y/n pov

I opened my eyes and I was quite disoriented.

Where was I?

It was all so light and clear here in contrast to the darkness I had been living in the past few days. I did soon remember everything. I looked instantly at my hand and gasped when I saw the bandage around it but mainly about the emptiness at the edge where my pinky should be. Tears formed in my eyes.

I looked around and saw Taehyung sleeping in his chair. I then silently cried or at least I thought it was silent, but Taehyung opened his eyes.

   'Hey my dear' he said while coming closer.

   'Taehyung... is Jungkook safe?' it was the first thing that came out of my mouth.

   'That's your first question?' he asked confused.

     'yeah they kidnapped me to get him out of the palace didn't they? is he okay?'

     'yes he is safe.'

A relief filled my body, as this was one of my fears.

   'And where is bono?' I then asked

    'He is okay, he stayed at the palace for a little while.'

The relief became even more, and it was mixed with a feeling of gratitude and in a way love, because I knew it was Jungkook who took Bono in.

     'Who was the one who send out the order though?' I asked right after. I knew I was just firing questions at Taehyung, but I needed to know what happened.

     'it was Jiya, yeonjuns fiance'

      'oh' I let out

There was a silence. Time for me to let that knowledge sink in. Also partly I was kind of figuring how horrible that must be for yeonjun, or probably for the entire family as she was almost married into it. 

Taehyung didn't say anything, instead he gave me the time and space to get my thoughts clear. I looked around.

     'Wait, why do I have a private room, and which such luxury?'

It only struck me now. I wasn't really in a situation to pay for this. Taehyung smiled faintly.

    'You have friends in very high places.'

Jungkook

    'How uhm how is he?' I asked, forgetting to specify the he.

    'Honestly? he was an absolute wreck. He really does care for you' Taehyung answered. In a way it brought butterflies to my stomach, I mean the knowledge he cared so much, but in the other and probably most way it ached my heart knowing he was worried.

Taehyung's phone suddenly went off and he checked it 'its mr moons, I think I should take it'

    'ofcourse' I replied and waited as Taehyungs quickly left the room to answer his phone.

He returned shortly after 'I am sorry y/n I need to go.'

I smiled at him, 'don't worry Tae, go, I'll speak to you soon.'

Later on there was a knock on the door,

     'yes?' I asked but I was also quite alerted because I

didn't expect anyone. Jimin entered with a big bouquet in his hands and then I saw Bono who was beyond excited to see me again.

My eyes teared up again at seeing him, I tried to get to the side and bent down to pet him. he was jumping and wagging his tale.

     'These are from Jungkook' Jimin indicated while placing the flowers on the table nearby.

Jimin sat in the chair next to the bed.

     'He apologises that he cannot be here himself but his parents are scared that there might still be a danger for him'

    'Makes sense'

Jimin stayed for a while and we talked about how I was doing but also how Jungkook and his family were doing after everything. 

I had made up my mind to call Jungkook as soon as Jimin left. I stared at my phone, at Jungkook's contact picture.

I took a deep breath before tapping his name to initiate a call.

He picked up quite quickly

     'Y/n' he said and I am not sure why but hearing his voice already send some weird shock through my body. I suppose one of joy mixed with sadness, sadness because I missed him.

     'Jungkook hey' I answered

     'Are you okay?' he asked, and I looked at my hand. I

murmured something inaudible, not entirely answering his question.

     'Can I see you?' he then asked, which was a pretty vague and unexpected request.

     'You're not allowed outside of the palace right?' I asked.

     'no no I mean can we put on the video?'

I wasn't too sure if that was a good idea, I mean I looked horrible. 

     'I don't look so well' I said in a low voice, because in a way I really wanted to see his face.

      'That makes two of us, but if you don't want too its also okay. I just .. I just would like to see your face.'

     'Alright, let's turn it on.'

I put the phone in front of me and enabled the camera, Jungkook was just a tat quicker and I saw his face.

I still didn't get used to his handsomeness

    'Your hair is different' I said noticing his ponytail. It was just a split second, but I could see his bunny smile.

     'yeah, I didn't really pay attention to my hair so it's a bit fluffy now so I just wear it like this.'

       'I like it' I indicated, because I understood what Taehyung meant when he said he was kind of a wreck but the little ponytail suited him well.

     'thanks' he chuckled

Then there was a silence.

       'Thank you so much for taking bono in' I said gratefully

        'He is your family' Jungkook answered, I nodded my head.

        'I'll miss him here' he then added 'I am sure he will miss you too and the royal treatment he will not get from me.'

Jungkook laughed, and so did I.

It was serene.

He then swallowed before saying something again.

      'I was so scared that I might lose you.'

I looked away, tears forming in my eyes. affected by his words and also feeling this was the time I should tell him what had bothered me the past days.

      'I was so scared I wouldn't be able to speak to you again and you'd resent me forever' I let out because while I was in that van this had occupied my mind continuously.

      'I could never resent you.'

this time I looked down, to divert from the stare, the virtual stare.   

    'I know this won't make things easier but I do want you to understand I really do love you' I eventually said 

      'I know, I still do too'

His words really did something to me, I am not sure how to describe it. A feeling of hope I suppose.

Then there was a change in Jungkooks expression one of sorrow

      'but y/n. the thing is even though we love each other, at the end of the day I stand outside your work and your world'

That feeling of hope and love made place for sadness and reality. because he was right. We were from two different worlds, he was a prince and I was a spy.

     'In a different world where you were just a normal college guy and me a regular college girl we would have a chance' I said while silently sobbing.

      'but we're not' Jungkook replied with a broken voice.

We stared at each other through our screens.

      'uhm so what do we do?' I askedhesitantly. 

I had no idea if there was anything we could do and in all honesty, I didn't really want to know either.

      'I don't know.'

      'Could we stay in touch? like texting sometimes?' I asked in a very insecure tone.

       'I'd like that'

We stared again at each other again. Both not eager to end the call.

       'miss y/l/n, how is everything going' the doctor walked in and I immediately pressed the red phone because he also couldn't know I was talking to the prince.

I had texted Jungkook after to apologize, but he understood. and that's how the chapter ended, because in the end we still weren't compatible.