I wake up. Where am I? All I see are emerald green hills, a stream that is clear and a lapis blue, I see beautiful patches of flowers, all different types I think, I see a strange forest in front of me and a large ball of light. All different colours that I never see. This brings up the question again, where am I? I stand up, I'm wearing denim shorts and a brown tank top with comfy fabric. It is loose and feels very silky. I've never worn anything like this before. At least it looks good on me. My hair is now in a high bun and I'm wearing some really cool shoes, they are black and have at the end a tiny white spot.

Apparently I'm pretty to my friends. I don't believe them one bit apparently my hair as brown as chocolate, eyes as blue of the sky, lips as red as blood. They think it's pretty. But they have not seen my how fat I am and how disgusting I am. I wish sometimes that I could lose all my troubles.

Anyway, I haven't introduced myself, I'm Katelyn. I am 18 and I am a senior in my school. I really hate school, but everyone tells me that I am pretty smart. I don't believe them. I'm just lucky. I have ADHD and I am dyslexic. I don't even study so this is probably just luck. I'm confused because I have no idea where I am, and yea that's all about me. So yea. I have no idea where I am.

I look behind myself. Everything was in shadows, in darkness. It looks as If the things in there are transforming into something even cuter. I see puppies, kittens and small bunnies. In bold writing on the shield of darkness are the words 'Shadow Realm'. I'm guessing that that means that that is the Shadow Realm. The name does not want me to go even near it but curiosity gets the best of me. And adorable animals. I get closer and closer when a cat starts to hiss at me and a dog starts barking and transforming. The adorable animals are now wolfs, lions and strangely enough, one of the things that terrify me the most... MOTHS!!!! Moths are terrifying. The story about me being scared of moths is when I was like what, five a moth fell into my orange juice, made it look gross, and guess what. I still drank it. For the next week I got really sick when I never really got sick so this scared me. Anyway, the terrifying animals couldn't reach me as I guess I was just standing outside of a barrier. Humph. I place my pinkie into the barrier when II just felt cold. My blood seemed to slow down. I realise what is happening to me. They were only temptations for me to enter the realm. I quickly take it out and start to run for the willow forest next to the crystal looking stream.

As I get to the edge of the forest, I could hear strange callings that sounded awfully familiar. I start to walk through and hear familiar voices, calling at me to touch the leaves. This overwhelms me. I decide to touch a grey leaf wondering about what it might say. I found out quickly this is not something I would like to remember but I can't get out of this horrid memory. "You really are stupid, worthless and a shame to behold. You look disgusting and horrid and I never knew someone could be so obese! Hahaha! Are you about to cry. Is little Kate-Kate going to cry hmm? You might as well. It would make especially me and everyone else happy. You are nothing. You will never do great or be great. You are just a little bug, while I like a human can squash you into a million tiny pieces. Now run along. And never. Look at me. Again. Hahahahaha!" I remember the way she flicked her hair when she walked away from me. My trust blade was in my pocket, ready to strike that day. And god did it strike. I remember running to the bathroom crying. I locked myself in a cubical, pulled up my black hoody to reveal more cuts up my arm. I started pointing the dagger at my arm. "You are worthless!" I said in anger as I slashed once "You are a disgrace to human kind!" I slash deeply again "You are foul!" one slash "You are ugly!" another slash beats up my milky skin "You are fat!" another slash of the blade "YOU SHOULD JUST LEAVE!" three more cuts added to my skin. 7 cuts were added to my skin. I remember dabbing the blood away from my skin using a rag in my pocket. I started to cry.

That day felt so clear to me. I look back down at my skin to see the multiple wounds. I had tried in other places to. I had cut further up my arm, my leg and my stomach. They all stung at that moment. I fall to the floor and just cry as I find a small dagger in my belt. You will never be great. They were right, you aren't smart. You are stupid, fat, ugly! You are disgusting! I pull out the dagger and start to feel salty tears threatening to come out. I let them flow down my face. This is the only way to stop the voices. Cut myself at least once and they would be gone for a while. These voices keep coming back so I keep slashing at my pail skin. Blood drips down my skin when I see I have no rag. I decide to use my shirt to get the blood off my wrist.

The Shadow Realm looks as if it is creeping over. I get up and try to keep running. Towards the end of the forest the leaves show me the images of myself locked in the bathroom bringing pain towards myself.

I'm out of the dreaded forest jumping over a small part of the stream. I am safe for now. I run to the top of a hill to see the darkness killing the grass and small flowers. It was like someone was purposely killing everything that looks pretty or happy. I walk a little further and I see bright colours in the distance and I walk closer.

Hey everyone. I hope you like this story so far. I can't wait to keep adding even more. Thank you for reading it if you already have and I will write to you next time

~Alexlovessinging~