I don't even know if I can keep this up sometimes I wanna kill myself.  This starttp when my ex boy friend grew feelings for my ex best friend. they did something for of my face like basically have sexual intercourse while I was "listening to music". Then he broke up with me for her. At first I blamed myself I still do but not as much now that I know the sad truth. All that time that I was caught up in a perfect fantasy was a LIE. now let's put the icing on the cake. My grandmother is dead. Period. And as heart shattering as that is I have to deal with it... ALONE. So this will probably be deleted i won't even publish this. Fuck this i can't anymore....
Bye
12/26/17