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TW  // ABUSE AND MILD TO
SEVERE PANIC ATTACKS

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Sitting in my sixth hour class the word Friday just floating across the room and the kids plans for the weekend I lean back annoyed with all the chatter around me. The bell rings loudly and I immediately walk straight to me and luzes secretly shared dorm room, packing up my regular clothes into my backpack luz walks into the room.

"Heyy~ how are youu??"

Luz says in a whisper to me her tone sensual to my promise the previous Monday, gently biting my lip I lean in and kiss her lovingly, my arms wrapping around her neck. Her hands slip from my waist to my thighs, lifting me up our lips still exploring eachothers she walks effortlessly to the bed. Setting me down on my back I giggle softly and ask

"Little bit of champagne and fireworks mh??"

She mumble a short 'mhm' as she nibbles on my lower lip, wrapping my arms further around her neck I whisper lovingly

"Mmmh.. then please sign me up VIP~"

Breathing in deeply at a slow pace once she reunites our lips together, I can't help but let a little bit of noise out quietly.
Biting my neck a bit too harshly I impulsively push her away a couple inches

"Ow- please be careful.."

Pressing a kiss to my lips she whispers once she parts

"Sorry...I got carried away"

My phone rings interrupting the rough kiss being pressed onto my throat, luz picks it up and asks a short

"Yes?"

Then a quick

"Okay"

Handing my phone to me I ask as luz recontinues the neck kisses, my tone slightly annoyed

"Yes?? Mom?? Whats up?"

Gently pushing off luz I sit up swiftly

"Your father is asking you to come home... try not to seem mad- because he is"

Running my fingers through my hair I sigh a little 'alright' and hang up, picking my sweater off the carpet I slip it on unwillingly.

"Dad's mad..."

Is all I can choke up, my nervous fear taking over my mind. Luz pulls me into a hug from behind and whispers gently

"it's ok... I can walk you there if you want"

I can't help it but nod.
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Kissing luz once we reach the manors doors I whisper a soft 'goodbye' and head inside, walking to the study everyone sitting down on the chairs. Dad studies the uniform NOT hexside's he says sternly his tone laced with venom and bitterness

"SIT!"

jumping my face flinching away, I sit down on the open armchair. He stands up and slams the student enrollment papers on the arm of the chair, nearly hitting my arm in the process.

"Explain THIS! right the hell now amity blight"

I look up at him fearfully my body flinching away from his anger I say nervously my voice shaking

"I-it's the enrollment form for MorterSporr sir... it's nicer than hexside"

He raises his hand and I jump back as far as I can scared, clenching his hand into a fist he lowers his hand

"You're going back to hexside- I'm taking you out of this MorterSporr"

Jumping up I say angrily and scared

"NONONO! DAD PLEASE DON'T! you can't do this! I really like it there!! Pleas-"

His palm collides with my cheek roughly, throwing myself to my knees I hold my face yelling in pain. Gasps fill the room from mom and the twins, dad says angrily

"You will NOT- you understand me?!
NOT! say what I CAN or CAN'T DO!"

Looking up at him fearfully my eyes trembling quite literally- I pick up my sidebag and leather jacket then run as fast as I can out the front door, running easily eleven miles with no stop I open my portal to the human world to eda's human house tripping as I hit the pavement, holding my knee for a moment I stand up and freeze my eyes so suddenly filling with tears. Sobbing in place as I place my hand over my throbbing cheek I begin to shake, forcing my lead filled feet to make it the rest of the way to luzes house I knock on the door. A woman with red framed glasses opens the door, she looks confused but I say slightly hyperventilating

"I'm sorry for the lateness of the hour ma'am...but- I really need to see luz.. it's extremely urgent"

She blinks trying to process the words 'extremely urgent' then turns around calling into the house

"Mija! You have a visitor!"

Two pairs of footsteps run down the stairs and luz immediately catches my face hidden underneath a sheet of thick tears. Muttering a 'lo sientó mami' as she pushes past her mom roughly to get to me she cups my cheeks in her hands, jerking my head away from her hands I lean over and hold my cheek crying silently. Luz then leans down to my heads level, I start sobbing as my mind replays dad hitting me. She pulls me into a tight embrace swaying back and forth

"What happened... was he that angry??"

I nod shakily and manage to spit out

"He hit me.."

She then quickly pulls me inside into the light and holds the cheek I wasn't protecting, lifting up my head she pulls back her hands cupping over her mouth.. A bruise has probably formed..

"Oh my god..."

She whispers into her hands, trying to wipe away the tears luz pulls me into a hug, crying into her sweater she rubs my back whispering well- she's too mad to realize how loud she says

"Shh...I got you- I got you baby... It's okay"

Still in the hug luz guides me to the couch and sits down, resting my ear onto her collarbone I choke out heavy sobs as I lock her into a tight hug. Jerking awake to the living room light being turned on a dim setting, I see luz who I assume was in the lit up kitchen. Setting the snack items on the coffee table she rejoins me and pulls me into a soft protective embrace, she whispers quietly

"It's just me...he's not here.."

