***TRIGGER WARNING*** Nothing too graphic but I still thought it'll be good to put a warning. Do not read if you are easily triggered. Enjoy! (: xxx

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Louis finished writing the last few words on the paper. He walked over to his bead and laid the paper under Harry's picture on the nightstand. He took one last look around his childhood home before getting out of it and walking towards to Jay's room where she was sound asleep. He cracked the door to her room open and stared at her for good five minutes.

He was gonna miss her so much. She was his rock all his life but now everything was getting too much for him to stay. He can only hope that she'd understand his reasons.

"I love you, mom. Always have and always will." He whispered before closing the door slowly. He wiped few stray tears that escaped his eyes as he walked down the stairs towards the front door.

He got in the car and looked at the backseat to find the rope that he left there in the morning. He smiled a sad smile before starting his car and driving off to the park where he met his best friend; lover; soul mate.

"When we built our castles we might've built sand castles, Harry." He whispered to the freezing air around him before looking up at the tree he met Harry under.

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"Louis! Louis! NO!" Jay cried as she clutched Louis' body that's laid on the soft grass by two policemen.

"It's suspected to be a suicide." One policeman muttered to other who wrote down on a paper.

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Jay ran into Louis' room as soon as she got home and Anne followed close behind her.

Jay opened the door to Louis' room and ran over to his bed. She clutched one of her son's shirts carelessly thrown over the bed and cried into it while she called out his name as if it's gonna bring his baby back.

Anne sat next to her friend, crying herself, as she rubbed her back, trying to bring some sort of relief to Jay. She knew the feeling so well and she wasn't over it yet. She caught the sight of a white paper under a picture of her son on the nightstand. She took the paper and unfolded it. What was written on it just made her cry harder.

Shut the door
Turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
I cannot hide this
Even though I try

Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands
Touch skin
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life
For one more day
If we could only turn back time

You know I'll be
Your life
Your voice
Your reason to be
My love
My heart
Is breathing for this
Moment
In time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

Close the door
Throw the key
Don't wanna be reminded
Don't wanna be seen
Don't wanna be without you
My judgment's clouded
Like tonight's sky

Hands are silent
Voice is numb
Try to scream out my lungs
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life
For one more day
If we could only turn back time

You know I'll be
Your life
Your voice
Your reason to be
My love
My heart
Is breathing for this
Moment
In time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

Flashing lights in my mind
Going back to the time
Playing games in the street
Kicking balls with my feet

There's a numb in my toes
Standing close to the edge

There's a pile of my clothes
At the end of your bed

As I feel myself fall
Make a joke of it all

You know I'll be
Your life
Your voice
Your reason to be
My love
My heart
Is breathing for this
Moment
In time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

On the other side of the paper was written,

'I love you, mom. You're an incredible mother and a friend. I'm better off with Harry than suffering here alone. Thank you for everything you have ever done for me.'

-The End-

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A/N - Thank you for reading this book! Y'all are amazing and I really enjoyed writing it. 

In advance, I'm sorry for making this a sad book. Don't kill me. *Puppy dog eyes*

Have a nice day/night pals! I love y'all to death! (: xxx

-Ash