi is with me, she could never be happy, for I am not her lover nor would ever be. And if he gives her his love, then she will gain tears and finally have a soul. Then when she deceased, like a sad lullaby she will go to an immortal afterlife.

Levy turned to me and wrote down a phrase,

'Lehz? You are silent'

I laughed, "Yeah sorry, I was just thinking. You must be very happy right now. It must be filled with so much joy..." I trailed off, lying through every word, "I can't believe it. Oh I wish I could be there too. It just sounds like you haven't had any fun before this. Oh I'm. So. Incredibly. Jealous. Of you." I bit my lip on accident, tasting a metal flavour in my mouth.

My lip was seriously bleeding.

Abyss.

I hated this.

'Oh, I know come join me tomorrow. Don't worry about anything, it will be fine.'

She suddenly wrote, sensing my sadness or maybe it was because of the lies I just said.

Then maybe I could get a better sense of how he is like.

Maybe I could get to know him and realize, he is a good person.

Besides I did want to explore the human world with her.

Then she wrote something else down.

'I have an idea,
join me for dinner!'

"Dinner?" I exclaimed, "But you know I can't eat any of that. My body can't handle certain foods. Why do you think I used magic at the festival way back then?"

She looked in surprised.

'Wait really? I thought you were just being a picky Lehz, not wanting to try anything new'

"A picky Lehz?!" I exclaimed after reading what she wrote.

She seem to be smiling.

She grinned, 'Yeah a picky Lehz that only eats deep sea fish and mermaids!'

I looked at her after reading that.

"So if I eat mermaids, does that mean you're available?" I asked.

She instantly shook her head and looked at me in fear when I grinned, stepping closer to her.

I started tickling and teasing her.

It was then I noticed she was almost out of breath that I stopped.

"Alright, I'll try to come. I just need to find a skirt and a nice shirt," I decided.

She then grinned and hugged me.

"Fancy more feminine outfits look way better for special occasions," I simply said.

And Levy couldn't even help but prepared me until then.

