First of all, I'm sorry for the extreme inactivity recently. I honestly don't know why it's become so hard for me to follow up on any of my ideas.
A lot has been happening recently, and surprisingly, school isn't actually the main problem.

I'll be completely honest. The biggest problem is the amount of shit I have to deal with in my friend group. There's just... so much unnecessary drama that happens.
On top of this, the boys in my class won't fucking shut up about how I smell, or just anything bad about me in general. They drive me nuts.
Finally, I'm a part of the school play, which is coming up in a few weeks. Our school has a reputation for putting on above average shows, so all 5 of the directors have been stressing, and all 60+ kids part of it have been stressing, including me.

In a nutshell, my personal life is currently chaos and shitty. Unfortunately, everything piles up and (SURPRISE!) unnecessary drama and stress doesn't help my mental health.

Because of everything, I've been significantly less motivated to do... well pretty much anything, including write. As much as I love it, the only story I have been actively working on is my original story, and only because I use most of my free time at school to do that. Afterward, I'm a couch blob until my parents ask me to do something.

I love my friends, but the drama that comes up in our group is absolutely ridiculous. One friend is way too fucking paranoid, another is constantly putting herself down. My bestie is psychotic, two of them just broke up, I just discovered some of my friends have been cutting...

Sorry, I just... need to get this out of my system. I can't talk about it with them because they'll call me insensitive...
You don't have to read this, don't feel obliged to.

It's fucking stupid. I don't understand why you can't just tell your mom your gay even if she is homophobic and if everything goes wrong, I've literally offered you a place to stay?! Oh, now you're also trans? Awesome! You are officially the third friend I have that's identified themself as transgender. What the fuck.
You want to stab someone? Sure, go ahead. I'll provide an alibi. Not really, I don't know what I would actually do if you killed someone. Oh god.
STOP. FUCKING. PUTTING. YOURSELF. DOWN. I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF HAVING THIS GODDAMN SHITTY CONVERSATION WITH YOU. YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON AND I LOVE YOU SO STOP.
You two broke up? Okay, cool, are you okay? Yes? Not really? What the fuck are those recent scars?!
O H  L O O K! A N X I E T Y :D

Im sorry. I just really needed to get that out...

Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much... stupid emotions...

Anyway, bottom line is, chaos and stress is lowering my motivation to write. I'm sorry.

Im going to stop saying that. It doesn't mean anything to you does it?

...

For now, I'm going to focus on my original story I think.

Hopefully things will get better and I'll be able to write again after the show.

With love
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