Kenjirou"s pov ⚠️warning it's talks about eating disorders⚠️⚠️I've warned you MAY TRiGGER SOME BE AWARE⚠️

Hmm i look In the mirror ....I've lost weight

I'm looking worse day by day I should see a doctor this week

You hungry sweety

No not really semi.you haven't been eating well lately are you ok? Yeah I'm fine

I really don't wanna eat right now anyways .maybe you should lose more weight you look so ugly your skins so pale to

P.s this is shirabus head talking to himself

Do I really look that fat and ugly I thought I looked good ?

I'm sure semi would like you more if you were pretty I mean don't you think he deserves it after you kissed another man

Yeah you're probably right .......

Eita"s pov

Hmm shirabu has been eating less and he looks more pale is he sick

Hey kenjirou are you ok you look terrible you should eat more

You've been eating way less you look so skinny

I don't want to eita...

Please for me I made food so I would hate to eat on my own

Shirabu"s pov

I eat nibbles of it till it's finished . I'm  gonna shower semi so you can head to sleep .

Ok love you .

Love you to

I stare In The mirror I look fat and have such big eye bags

Am I to pale is my hair to weird should I cut it ?

Hovering over a toilet seat the younger sticks his fingers down his throat causing him to gag and throw up whatever food he had

The warm water envelopes me in its comfort

I'm so tired of being me sometimes.....

My love eita s pov

He hasn't come out the shower yet is he ok

His waist got smaller .has he stopped eating because he's stressed? Is that my fault

He steps out his hair still damp.

You didn't dry your hair right your gonna catch a cold . I'm sure I'll be fine I haven't gotten sick in years

Ok ,I wrap my arms around his body he feels so lanky and bones I hope he's ok I really do love him

Shirabu"s pov I'm sorry this chapter is kinda depressing 😪

I feel dizzy my throats sore. I feel like vomiting but I have nothing to throw up

Hmm why are you up so early kenjirou.i don't feel good I run to the bathroom again there wasn't much to throw up but I did

Here eat some soup . I'm not hungry though

Your sick you've been liking all day you need this to heal unless you wanna stay sick

Fine I grab the warm bowl from his hands

Have your wrists gotten smaller

(Yes your wrists can get smaller if lose so much weight)

I think not sure , you should eat a lot more kenjirou your not looking healthy.

After a a couple days semi got worried and took me to the doctor

Hmm step on the scale please

I put my feet on this cold metal plate with a little red line .

Hm you've lost over 20 pounds in only a month so you have any eating disorders any tragic things to cause you not to eat

No not really

Twenty pounds!? That's to much semi says worrisome

Yes it is he used to weigh 197.9 pounds

If he got sick so easily it's probably from him not getting enough nutrients

We get home the car ride was quiet .i only point out my flaws instead of my good quality's I don't have much of those

Semi semi pov

He's been spending a lot more time in the bathroom lately each time he does his voice is a bit sore

I go to knock on the door .no reply

I walk In To see him crouched over the toilet barring our whatever food he even had left

Kenjirou!?

I'm fine really

But you're throwing up losing weight getting sick always tired what is going on with you!?!

I Don't know what going on semi he cry's grilling his head

I feel like utter shit all the time my mental state is scrambling and then this stupid little voice won't shut the fuck up till in barf or until I'm satisfied with my self

And I'm just feeling like a waste Of space sometimes and I'm so tired

My body's in shock from what I'm hearing .i do t know what to say to him right now the love of my life is feeling this way and I'm here like a idiot watching

I-I'm sorry kenjirou I should have caught on I should've known how you were feeling m-maybe asking you how you felt

No!?!dont cry eita it's not you're fault to deal with my mental state.

It's not but it's my job as your lover to take care of you and I'm hurt that you wouldn't tell me you felt this way for so long

Because I didn't wanna see you this way semi your being hurt by the things I'm saying and I. Don't want that.

I-is it my fault you feel this way am I  stressing you or not giving you attention I'll do better I just don't wanna break Up with you kenjirou

I love you eita I would never do that to you.so I promise I'll try and get better I don't want us to end

Ok I love you shirabu

I love you more semi

That's impossible . No because I love you more than the universe

Well I love you more than existence .i love you tho

Same here let's go to bed.ok..........

No not the last chapter sorry haven't updated lately 😔✌️ also sorry for the sad chapter