Kemar POV

I felt my feelings got the best of me and as much as God told me to trust His timing there was something inside of me that wanted to tear down the barrier between Cullayne and me and dive right in.

I trusted God with every fibre of my being and seeing how much He knew me and always granted me the desires of my heart trusted more than ever that this was such a moment.

I willed myself to be patient telling myself that when God sees it fit it was all going to fall in place and from the way Cullayne kept holding herself self back at my touch, my embrace and my closeness I knew He was not far off from giving me my one true desire.

I took a Band-Aid and toyed with it as I listened to her speak about her reasons for leaving. Her nearness and the sweet fruity floral scent that wafted from her body wafted about my nostrils to increase my need for her and muddled my thoughts.

I knew I should be listening but the glow of her light brown skin under the glow of the soft light made me want to touch and caress her even more.

I tore myself from the need by popping a small patch of the Dancing Lady orchid, to distract myself I caressed the small bunch of yellow petals but I was left thinking how much I wanted to trace them over Cullayne's smooth soft skin.

Focus man before yuh duh something yuh might regret!

With this stern warning to myself, I let my mind stray from the thought of what her bare slender neck would feel like tilted to the side as I place small love bites on the inciting flash there and focus on what Cullayne was saying.

I however find myself peeling off the protective paper from the bandaid I was earlier toying with and using it to secure the piece of Dancing Lady orchid I had earlier picked to the very spot on her neck I wanted to nibble and taste.

"... to cut a long story short Taylon knew I was just around for him to use so he did just that and ended up between the legs of my best friend there was no love between us unlike you and your lady friend."

What did she just say? Am I hearing correctly?!

My mind was still caught up on Taylon cheating to realize what else was being said.

Was that man an idiot? Who could cheat on a woman like Cullayne? She was charming, caring, serene, fun, beautiful and not to mention sexy.

I still would have been mentally listing all her wonderous attributes if her words had not still my progress.

"... come to think of it a mi should be the one worried about losing yuh."

Huh, what she a talk bou?

"Why," I asked stupified.

She dipped her head and her loose hair fell forward to hide her face. I waited for her to answer but she kept silent.

"Laynie why yuh feel seh yuh a guh lose mi?" I prompted.

"I kinda read yuh in the living room when I came out to check up on yuh," she answered softly. "Mi shouldn't and mi sorry but there were so many emotions coming from you and I know if I had asked you would have said you were ok."

I pushed her hair behind her ear and pulled her closer to me resting my chin against her neck with my nose and lips pressed against the warm flesh there.

"Laynie mi know yuh all yuh life and it never once cross my mind to ever leave you. So whatever it is that you read in there you have somehow confused it. I love you and never will I leave or forsake you because you were trying to protect yourself by doing what you think was best at the time.

I only let you go because you were neva mind to keep but know that if you were I would never find myself between the thighs of another woman."

Once I started to talk the words rushed from my mouth with a mind of their own. I clamped it shut when I realized that I might have said too much too soon and confused her further but something inside of me was saying all I knew I had wanted to for years.

"I know you look up to me as a big brother but for years now mi stopped thinking of you as a little sister. My emotions out there were me trying my hardest to suppress my wanting to come in that room and do things to you that are far from brotherly.

I have been in love with you from wi guh a yuh parents anniversary a Sandals. Laynie that night as I watched the beautiful young woman you have blossomed into I knew I wanted to love honour and cherish you forever but how can I when all my life I was the big brother that protected you and was always there to hold you up when you needed me to."

I sighed and groaned as she sat there silent my words confining me like a shackle. I should not have said anything. I should have waited until God saw it fit.

Bwoy when yuh boommie! God neva tell yuh fi wait iyah.

"I won't hold it against yuh if yuh decide fi distant yuhsef," I told her my heart beating wildly in my chest.

I tried not to get flustered but her silence had me chatting away.

"I know I should not even think bou you dem way deh or even a pre fi want more wid yuh but mi cyaah fight mi feelings especially when deep down mi nuh even feel guilty bou it."

Those words were rooted in honesty. I felt no regret in expressing my feelings.

"I ask God fi help mi and him seh trust His timing so right here right now with no one standing between us I tell you Cullayne Cyan I love you."

Never had something felt more right and filled me with a sense of ease even though I was concerned about Cullayne's reaction to my confessing my feelings for her.

"I am glad Taylon is out a yuh life him caus him neva fit in a yuh purpose Layne and also now that your back home mi just hope mi nuh push yuh fi leave wid weh mi jus tell yuh seh."

I was relieved I got to tell her how I truly felt but with that revelation came the cumbersome thought that I might have destroyed our friendship and the last thing I wanted was to lose Cullayne for good.

I was about to continue my babbling as her silence persisted and increased my agitation but when she turned in my arms and started into my eyes I did not need words because she was able to read me clearly and knew exactly where my feelings lay.

If only I had the same privilege of being a reader at least then I would know what she was thinking
and where I now stood with her.