~Lucy's POV~

My heart had completely shattered. How could he do that to me? After the whole blowout between him, Lisanna, and I last year, I can't believe he would kiss her. He must be an amazing actor, leading me on for so long, not actually caring about me.

It sickens my stomach to think of how I was played. I'm instantly nauseated from head to toe at a single thought.

I've given up on crying, he isn't worth my tears anyway. At this point, I think I just put up a barrier between myself and my emotions. Although it may be terrifying and unrealistic, if I don't feel I won't get hurt, but feeling is human. It feels like Natsu drained me of every ounce of humanity that I had left. All that's left to go is my sanity, and I'm even questioning that.

Although Natsu tried to stop me from running away, I continued to leave him. It gave me some closure, as if walking away from my past. I'm excited to have a fresh start with someone that I know is truly faithful and loyal, but that's not exactly what happened.

Natsu hasn't quit though. He refuses to let me go, perusing his stubborn and persistent attitude.

Roses have appeared at my door multiple times, he delivers my favorite coffee in the mornings, and he even went to the extent of buying me expensive jewelry. I really appreciate his kindness, but I still feel so shattered inside.

We've both made mistakes, and I think I have come to that realization. I don't know why, but I pushed all of the blame onto Natsu, when it was my fault as well. Guilt poisoned me like toxic waste. How could I be so selfish?

He made one mistake, I made multiple, but I couldn't bring myself to apologize. All this time I pushed away my flaws and focused on his. Who have I become? I was becoming a selfish image stained with guilt. The worst part about it is that I still haven't faced Natsu. I never even said thank you.

I threw down my journal, standing up swiftly. I grabbed my jacket off the hook attached on my closet. I slipped on the ember colored sweater, covering my baby blue tank top. My feet slid into my shoes, the material cold.

I have to see him. Love isn't easy, but it can be mended. We're just a little broken, but we haven't cracked completely. He's worth it, and I'm determined to change my selfish ways. I think we're just both young and dumb. Everyone makes mistakes, some people deserve second chances. We'll see if I'm worth a second chance after all of done, but I have to try.

I jogged out of the dorm house, picking up my pace as the mansion came into view. My feet slowed as an ambulance passed by, the lights were on, and they seemed to be in a big hurry. At least they were heading away from the mansion.

I passed through the gates, moving quickly across the stone path. As soon as I opened the door, I saw something unexpected. Mira was crying, hands shaking vigorously. A bad feeling was forming inside of my chest. It blossomed across my body, heightening my nerves tremendously.

"Mira what's wrong?" I asked impatiently, grabbing her arm gently. Tears slid down her cheeks in multiple strides. Whatever had happened seriously affected her.

"I-It's terrible. T-There was an accident." She muffled between cloudy sobs. I scanned her eyes ferociously, looking for something that could ease my worry.

"What happened? Who's hurt?" My brain flashed back to the ambulance that I passed on the street. As I look back on it, the car was moving at a life-threatening speed. Whoever it was must have been extremely hurt. "Was it Laxus?"

She shook her head, my nerves easing a little. "Who was it then?" I shook her frail, thin arms.

Before she even spoke, time froze. She moved her lips, but the sound waves wouldn't reach my ears. As realization dawned on me, I turned around. My heart felt hollow, like someone had ripped it out of my chest. My mouth stood agape as I lowered my head.

My legs started running before my mind did. What the hell happened? Was Natsu okay? That ambulance was moving terrifyingly fast. My throat suddenly felt dry and hoarse like sandpaper. There was a hospital 3 miles away from campus. I can run a 6 minute mile, but I'm pushing my muscles to extreme levels. My feet throbbed with each step.

The panic in my eyes must have cleared the path from all the citizens roaming the streets and shops. I sprinted right past them, seeing their troubled faces. The all looked worried, I even recognized some of them from communal events and such.