Rubbing my face into her shoulder I wrap my arms around her as she leans back into the armrest, closing my eyes I adjust myself slightly

"I'm sorry I'm being such a burden for your mom...she seems pretty angry"

Luz shakes her head softly and whispers

"Quite the opposite...she's wondering if witches eat cookies hehe"

Snorting the first giggle since MS luz pulls me in closer, resting onto her I somehow manage to continue giggling, luz whispers softly to me

"There's my giggly girl..."

There is a short knock on the wall and when I turn to the side I see camilla looking slightly awkward at me, she walks kinda stiff to the couch. Me and luz both pull up our legs as she sits down

"So..mi hija- uhm.. god why is this so awkward?? A couple hours back you referred this girl by the word.."baby" erm"

She has a very difficult time saying that word, camilla sighs and continues

"is this young woman your girlfriend?"

Looking up at luz I see her nod softly then look at camilla who looks down at me kindly, luz says kinda proud but mostly lovingly

"Her name is amity... she's easily the best thing in my life- and the reason why I kept going back..you kinda took her from me- because I thought if I told you... it'd give you more the reason to send me away"

Camilla let's out a slight chuckle and luz shifts uncomfortably

"Obviously sending you away won't separate you two.. but now I see the girlfriend luz always rants on to her sister- I'm not sending you away"

Me and luz simultaneously panic

"Wait no I like mortersporr! Please don't send me to public highschool-"

Luz spits out to which camilla laughs, shrouding me in confusion

"Noo mija no- I'm saying I accept amity! You can continue MorterSporr you and your sister both seem happier there"

Luz leans over to the coffee table her tight grip around my waist and my hands gripping her collar the only thing keeping me from falling, and grabs my two school regulars handing them to me she mutters a loving little 'here..' and I cannot fathom how excited I got over the two simplest things, sinking into her my back pressed to her chest I hear camilla chuckle

"Mija..it took an entire world to find your perfect match, now explain to me just how it took running away for that to happen"

Me and luz knowing that she won't understand at all both say in unison

"The good witch azura"

And oh my g o d- yes I'd recently stopped frequently using titan it doesn't fit most words- did she look so confused, we both laugh a second then luz says softly her finger twirling a piece of my hair

"Enemies, to friends, to lovers mom... we used to absolutely HATE eachother-"
"Hate is a strong word...but- I'd more say if we so much as saw one strand of hair in our peripheral vision- deathmatch. With one of us being sent to the healers office or detention- and."

I feel us both shiver at the previous detention room before the tract came in

"Nobody wants to go into that detention room-"

Camilla raises an eyebrow and I feel luz tightening her grip on me

"What's so bad about detention..?? It's just one really silent room-"

I feel my face drop, I feel really nervous when I explain

"In the boiling isles??- yeah it's a silent demon and you'd probably die by the time you got out of it-"

Camilla's face drops further than mine, I nod when she mouths 'what?' And take a sip of my strawberry milk.
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Luz not wanting me to walk carries me up to her room, setting me onto her bed she sits in front of me...my bruised face reflecting off the mirror in the multicolored nightlights dim light, his handprint painfully stuck on my face. luz leans forward her hand extended to place onto my hurt cheek, flinching away fearfully I mutter a swift 'don't-' but luz sighs causing me to look at her, she then whispers soft

"I won't hurt you.. cross my heart hope to die am.."

She then extends her hand towards my cheek again, placing my hands on her arm in case I have to pull her away she gently slides her hand over the bruise on my cheek- mostly hiding it. I immediately despite the slight pain press into her hand and close my eyes, slipping my hands to her hand I open my eyes to look at her again, she smiles gently at me. I start to shed a couple relieved tears, my lips in a small smile as I see just how loving luz is.

"I can't wait for Saturday... a whole day of rowdy teenagers drinking soda and eating chips.."

I mutter softly, leaning towards her to rest on her. Luz lays down on her back and slightly adjusting me so I'm not uncomfortable, she wraps her arms around me.

"Me too... and am- from now on.. you're spending Friday's and Sunday's with me"

She brushes two fingers over my cheek obviously pained with the bruise, I nod gently and scoot closer to her. Gently pushing me off her she jumps up from the bed, her face confident. Digging through her dresser she pulls out some familiar blue patches, rejoining me she pulls the paper off the back and gently placing the fabric patch on my cheek she kisses me.

"I'd completely forgotten about these..."

She says lovingly as she parts, smiling gently I trap her in a hug. Pulling me down with her she lets me turn to my side, resting my head on her shoulder I manage to fall comfortably asleep.