Tom's Pov

Jordan won't talk or move, hell I don't think he's even blinked in the past two hours.

We've just sat on Steve and Martha's couch and wait for answers.

Steve and Dec rejoin us. Both boys look very stern and serious.

"You're really sick Jordan. We're not sure if there's a c-"

"Am I gonna die." All the hope has drained from Jordan's voice. My heart speeds up.

"Jordan we don't know what's wrong. If its Ianite we don't know what or how she's doing what she's-" Steve gets interrupted, again.

"Its not her. I herd her during the whole thing. She has no idea what's going on." Why is Jordan so defensive all of a sudden.

"You gotta tell us what you herd. The way you looked at Tom seemed like you could've killed him. But I know that wasn't you." Dec assures us.

"It was. I remember yelling at Tom but that's the last thing I remember." I look at Steve then to the Stele in his pocket.

He just shakes his head. "What was going on in your head?" Dec's voice is harsh. My clench my fist, he's only trying to help.

"Capsize. She was yelling and crying that I could've saved her. I should've saved her. That she loved me. I don't know what's wrong with me, but if I hurt anyone because of this.." Jordan stops and looks over at me for the first time in hours.

"If I hurt anyone I'm not gonna be able to live with myself. The Bot it told me that I should just go ahead and end myself because I'm gonna loose control." My eyes widen the Bot?!?!?! He called me crazy!

"Jordan what's the Bot?!" I ask not expecting an amswer.

"He's the one in my head. That always told me to self harm. The one that told me to throw myself off the cliff." Jordan's smiling. No, no no no mo no no no! Not this again!

"What's so funny?" Martha asks in a serious but soft tone.

"You all think I'm crazy. But you can't judge me because you don't know half the shit I suffer through everyday." Jordan's eyes water up.

"Jordan we, well I don't think you're crazy. I think you're scared like the rest of us are." Jordan looks over at me and begins to sob.

"If I ever hurt you...."

"You'd be fine. Its not like I haven't hurt you before." I can't cry. I can't its not an option.

"If I hurt you like I hurt her, I don't think I could stop myself." He's scared he's gonna kill me. Jordan has more control than that, doesn't he?

"I'd kill myself because it wouldn't be fair for me to continue to live when all I do is hurt everyone I love."

"Jordan don't you ever say that again!" Its Ianite where the hell has she been! Spark hobbles in behind her.

"Jordan you'd never hurt me. I know you wouldn't." I hold Jordan's hand gently.

"What if I could've saved her. If I would've just turned around...."

"Dianite had a sword pressed to your throat seconds before he must've killed her. There's nothing you could've done." My tone is harsher than meant.

"Jordan has Bot ever I don't know. Actually been present?" Dec asks. Jordan starts to tremble.

His breathing becomes heavy. "No! Stop!" Jordan shouts and I see tears running down Martha's face. My hand slips from Jordan's.

"Jordan what's wrong? Talk to us." Ianite sits in front of Jordan.

He looks away from her but Ianite places her hand on his cheek.

"Talk to me." Dec raises an eyebrow as the words leave Ianite's mouth.

"He w-" Jordan's eyes close and his whole body tenses. He's in pain.

"Jordan stay with me. Talk! About anything." Ianite says Spark sits in a chair beside Martha.

"He's fighting it." Spark mumbles to me. Jordan lets out a cry.

"Anastasia loved to sing and dance. She w...was beautiful." Jordan takes a deep breath. His eyes still not opening.

"Jordan don't give in. You're better than this. Tell me more about them." How is Ianite doing this?!?! How come she can help him and I can't?!?!

"Crystal loved to draw. She was obsessed with a character she created. Infinity. Infinity had long purple hair and purple eyes." I can he's Jordan's voice changing. Ianite's eyes water up.

"Infinity was Spark and my's miscarriage. Did you know that."

"I don't care!" Jordan, well it hisses. Jordan lets out a sob. He's still there.

"Talk to me." Ianite rubs Jordan's cheek with her thumb.

"It hurts." Jordan sobs. "I want to go home!" Ianite frowns. "I can't let you go. Can you open your eyes?"

Jordan forces his eyes open. His right is the robotic purple the other his usual brown.

Ianite gasps and Martha hides her eyes. "You think you can save him!" It hisses, Jordan lets out a little cry.

"Think again. You can't save him from himself Ianite. You may have saved us more times than he can remember. But this time your worthless." There's a rune for this type to situation. If Steve just marked him,

"I could kill him right now! My Mistress has her plans." Jordan's eyes shift back to normal.

"Steve mark him." I half whisper. Jordan just shakes his head.

"Why don't you just kill me now! Its proven I'm gonna be horrible." Jordan speaks like the words that just left his mouth mean nothing. They do!

"Wait Jordan you remember what just happened." Dec sounds desperate for answers.

"He fought it. That's why he can remember." Ianite amswers.

I feel tears reappear in my eyes. Before I know it I'm full on crying.

Jordan's Pov

I look over at Tom who has his head held low. Tears run down his cheeks and hit his shirt.

I put my hand on his knee causing him to look over at me.

I wish I could tell him everything's gonna be fine and that I'm okay, but I can't.

"I love you." Is what comes out. Tom just nods and lets his head hang again.

"Tom, come here." He hesitates but adventually allows himself to crawl into my lap.

As Tom begins to sob I decide we've both had enough.

"Can we get a teleport?" I ask and seconds later I'm in bed. 'Your welcome' Ianite says in the back of my head.

Tom and I both change quickly before climbing back into bed.

I let Tom snuggle into my chest. What if I do die. What if I can't control myself?!

"Jordan p-please d-don't leave." Tom sobs and I hold him tighter.

"I won't." My throat burns as I speak the words. I hate lying, but for Tom's well being it just seems necessary.

"I love you. Never forget that." I whisper and Tom nods. "I love you too. No matter what."