~Dear Diary~

~Being the girlfriend of a really popular guy isn't a task for the weak of hearts and I have the weakest heart ever! I'm totally scared! If Andrew is actually cheating on me, I don't know what I'll do! I'll be made for slaughter and chewed apart like meat! 

God, why is this all so confusing!? Ugh... I know I should just calm down, but I can't, I'm scared, and I don't know how to relax without freaking out inside...

Someone tell me that I'm just being crazy and be done with it...

-Rosetta H.

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I closed the journal and felt a bit calmer; the little journal has been good at making me feel less intense. But that entire built up is still there, no matter what I do or say, it's still growing inside me like a bad moss infection.  I walked downstairs and made myself cupcakes, but even that wasn't enough for me to not feel like crap.

Until I decide "I have to do some digging, right here and right now!" I grabbed my computer, looked up Andrew's Instagram account and did some digging. 

Andrew's account was pretty innocent, there were pictures of him, his friends, pictures of him and me together, normal stuff like that, but scrolling down more, I noticed some pictures that I'd never seen before! 

All of these pictures had Mckayla, like way more than me and him. It was pictures of them at concerts, at each other's house, and even at parties, some I wasn't even invited to! The bad thoughts kept coming to me "What if Andrew is a cheater! What if Mckayla and Andrew are together right now?! Am I a such a horrible girlfriend that my own boyfriend wants my best friend!?"

I was tapping my fingers against the desk as my mind kept racing around like an overturned racetrack, I felt like I was out of control, like life was playing with my feelings which I always hated, I needed a place that wasn't the library to control my mind, get my self-control back and feel calm. 

And my answer was the mall! To be more specific, The Baldwin Hills Crenshaw Plaza! One of my favorite places to go when I'm freaking out, stressed or just need a cute new outfit to wear. 

The sounds of people shopping, generic pop music, and cute outfits was enough to make me grin. The shops were cute, and I had tons of fun trying out different outfits, I wanted to get sunglasses, but putting them on top of my head while I was wearing glasses is kind of weird. I still bought them, but I still think it looks really silly. 

One of my favorite outfits I bought was this, An off the shoulder sweater, a pair of jeans that bedazzled at the end and some black platform sneakers! It's super cut and it's perfect for me and Andrew's anniversary! 

And after I did, I walked to the part of the mall where did they did give out mani-pedis! the nail designs that I wanted was black with cute white hearts all over it! I know that someone might make fun of me, but that's why I wanted the hearts to be so small that nobody's gonna noticed it or at the very least, mistake it for polka dots.

I dropped off all of my stuff back home and texted Andrew about how excited I was for our anniversary, and how I spent all day choosing a super cute outfit to wear! And he responded with "Cool, babe. See you then." 

Even thought it was a bit more lackluster than what I wanted; it was still a reaction at the best! even if it was lackluster. 

When I head inside, Layla was at the table, typing on the computer when she saw me. "Oh, hey sis. What's up?" 

"Nothing much! I was at the mall for a bit, still working on homework?" I asked, Layla shook her head and smiled. "Nope, I'm just typing stuff up for fun, no big deal. Are you, okay? You look tired." 

"Eh, I'm fine. I'm just stressed about... relationship stuff." 

"Oh god, don't tell me that Andrew guy is messing with you again?" Layla groaned and pinched her forehead. 

I shook my head, even though he was kind of involved with it. "He's not messing with me. I don't know why you don't like him." 

"Contrary to movies, dating the popular guy will screw you over," Layla explained. "Just, be careful with a guy like Andrew, got it?" 

"I get it. Don't worry." 

Layla smiled and nodded at me while I walked upstairs and put away all of my new clothes into my walk-in closet and fixed it up a bit, I smiled, it looked better than last time. 

Tomorrow is gonna be awesome! I can't wait for the movies, it'll be fun! I just know it!

~End~

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