"Drew? Drew?? Dreeww!?!" I hear an impatient voice say.
    I snap back to life and look up to see an angry Symone.
    "Hey." I say, still sort of out of it.
    "Well hello there." She says sarcastically. I scoff and roll my eyes playfully.
    "Whats up?" I ask.
"No, whats up with you? You've been out of it all day and you're  just smiling. You're not acting like yourself." She says. I sigh. Should I tell her? I might as well.
    "I....had sex." I say in a whisper. Symone scrunches her face up at me and tilts her head.
   "Huh?" she asks. I sigh and motion for her to come closer.
    "I had...you know? Sex." I whisper again. This time she fully heard me and gasped with the maximum volume a gasp can be.

    "What?!?! Oh my god! Drew!" She says in shock. I smirk and cross my legs.
     "How was it?" she asks intrigued.
    "It didnt hurt. I thought it was supposed to hurt. It was great. It was....nevermind." I say with a blush. By this time. Symone was redder than a tomato and jumping up and down with excitement.
     "So, you really love Jacob dont you?" she asks. I smile widely and blush even more.
    "Yeah. I really do." I say.

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        (4 hours before that conversation)

  I pushed Jacob on the bed and kissed him harder.
  "Drew." Jacob says breaking away from the kiss.
   "Yeah?" I ask out of breathe.
    "Are you sure about this? I mean we just talked about this, you dont have to do this." He says. I sigh and straddle him.
    "Im ready." I say softly. Giving him a soft kiss. He smiles at me and I smile back.
In less than a second I was flipped over and Jacob was on top of me.
    "I love you." He says kissing me and one thing led to the other.

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    "Hey." James says walking next to Symone. We snap out of our excitement and greet him.
     "Hey." Symone and I say in unison. Symone pecks James on the lips and blushes.
   I grin at them and poke Symones shoulder before walking away and giving them some alone time. I walked out of the lunchroom and went to the bathroom where I found Michelle smiling at her phone. I groan to myself before turning around trying to escape the bathroom.
    "Hey wait!" I hear her call.
I turn around reluctantly.
       "Yeah?" I ask nonchalant, almost sounding like my old self.
    "You're Sam's ex right?" She asks. I furrow my eyebrows at her and walk towards her.
    "Yeah. Why?" I ask curious as to why she gives a shit.
    "He wont stop talking about you and thats a problem....Drew right?" She asks giving me the stink eye. I roll my eyes and look at her the same way she looks at me.
    "That sounds like a personal problem." I say ignoring her question.
    "Well its your problem just as well as it is mine. How would Jacob feel if he found out his girlfriend's ex screams her name while hes having fun?" She says. I look at her with confusion.
    "What are you talking about?" I ask.
     "Sam screamed your name last night and I don't like that." She says stepping to me. I start to laugh and she frowns.
    "Whats so funny?" she asks frustrated.
    "You seriously think its my problem that my ex thinks of me while hes having sex with you? If anything its his problem! Tell Jacob whatever you want hes not gonna get mad at me...hes gonna get mad at Sam." I say stepping to her and looking her up and down.
    "And one more thing, dont ever step to me again or you wont have feet to step with. Capeesh?" I say. She steps back and flips her hair.
   
"Whatever freak." She says and walks out. I sigh and lean on the wall. I always wanted to hurt her. Now shes giving me an incentive.
    
   I do my deeds in the ladies room and wash my hands. When I walk out the bathroom I hear a little argument going on in the hall. It seems to be male and female so I look around the corner to see Jacob and Michelle. I frown and try to listen.
   
     "Oh come on baby, you know little virgin Mary isnt enough for you." I hear Michelle say and it takes all of me not to run and choke slam the bitch, what Jacob says calms me but it still doesnt take away the disrespectful skank standing in front of him.
   
     "Anything is better than you, but Drew is everything. So you can leave now." Is what he said I couldnt stop the blush. I also couldnt stop the anger I felt towards her.
   
    "Hey Barbie Bitch! Why dont you do me a solid and get the fuck away from my boyfriend?" I yell from across the halls. Everyone looked at me and so does she and Jacob. Jacob smirks at me and I wink at him. Michelle walks towards me in anger and hopefully Im mistaken but her fist are balled. She really wants to play this game? Its on. I got 0/3 strikes at this school I could kill her, bring her back to life and kill her again and I'd still be able to attend this school.
If I really wanted to. But Instead Im going to play it cool.
   
    "Who the hell are you calling a bitch?" She asks upset.
 
