*Kenna's Look

I slowly opened my eyes, trying to look around to find my alarm clock so I could turn it off. I got up, looked out of the window then ran downstairs to make some tea. I quickly came back upstairs worried I'm going to miss the sunrise, climbed out of window and carefully went on the roof. I sat down as I closed my eyes feeling the morning breeze felt nice against my skin.
Sitting on the roof watching the sunrise brought back a lot of memories, since I was a kid I used to wake up extra early just so I can climb up here and watch the beautiful scenery alone. I carefully sipped my tea when I heard someone calling me from my room.

My mum sticked her head out of the window looking at me with her worried eyes.
"So you're up here again, to give me another heart attack."
I rolled my eyes at her and turned my attention back to the sunrise.
"Kenna, please? How long are you not going to talk to me?"
I stayed quiet, I didn't know what to say to her and I just couldn't look at her. I heard her sigh as she disappeared from my room. I put my cup of tea down and I started crying hugging my Knees. I know it's not her fault, it's none of their fault. But I miss him with all my heart and I still can't get over it and I will never forgive myself.

I took a quick shower put on a thin sweater and black leggings with my boots.
I put my hair in a messy bun and got my bag and went downstairs. Mum, Dad and my brother Jeremy were sitting down eating breakfast. They all looked at me as soon as I stepped downstairs.

"Morning sweet heart." He said with a goofy smile. I said it back and I looked at Jeremy. He smiled and winked at me, he then pat the sit next to him telling me to sit down.

I sat down and poured myself some orange juice, trying my best not to make eye contact with my mum.
"So any exciting happening going on at school today?" My dad broke the ice.
I started to gave him the *You're kidding me right* look and sighed.
"Really Dad, there is never exciting going on in that hell hole."
Jeremy and him started to laugh and I smiled at them. I looked at my mum again, it looked like she was about to start talking about it again. She saw a smile and was going to take advantage of it.
I quickly then got up said bye and quickly went outside. I heard Dad speaking to her at the door step.
"She was crying wasn't she?"
I couldn't stand there anymore so I ran and got in my car then drove down to Olivia's house.

*Olivia's Look

I knew Olivia since we were in second grade, she was this crazy bubbly energetic girl who I loved like a sister, she was my closest friend and always put me in a better mood.

I stopped at near her house and waited for her to come out. She saw me from the window and ran out of her house saying goodbye to her Mum. She got in the car and gave me a huge smile.

"Good Morning Girlfriend!" But suddenly she stopped smiling as I start the car again.
"Oh god what happened? Kenna don't tell me you cried again. Hey Look at me."

I looked at her trying to force a smile on my face. "Gosh you're so loud, it's 8 am just calm down. Nothing happened I'm just tired a little that's all."
She saw right through me, I could tell by the look on her face.
"Oh shush don't lie to me. I know damn well you've cried."
She stared at me for a while and right away I knew what she's going to say.
"Kenna it is not your fault, I know what you went through was horrible. It was for all of us but what happened to Jared was not your fault. I know it's hard to forget it darling.."

I rolled my eyes and I gazed ahead of road trying my best not to cry again. I think she noticed that my hands were clenching the wheel.
"I miss him Olivia. I miss him so much everyday, it hurts that he's not with us anymore. I was in that car too. Yet he died in the car crash and I didn't. I wish it was me and not him he didn't deserve this.. he was great."

She didn't say anything she just came close and hugged me close. I needed that so bad.

We arrived at school and as I pulled over I could see Evan looking at me from basketball court. His gorgeous blonde hair was shining in the sun and I couldn't stop looking at how he was giving me a kind smile. The kind of smile that takes my breath away. God I missed him.

This is the end of chapter 1
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