"Don't go on without me...
The Beast that I represent
Complements each of you all
Till we die"
--Slipknot

AN: This is not a poem, but a letter I needed to write
To finally say goodbye.

To my Bloody Rose:
Its been a long time...
Memories slowly fade and peel,
Falling into piles of dust
Blown away by gentle breeze.

Looking back
Dreams and desires
And the life we shared...
We were gonna do it all...

Now broken
Left in bitter shards
Like every promise
I ever made to you....

I failed you Rose...
I let the darkness in
Consume
Control
Robbing Everything dear..
It
Took
Y
O
U

Nightmares still linger
Of the night I did it
Your milky skin
And the pale blue vein.

Pushing the needle in.
Watching the orgasm
Play in your clenched eyes
As liquid pleasure creeps in...

I knew ...
Lines that shouldn't be crossed
Were obliterated
My darkness
Had consumed you too.

But for just one more night
As I showed you pleasures
Locked deep inside you
You loved me

And as our bodies cooled
And the waves subsided
Naked and drifting
I held you for the last time.

Because I awoke to you leaving
I loved you so much
Yet... I had destroyed you
And tore your soul away...

I searched and cried
Tears of loss
Where the fuck did you go.
And why did you have to leave?

Not you...
You were the one that always stayed
The one that kept me alive
My comfort
My Rose

It took a while
Before they told me
That you were gone
Taken by ........

They found you on the bathroom floor
Dirty truck stop
Cold and blue
Th..........

You had saved me so many nights
From the pain that took you away
And like a bullet through my heart
I knew ...

Everyone blamed me
The junkie fuck
Corrupted and destroyed
A beautiful soul.

I died with you Rose...
Life became a series
Tragedy and loss
Death everywhere...

I wanted so badly
Just to die too
Year after year
I mourned your soul...

I tried to replace you.
Tried to write you out of my head
To numb the pain
Or fuck it away..

But Rose....
I wrote this today to say goodbye
I have to let you rest now
I have to let go

But you'd be so proud
Because for the first time
I'm truly happy
And content in my skin

The poison is gone
Left behind in the darkness
Because something new
Has filled my veins.

You'd like her , you really would,
Strong and Beautiful
With a heart of fire
And a soul so very pure.

I gave her my heart
She gave me hers
And we dream
Of our One Day....

I think I can finally let go...
Though I'll always cherish
Our memories
My love for her is what fills
My soul today...

So goodbye my Bloody Rose
If there is eternity
I hope you found it.
And you're how I found you.
Walking The Road Ahead..

Daniel Barnett
June 2017