      "I recall calling you a Barbie Bitch." I say. She groans grabs my shoulders pushing me to the lockers and to be honest I was not expecting that. She has a little strength on her.
  
   "Thats all you got? Come on, I need more incentive to beat your ass!" I yell in her face and she slapped me. Something inside me snapped and I choked her and threw her to the ground. The same thing that snapped in me when I beat the cheerleader in the face with the Algebra book. The same thing that snapped in me when Sam and I broke up.

   Everyone in the halls gasped and screamed. I heard Jacob telling me to stop but I couldnt respond. I heard Michelle under me screaming and calling me crazy. I started to punch her, and hit her, and I couldnt stop. Like I said. Something in me snapped. Next thing I know Jacob has me in his arms and a bunch of teachers and students surround Michelle as she cries on the floor. Once I had calmed down I realized that it wasnt Jacobs arms that were around me. It was Sam's.
   
    "Are you fucking crazy?" He yells. Jacob was too busy trying to distract the teachers.
  He turned around and mouthed 'get out of here' he only had to tell me once. I grabbed my bag and left out the school doors. Sam trailed behind me.
 
    "Ill give you a ride home." He says. I groan and turn around to look at him.
   
   "Im fine. Why dont you go and check on your girlfriend?!" I yell. Sam sighs and looks at me.
   
   "I'm just trying to help, Drew." He says softly.
   
   We stand in silence for a second until we hear the school doors bust open. Its a couple teachers and they're looking around and calling out my name. I run and hide behind the side of the school and Sam follows.
   I sigh in defeat.
"Where's your car?" I whisper.

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We stopped in my driveway and just sit there for a second.
    " I dont see why you like her." I break the silence.
   Sam looks at me with raised eyebrows.
    "Michelle." I clarify. He starts to laugh.
   "What?" I say with a frown.
"I dont like Michelle. Im convinced no one likes her." He says. I frown at his response.
   "Then why the hell are you dating her?" I ask.
    "Im not. Shes just a....you know?" He says.
    "She doesnt think that." I say.
   "I dont know how she couldnt. Ive never had a legit conversation with the girl, I dont even know her last name. All I know is, she puts out." He says. I grimace in disgust at the thought of her touching Sam.
 
      "Why do you care anyway?" He asks. I frown. Why do I care?
     "I dont know." I say getting out the car.
    "Drew, wait!" He says. I stop and sit back down.
     "Yeah?" I ask.

   "I dont like not being able to talk to you and If it means I'll have to be friendly with Jacob to stay friends with you, I'll do it." He says. I fight the smile that was about to appear on my face.
 
     "I dont think Jacob will like that." I say.
   "Why? Does he really hate me that much?" He asks.
   "Maybe now, If Michelle told him what she told me." I say. Sam furrows his eyebrows in confusion.
"What could she have possibly told you?" He asks.
 
    "She said....that you....kind of...moaned my name during sex with her." I say awkwardly. Just saying that made me very uncomfortable and uneasy. His face turned a dark shade of red and he started to rub the sides of his face, something he did when he was uncomfortable.
   
    I started to blush too, mainly because he looks adorable while doing it, but also because this is really awkward.
 
     "You...believe that?" He asks shyly. I shrug. I dont really know what I believe.
 
     "Well, truth be told, I did. Im sorry if that makes you uncomfortable because trust me, it was the most awkward and uncomfortable situation that has ever happened to me." He says.
  
    My mind starts to sworm with questions. Its just so weird.
     "I...um...why did you do it though? What were you even thinking about?" I ask.
Im simply curious.

   "Well, obviously you." He says. I look at him with squinted eyes, trying to read him, something I was never very good at.
   "Do you hate me? For being with Jacob?" I ask in a serious voice.
 
     "No." Is all he says. I smile and hug him. He stiffens up but hugs me back and it feels nice. To know that he doesnt hate me.
    I sigh and let go opening the door.
   "Thanks for taking me home." I say with a smile.
   "No problem." He says smiling back. I close the door and walk to my porch.
When I walk into the house I see Julio standing in the stairway frozen.
 
  "Not again." I hear him mutter.
"Please, Drew...let me be." Julio says with a tone of exhaustion.
I sigh and walk towards him.
   "No. Why have you been skipping Lee?" I ask concerned.
    "I dont want to talk about it." He says and starts to walk up the stairs. Old me would have said let it go, but new me couldn't.

   I raced after him and busted into his room. He groans and plops down on his bed.
   "Drew! Leave it!"
"I refuse. Julio, Ive caught you once, I let it slide...but now? Im scared for you. Whats going on?" I ask.

