Well I'm fucking depressed. Okay so I just had a conver- no argument with my (drunk) grandmother and I let out a load of shit and APPARENTLY She thinks I'm using my depression and such from my mom's death as a MOTHER FUCKING EXCUSE! HOW IN THE GREAT NAME OF VOLTRON IS THAT A EXCUSE!!?! and in case no one knew I've contemplated suicide several times and when I mentioned this she had no reaction! I mean seriously no effing reaction. And this is just making me scared because I'm bisexual, but no one in my family knows, some of my friends do but not my family and I just haven't had the chance or guts to say anything, oh and I forgot to mention that my family is incredibly judgemental and they talk about people behind their backs all the time, so yeah I'm borderline terrified about what they'll think when I finally tell them that I'm Bi and leaning a bit towards girls.
But yeah I've just needed to get that out, sorry for botherin you guys with this shit that won't ever effect you.