I'm scared of something
It makes my stomach churn when I think about it
It's what keeps me up at night,
Scared about tomorrow
And the next day
And the next

It makes my skin tingle with fear,
Raised goosebumps etched on my skin
And as I write, my brain begins to ponder
Creating an image in my mind
On how care free I would be without
Being so terrified
It's not the monster under my bed
Not the ones inside my head
Nor the ones on my television screen

My fear is something you can't see
Which makes it deadlier
My fear is something you can't predict
Which makes it scarier
My fear confuses me
Cause one day I know they'll leave me
And for the first time
In a long time
I will feel a great deal of absence in my heart
I already lost a half of me
I can't lose another
I can try to rebuild my other half
But there is no other you
I can't rebuild you

That is the reason why
I am afraid
Scared
Petrified
Utterly terrified
Of love