   "Just....promise you wont tell?" He asks. I nod.
"I promise." I said and I meant it.
     "I've been skipping because.... I'm sort of kind of not enrolled in that school anymore." He said. I frowned at his statement completely confused.
    "I got accepted into a tech school online and I didnt want to tell dad because hes so focused on sports so I faked going to school." He explains.

    "Oh my Jesus, are you telling me that you redid your enrollment to do online school?" I ask bewildered.
He nods slowly.
   "How could you do all that without dad knowing? Dont you need an adult for that stuff?" I ask.

   "Technically yeah, but I just foraged his signature and made a few fake phone calls." Julio replies.
   "Julio! That is so risky! What were you thinking?!" I say in a lecturing tone that dad has.
  
"Jeez, you sound like dad, ease off me a little okay? What matters is Im doing what I love and you of all people should know the risks of that in this family now Im done talking about it." He says walking away.
  
   "Wait! What about Basketball? I thought you loved that too?" I ask. He sighs.
  
   "I got it covered. Im still on the team, you dont have to be enrolled to be on the team you just have to be registered...and I am. Now if you will excuse me I have homework." He says walking off and I dont stop him. As we walk in opposite directions I hear his foot steps stop.
    "Hooold the fuck up!" He says and spins around. He smirks at me and walks my way.
   "Why are YOU here so early?" He asks. I look around nervously.
   "Jacobs not here is he?" He asks looking around. I roll my eyes and plop down.
    "No. I dont want to talk about it." I say. Julio starts to chuckle.
    "You think you can get a load out of me and walk away? Think again mija." He says. I groan and slouch in my seat.
    "Now what happened? " he asks. I sigh.

    "Igotintoafight." I say all in one word very quiet.
    "What?" He asks.
" I SAID...... Igotintoafight!" I say louder but still fast.
   "Slow the hell down!" Julio says frustratedly.
    " I got...into.....a fight." I say slowly and with shame.
    "Ooooh dads gonna kill you!" He says in between laughs.
I groan.
   "No he wont because he'll never know. When I first enrolled in the school I put my number as the parents number and I ran out before I was caught." I say. Julio just shakes his head at me and walks away.
"Shame!" He yells from across the room.

   I sit in the livingroom for an hours contemplating many things in my head. Who knew Julio was a tech freak? Its kind of cool.
  I sit longer and realized I should be in hiding. Im not even supposed to be here.
   As soon as I get up to grab some snacks and hide under my bed I hear my phone ring. Its Jacob.
   "Hello?" I answer.
"Babe. You home?" He asks.
   "Yeah. Why?" I ask.
"Im parked down the street can you come out?" He says. I sigh and start walking out the door.

   I finally get to his car and see him looking at me through the window. For some reason my heart starts to flutter just thinking of being next to him. It feels like a crush even though hes already mine.
   
   "Hey." I say with a blush whilst getting in the car.
   "Hey." He says with a big smile and as soon as I close the door his hand connects with mine.
    "You're crazy. You know that?" He asks. I grin and nod.
    "And I absolutely love it." He says and kisses me on the cheek. His lips linger for a while before he leans back in his seat.
    "Jacob?"
"Yeees?"He answers happily.
"Was this morning...you know....bad?" I ask. He lifts up and looks at me like Im crazy.
 
    "Are you fucking kidding me? You were...amazing and when you did that little thing....look it was amazing. Can I tell you something?" He says. I blush harder than before and sink in my seat. I felt embarassed.
    "Before you tell me something...what little thing?"  I ask curiously.
     "When you covered your eyes...its just really cute to me." He says and pinches my cheek. God why is this so cringy to hear?
     "Okay okay what did you have to tell me?" I ask changing the subject...or at least I thought I was.
    "Oh yeah, I wanted to say. That today, with you, was the best Ive ever had." He says. I thought my face was red before. I thought my heart was beating fast before. Oh but it does not compare to now.
  
    "Really?" I ask dumbfounded. It might not mean anything to you but Jacob has been with a lot of girls...and maybe it makes me stupid for actually having sex with him in the first place but to know that I was the best out of them all made me feel a lot less cringy and embarassed. It made us...feel real. I dont know exactly how sex is supposed to feel and I dont really know what to do all I know is when I was doing it I really didnt care about the act itself. I cared about the person I did it with. All while it was happening I just kept thinking of how ready I was and why I was ready. I was ready because I believe in Jacob. Because I know that when he says he loves me he means it and I believe that we can last forever if I keep believing in him and he believes in me.
   I cant believe how long I was "The push away" the person who rejected love. Now every chance I get I want to embrass it.