Then I saw how a girl stood next to him. They conversed enthusiastically and I even saw him smile his precious bunny smile.

I recognized her face from the papers. It was his ex Hana, or at least I think that was her.

A song started and people started to dance. My eyes were only fixed on Jungkook but he was busy and didn't see me at all.

      'Let's say hi to him after the next song' Jimin suggested as he followed my eyes.

I nodded.

      'Let's dance in the meantime' he said while offering me his hand. I took it and we danced at the edge of the room. I wasn't too keen on going to the middle.

I was focused on the dance passes but as I looked up through all the dancing couples I saw how Jungkook was dancing with Mary. I was aware she was going. Chris and Han had informed me she was. I didn't however expect her to dance with him. 

The song ended and I smiled at Jimin

     'Thank you Jimin this was actually really nice.'

    'If things don't work out with my cousin perhaps we can have a go at it?' Jimin joked and I punched him 'you never stop flirting do you?'

He chuckled while grabbing his shoulder which I just punched

      'You're quite strong for a girl.'

I chuckled too and then turned my head again to Jungkook's direction. Still accompanied by Mary.

I had to admit seeing him dance with Mary and before that conversing with Hana with a big smile on his face, it hurt me. I mean I was supposed to be happy he was happy but I just..

I guess I wished it was with me. 

A dark feeling filled my body.

What was I even doing here?

I mean what was I thinking, that I could come here and he would see me and boom we would live happily ever after? wasn't that way of thinking, the girls who thought that, what I ridiculed in the first place?

and this night made it even more crystal clear I had nothing to offer him, Hana had a close connection with the family, she was from the upper class. Mary's father was loaded which inherently meant so was she, plus ties to a good business wouldn't hurt the royals either. They were both silver spoons and I was not. I had nothing like that, I was poor and I grew up on the streets basically. I had no higher education no fancy title. 

      'I am sorry Jimin I think I will go. I thought I could do this but I can't' I suddenly said and Jimin looked at me confused. but then he followed my eyes again and nodded.

I looked one last time at Jungkook and to my shock he looked straight in my eyes. He seemed to be frozen on the spot.

      'Won't you at least say hi to him?' Jimin indicated. I did want that but I it would complicate things, make them more painful. I therefore shook my head.

       'Thank you Jimin, I saw him again and that meant a lot. I am sorry again.'

Jimin caressed my arm 'Don't be sorry, I will be fine but will you be?'

I smiled at him 'I will be'

And with that I left the ballroom.

The rest of the palace was strangely abandoned, and I found my way to the exit. Even the help was gone, except for security, probably all at the party. I pushed the door towards the hallway when I heard a voice .

     'Are you leaving already?'

My feet stopped moving, recognizing that voice.

I slowly turned around and met his gaze, my heart beating out of control.

      'At least leave one of your shoes behind' He smiled at me and I could probably melt on the spot.

      'I am sorry Jungkook I don't even know what I'm doing here. I guess I just wanted to see you but now I see you in this setting and I don't want to complicate things'

I wanted to turn around again not sure what to say anymore, it was better if I left. instead he suddenly stood in front of me. 

      'I am really happy you're here y/n, I didn't know when I could see you again if ever.'

His eyes then scanned my face and he took a small step back scanning me entirely.

      'And you truly look.. 'his eyes met mine again 'perfect.'

I couldn't help but become emotional.

I had missed him so much

      'Hey why are your eyes filled with tears' he softly said while placing his hand on my cheek.

His touch

it send a shiver up my spine

it had been so long and I had longed for it so much

I took a deep breath

      'I just missed you' I then said 

Jungkook pov

There were so many things I wanted to say at this moment. I can facepalm myself for not noticing she was here earlier but there were so many people.

"I just missed you"

She took my hand which was still on her cheek and she immediately pulled back, realizing it was her hand which missed the pinky.

I took it back. I didn't care,

She looked at how I placed my hand back on her cheek with hers on top of it. She bend her head slightly, kissing the palm of my hand.

it really send a shiver up my spine

     'I really missed you too' I let out

We gazed in each others eyes. her eyes trailed down my lips and mine trailed down hers. eventually it seemed like we as magnets were pulled towards each other, y/ns hand still in mine.

     'Brother everyone is looking for you.'

Yeonjuns voice broke our moment of whatever the hell we were doing.

     'oh' he let out

      'yes uhm you should head back' y/n indicated

The truth was that the last thing that I wanted was for her to leave.

      'Will you stay?' I asked.

      'I uh ' she seemed hesitant

      'As a birthday present?' I asked hopeful and she kind of smirked at me

      'you surely still know how to persuade people, don't you?'

I chuckled 'yeah I do'

     'okay' she said

      'although maybe you will be recognized' I suddenly realized.

She took my hand 'I know' she looked at our intertwined hands 'but I made my decision of what I really want' 

y/n pov

When we re-entered the ballroom I expected Jungkook to let go of my hand but he didn't and all eyes turned our way.

Some people clearly shocked, some raising their eyebrows, and some like Jimin with a wide smile on their face.

There was this painful silence throughout the room. The king quickly nudged the musicians to play a song and thus music started again. Though nobody really diverted their gazes from us.

I squeezed Jungkook's hand in a sort of panic about what we should do now

He then turned to me reaching out his other hand

      'Dance with me' he said and I smiled at him while nodding.

He formally stretched out his hand for me to take, so I did.

His other arm found his way around my waist.

The entire time I was gazing into his eyes, he was leading because he actually did know the dances. 

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Authors note: I listened to your eyes on repeat when I wrote this, and its kind of my favorite part together with chapter 13 so I hope you like it as well :)