[TW: Smoking, Self-harm]

Niall, Louis and Liam were already at Zayn's house. They were waiting for Harry to come. He was late and Zayn was nervously tapping his foot, waiting for him to knock on his door.

He was anxious that Harry wouldn't come.

What if Harry was not coming?? But he told me on call that he would come! But what if he changed his mind??

Zayn sighed and ran his hands through his hairs.

Niall was busy talking with his mom on phone. She just called a few minutes ago.

"Why so anxious Zee?? ", Liam asked.

"What if he doesn't come? He hates me", Zayn said.

"Yeah and I am Harry Potter", Louis said rolling his eyes.

Liam snickered beside him and Zayn shook his head.

"No! Seriously! After what happened between us before I left the band, he has every right to hate me", Zayn told.

"Don't worry! He does not hate you. I and Harry remained friends even after the hiatus and he used to tell me how much he missed you. He can never hate you Zayn", Louis told.

Zayn just nodded his head, still unsure but he did not want to argue more so just accepted it.

Flashback

19 March, 2015

(5 days before Zayn left)

"Oh my gosh Haz", Kendall, Harry's girlfriend squeaked. Her hands clamped at her mouth as she looked at Harry with teary eyes.

Harry grinned at her as he gave her the gift he bought for her. It was Kendall's birthday today. (Ik that her birthday is not on 19 March but just for the sake of the story, imagine it)

Harry had arranged a party for her along with his band mates.

Zayn just scoffed looking at the lovey dovey couple. He would not admit to anyone but it hurt him. He loved Harry and it was unbearable to look at him with someone else.

Kendall tightly wrapped her arms around Harry and kissed him. Harry's hands went around her waist as he held her tight, kissing her with equal passion.

Zayn's eyes brimmed with tears as he looked away from them.

"I just need to smoke", he whispered to Louis.

"Why??", Louis asked, suspiciously.

"Nothing. I will be back in a few minutes", he said and went out, not glancing back at the couple who were snogging each other's face.

Zayn stood at the balcony and looked up at the starry sky. The tears finally rolled down his cheeks. He didn't even care to wipe them off as he took his pack of cigarettes from his pocket.

He took out one, putting it between his lips and lit it with his lighter. He took a long drag and blew out the smoke. He sighed and roughly ran his hands through his hairs.

He rolled his left sleeve upto his elbow and stared at his arm.

Cuts everywhere.

Gashes starting from his wrist upto his elbow.

He didn't use to do it before. Just started it a month ago because of stress.

Stress because of the management.

Stress because of the trolls and haters.

Stress because he felt like he has been left out.

And lastly because of Harry. Because Harry won't understand his love for him.

He took the cigarette off his lips and pressed the burning side onto his arms. He hissed with pain and closed his eyes.

"Zayn", a voice shouted. Zayn was startled as he turned around.

There he stood, looking at Zayn with big eyes and a shocked expression on his face.

Harry.

He stepped ahead and took the cigarette from his hands and crushed it down. He took Zayn's arm in his and examined his hand and Zayn didn't even try to stop him because he was done with hiding his feelings.

"Jesus Christ Zayn!! This is... I.. Why?? Why have you been doing this??", Harry asked as tears prickled his eyes. "I can't believe you have been self harming. If you had some problem then why didn't you tell me or any of the lads. We would have helped you"

Zayn yanked away his hand from Harry's, ignoring the hurt expression on the younger lad's face.

"You know what my problem is?? You"

"Me??", Harry whispered, with furrowed brows and a few tears escaped his green eyes.

"Yes Harry! You! Are you blind or what?! Why can't you fucking see that I have feelings for you. I love you Haz. So much", he blurted out and Man! It felt so good after telling it.

"What?!", Harry whispered with wide eyes.

(Flashback ends)

And that was the last time when Harry and Zayn talked.

Harry told him that he didn't feel the same and Zayn accepted it. It hurt him so much that after that incident Harry started ignoring him but he felt relieved that he confessed his feelings before he left.

Zayn's thoughts were cut off when the doorbell rang. He practically jumped out of his seat and ran to open the door.

Louis and Liam laughed at his eagerness and Niall rolled his eyes but he ignored the three of them and opened the door.

There he stood.

His love.

He was looking handsome as always. Those curly brown hairs were covered with a white beanie and those green enchanting eyes were shining with happiness. His lips were curled into a big grin

Zayn just stood there, admiring the beauty in front of him. It's been a long time.

"Hii", Harry whispered.

Zayn wrapped his arms around Harry's neck and hugged him tightly. Harry returned the gesture and three boys awed at them.

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"I can't believe Liam, you wrote Strip that down. You used to be an innocent lad", Niall joked and the others laughed except for Liam who was glaring at him.

The five of them were sitting on couch, having fun conversation and eating snacks made by Zayn.

Liam and Louis were sitting on one couch. Zayn and Harry together on another and Niall took the single one. Zayn tried to ignore the butterflies in his stomach but it was so difficult because Harry had his arm kept around Zayn on the back of the couch.

It felt so good to be back. Just like the old times, only the five of them, chilling and having fun.

"Well! Niall, you shouldn't be the one who's taking because if I am not wrong you were the one who wrote Slow hands", Liam replied and it was now Niall's turn to glare as the others laughed.

"Don't act like you are innocent. If I remember correct then our Zaynie boy has written songs like Pillowtalk and Sweat. Hazza had Watermelon Sugar and Lou was the one who wrote No control when we were in the band. He was never innocent", Niall fought back.

"Okay! Okay! Why are we even having a conversation about who's innocent and who's not? To be honest, all five of us have dirty minds", Harry concluded, ending the fight and the others agreed.

They shared a minute of silence and then Zayn cleared his throat, grabbing everyone's attention.

"I-i uh.. I was thinking about a One direction reunion", he suggested.

"Like?", Louis asked as he leaned forward, propping his elbows on his knees.

"Like um", Zayn nervously scratches his neck and tapped his foot.

Harry placed his hand on his thigh to stop him. Zayn's eyes went wide and felt like he was frozen.

(A/N:- And Zayn is frooooooZayn.
Sorry! I had to put this. Keep reading;) }

"Just tell us what you have on mind", Harry whispered in Zayn's ear, causing the poor boy's cheeks go pink.

"Right", he said and coughed on his wrist. "Um... I was thinking about a show. Like we do a concert as a reunion and then work on an album together. The show will be like an announcement of our new album".

"Then what about our solo careers??", Niall asked.

"I am not saying to stop our solo careers. I am just saying that we all can continue them and we can maybe release an album together in once in a while", Zayn suggested.

"Like having both solo career and the band? ", Louis asked.

Zayn nodded his head. Then it all felt silent. The boys were thinking over it and Zayn's insides were exploding because of nervousness.

"It's an extremely good idea", Liam finally said and Zayn's eyes lit up with hope.

"Yeah, I agree", Louis said smiling as he patted Zayn's knee.

"I am 100 percent down for it", Niall said.

Now just Harry was left who was looking straight at Zayn and he looked back at him with hopeful eyes.

"When is the show guys?? ", Harry asked enthusiastically.