I even saw a flash of blue and raven hair in the window of my favorite cafe. I had no time, nor efforts to see if it was actually Juvia and Gray. I'm sure they will find out about the accident and report to the hospital shortly as well.

After about 10 minutes, the hospital came into view. It was a very ominous and tall building peering down at me. Whatever happens in this building, affects me for the rest of my life. If he lives, or if he goes.

I kept pushing myself farther, legs burning with pain. I don't care how sore I'll be tomorrow, I had to see him. I pushed through the glass doors harshly, panting vigorously as I reached the circulation desk. The receptionists eyes grew to a huge size, her fake lashes standing out against her small face.

"Natsu...Dragneel...brought in...10 minutes ago..." My lungs heaved for air between each word. The receptionist seemed to understand, so she started clicking the keys on her keyboard. It took her a minute to find his records, but it felt like 20. What if I don't even get to say goodbye?

"He was just accepted into one of our emergency rooms for immediate procedure." She finally said, but I didn't care.

"What room is he in?" I asked, my breathe steadying a bit.

"Currently we are not accepting visitors for him. All of his records need updating, we need to run several tests, and go through with immediate surg-"

"Please, you don't understand. Where is he?" I rashly said, glaring down at her.

"I'm sorry ma'm, you'll just have to wait like all of the other-"

At this moment, I did something that I never thought I would do. The computer was one which you could rotate the screen in a complete circle. I firmly grasped the computer screen and swiped it my way. His page was already up, information soaking into my brain. Floor 3, room 47.

"Hey! You can't do that! That's highly illegal, looking at a patients reco-"

"Thanks, bye!" I ran past the circulation desk and multiple patients and doctors. I found an elevator placed by a set of stairs. The elevator would be too slow, so I pained my legs further. Doubt began filling my chest, what if he had already gone?

As I reached the third floor, I pushed open the metal door leading to another circulation desk. Another larger receptionist was sitting in her seat. I scanned the room for a sign signalling which direction his room was in. I saw it, sprinting down the right hallway.

"Stop!" I heard the receptionist scream. I didn't. As I turned a corner, security was waiting for me. The lady from downstairs must have reported a crazy, blonde chick. They grabbed my wrist, stopping my momentum.

"Ma'am you're going to have to calm down." I tried to push past them, but they were at least 200 pounds of pure muscle. I saw a cart surrounded by multiple doctors being pushed down the hallway. They were yelling things of foreign character, doctor talk.

"You don't understand, he's my boyfriend." The title came so naturally that I didn't think of the fact that we weren't actually dating.

"I'm sorry, but you can't be in the room during operation."

"Operation?!" My face turned pale. "What happened? Why can't anyone tell me anything?" I questioned hastily.

"I don't know the specific details, I just know that it was a vehicle accident, and that he was an immediate attention patient." The big security guard sighed, his bald head standing out against the cream colored walls.

"Thanks that really helps!" I screamed through my tears.

"You can sit in the waiting room for as long as you want. We'll update you when we know anything. I promise." The secretary from downstairs suddenly appeared, her eyes soft. She waved off the guards, leaving us alone against the constant and eerie hospital noises.

"And don't worry about the records, I won't tell on you." She whispered into my ear, soothing that nerve for a little while.

"Thanks," I said while away wiping my tears. She directed me to a nearby waiting room. I waited and waited and waited.

~Natsu's POV~

Everything was a blurry haze of red and gray. I can't really remember what happened, but I knew I was broken. The places where my bones were smashed have no feeling now. Is that bad?

All I can remember is what happened before the accident. I was heading over to the book store, ready to fail at another attempt to get Lucy back.

I accelerated forward when the light turned green, and well, that's when the memories stopped. Everything after that was jumbled pictures and pieces. 

My life flashed before my eyes. All my memories, friends, family appeared before me. Good ones, bad ones, everything.

"You don't understand, he's my boyfriend." I barely heard her, but I did. As I lay down on this uncomfortable cart with all my broken bones, I know that I will keep fighting.

"Lucy."