She always liked doing that, doesn't she?

~~~

We headed down the halls to the dinner chamber together, with her leaning on me for support, of course.

I'd rather die than to not help her.

Levy sat across from Lucino and I sat right next to her.

Among us were some other individuals as well, such as Princess Zestrella from before.

She said nothing, but looked surprised I was here.

That's expected.

I haven't really gone out much.

"Thank you all for joining us," he smiles politely once we were all seated. "It is an honor that I have so many wonderful people here this evening, eating this fine meal with me."

He was good with words and seemed nice.

That feeling though, wouldn't go away.

"Alehkzir, was it?" The young king asked after bringing a goblet filled with a dark liquid to his lips. "That's some interesting ...attire you have on. Is it common from where you are from?"

He really went there didn't he?

But what could I say.

I never have been good with words...
I never could be understood.

Even reaching out to others have always been hard for me.

So when I'm asked a question that forces me to reach out, answer, and show part of who I am, I'm unable to speak.

Maybe that's why I always was with Levy because despite everything she was always there with me helping me find my voice.

And now I suppose it is time for me to have a voice now that hers is completely silent.

But what are the right words to respond to what he said.

"I... Uhh, I don't quite understand what you mean. What do you mean by quote on quote interesting attire? Is it not the same as anything Levy or you would wear, Lucino?"

Levy looked at me, shrugging, as if to say, I'm not sure why he is saying that.

"No, it is quite different..."

At that I burst out laughing, "Pffft haha ha taha!" While eyeing the strange food before me, "Whenever I heard the word different, it refered to a bad different and I expect that to be without a doubt, the same meaning."

I heard Zestrella gasped at the end.

Hmmm.

"Say Lucino, I accounted royalty but none have been more infuriating then a situation like this. Do you know why? Because before the royals always respected me," More like feared, but he didn't need to know that.

Levy eyed me as if to say stop.

I turned my head, giving her a look.

"What?!" I whispered, "He started it, you know I hate it when someone puts what I dress like in a bad manner. Anything relating to my identity!"

She shrugged giving me a look as if to say, "Complain later please, he is usually nice." Levy soften her eyes, then gave that look when she does when she offers me something.

"Usually? Still it makes me mad. The abyss I swear," I say, know not caring who heard.

They probably thought it was strange how I talked like this.

But I knew Levy long enough to know what expression meant and I was able to read her lips to the exact accuracy through my Ardizevepa magic.

"Infuriating?!" He made a surprise expression, "Please forgive me, I didn't mean to upset you." He said calmly. "I was only curious because I never seen anyone like it.

Like it I thought, scoffing. But this time I said nothing.

"You and Levy are going out exploring this kingdom tomorrow?" I asked, changing the subject.

"Levy...?" He seemed confused by the name I called her. I said it earlier though, had he paid no attention then?

How unobservant.

He probably doesn't know any of her likes or dislikes earlier without someone telling him.

"I'm talking about Levias. It's what I always called her. I guess you paid no attention," I remarked.

Levy narrowed her eyes at me.

I looked down at the plate in front of me eyeing the food.

"Oh!" He exclaimed, looking a bit embarrassed, "Of course. Sorry about that."

"Well Levy was wondering, I was too... I would like to join you. I never really seen much of this place and I could get lost and die of starvation. It would be terrible so unless I know where everything is something bad might happen!" I exclaimed a bit overly dramatically, but he didn't notice.

Levy did and she stared at me deadpan with a face that said, 'really'.

Lucino nodded, "Certainly you can come along. The more the merrier. How's this everyone here is invited to come!" He exclaimed.

At those word Zestrella looked extremely uncomfortable, "Excuse me, Your Royal Highness?" She called him a term I never heard of.

"Did you say something?" He turned her way.

"Yes, I don't think I can come. I have to see my beloved... brother off." She tells him and I just knew it was an excuse. Unless she was seeing a lover of hers that is against this society's standards.

"Then I too, as King of this kingdom will see your lovely brother off and will show you around afterwards."

Zestrella's face darkened, "B-b-but it is really far and will take all day. I couldn't keep you like that." She told him sweetly, but in reality the conversation was full of dread.

"Oh..." Lucino lowered his face and looked sad. "Well the next time, you must come join us."

Zestrella nodded her head, "Ah yes next time..." She trailed of with a hesitant smile, "Of course."

"What is this?" I asked looking at the silver platter, "I have strong allergies and cannot eat much foods."

"What you're looking at is fresh melons and lychee with seaside salad of fish." Lucino answered me politely without making any other remarks.

I took a bite into the melon, not bad I thought.

It was actually really good.
It had this sweet satisfying taste and with every bite the juice would melt into your mouth.

And I could eat it without feeling like I was going to die.

I didn't have any of the fish because I knew it wasn't the right kind I could eat.

It was rainbow trout and that wasn't anything I could digest well.

The lychee was thankfully like the melon where it tasted wonderful and savory.

Levy's eyes glowed in excitement,
'You like it?!'

I smiled back at her, "I guess you could say that."

I wonder how long it will take until they are fed up with me having a conversation that they cannot hear and are confused on how I know exactly what she is saying.

"How can you tell what she is trying to say?" Lucino suddenly asked after a long time of us talking, "As far as I know the only way Miss Levias communicated with any of us was by writing things down, but with you that isn't the case at all."

Lucino look straight at me trying to figure me out.

I only smiled in return.

"At once, just by looking you know what she says.  Please tell me this lovely way you know." He asked politely," I'm sure it will make everything much easier unless you are using some kind of foreign sign language."

I turned to face Lucino with a hidden expression on my face that showed a hidden meaning.

"I am the only one that can only understand her that way.  I suppose you could try to learn how, but it is just from knowing her for so long.  Just being there for Levy, you see." My eyes soften for I still blame myself for it was my doing that caused this.

She did ask me, not caring about the consequences but still if I only refuse her than maybe...

Than maybe she would be sad forever.. I thought dully.

Lucino and some of the others around looked down sadden.

The prince moved his hair to the side and smiles sadly, "Don't worry about it Miss Levias," He told her softly staring straight into her eyes.

An innocent move but to her it meant the world but that's what I feared because she'll soon love him even more.

"No matter what happens, I will help you." He told the girl.

I looked over at Levy who seemed to be on cloud nine with his words.

Pfft, I thought.

He seemed such a faker and she fell for it.

I eyed him and sighed, Levy turned to me at once.  Her expression said it all,

'What is it?'

"It's fine, I'm going to uh.. go now." I got up in a bit of a frantic rush.

Even the chair squeaked again the silver, almost diamond glass floor as I got up.

It was that ear-piercing screech that everyone despises too.

So it was maybe a bit awkward to move it because it all subtly annoyed them.

But I didn't care.

When I walked out I heard someone muttered "gender-confused" and it almost made me want to go back in their and throw some punches...

Keyword being almost.

I laid down, well more like collapsed arms and legs were both spread out on the cushion.

I looked up and saw the moonlight reflect in from the window.

I closed my eyes and waited for the next day to come.

I would be traveling the town with Levy, I couldn't wait.

I was excited once more...

//Hey... Legend here, so uh what did you think?

When I wrote the first part of it (up to the point Alehkzir wonders when people will get annoyed that he is able to talk to Levy like listening to a 1 sided conversation and always understand her) well I was doing better than I am when I finished.

I lost total motivation and one of my closest friends from online decided to end all of their online relationships because it was affecting them and that kinda affected me.

But I finally stopped crying, felt I can move on and live my life, because now not only will I be stronger than before but I will befriend more people I actually know in real life-- not to replace them but to gain closer relationships.

I also realized I really like to go into something relating with music and write stories.

I realized I want to tell a story and share it.