~~~ EXO - WHAT IF ~~~

She was on the emotional rollercoaster for two days in a row.

Too much happened and it took ages for it to sink in, so  that she could deal with it in her own way. She didn't know what to do. It was next day after her discovery about her dad, being the worst father as always. She was aware of it before, but she found out she is still that naïve girl she used to be before she finally found out who her dad is.

She let out sad laughter. She was in her room, which she didn't leave since Baekhyun left, after standing in front of the front door for almost hour yesterday. She hardly had any sleep, kept replaying the moments in her life, which left her broken, creating one scar after another. Funny thing was, thatmost of them, she gained thanks to her father.

She sometime wished, she could lose memories of him, all of them brings her only pain anyway, or at least go back to the time, when she decided to know truth about him. But that would make her weak. She could at least thank him, that his cold behaviour towards her, and how badly he treated her, made her somehow stronger.

She finally knew why exactly Baekhyun choose her to be the main character in his charade. He pitied her. How could he not, when he knew the whole truth. She shouldn't have send those stupid letters. She stopped sending them more than two years ago, but it didn't hold her from being entangled with this world, which was exactly why she eventually quit and to stop the feeling of grief taking over her mind, every time she didn't get the response.

She didn't want to hope for the reply from him, but it looked like in the end it was exactly what she desired. How pathetic. Now she knows exactly what he thought of her and her attempts to get his attention. It all ended up in the bin, literally.
She didn't cry, even though she wanted to. She was hurt, exactly like Baekhyun predicted.

She felt too embarrassed after she realized Bakehyun read all of it, all her deepest thoughts, finding out how stupid she is. She buried her head into the pillow under her head, muffling the moans of desperation.

She felt defeated and she didn't like it. She thought of running away, but Baekhyun's words hunted her. She couldn't do that, it would mean, she failed in gaining what she wanted in a first place when she came here. She slowly let the idea of getting closer to her father slip through her fingers. Though she is not going to let him, control her life, like he apparently is used to do it with all the people under his watch.

And all this thinking brought her to another big decision of her life. Another one, which contained Baekhyun somewhere in it.
After she thought about all her possibilities, she was now sitting in one of the dressing room in SM building, getting her make up done.

"Would you like your hair down? Or should we tie them up?" the hairdresser asked her, while she was blankly staring at her reflection.

"Do what you think is best," she murmured, letting the stylist to do whatever they want with her. She was nervous wreck. Even though she came here willingly, she felt like she is about to marry against her will, like she always reads in the books or sees in the movies. She was clutching her hands, being perfectly aware of the fact she is sweating all over her body, which probably the make up artist didn't  appreciated, when fixing her face up.

When all this was done, she went to change her casual clothes, to khaki leather skirt and white loose crop top. When she observed herself in the mirror, when she was ready to go and pursue her dream, she couldn't recognize her own face.
This was the closest to a style of the idol, she got so far. She liked what she saw. Her hair falling over her shoulders in brown shiny soft waves, not so evident natural make up and pink lips.

She was ready to show her father, she is not the young girl she used to be, when she first met him.

She was trying to prepare herself for Baekhyun's triumphant smirk, which she knew he will have over his face, as soon as he will spot her, but when she came out of the dressing room and was led by a staff to a conference hall, she had hard time to contain her hearts speed, because it was getting faster and faster every passing step she made.

"Is Bakehyun already here?" she asked one of the persons, who were surrounding her.

"He arrived before you, miss,"

This little statement put her in the reality, which was happening right now. She is really going to do it? After all that time, refusing Baekhyun's rules of play? If you want any chance to stay, you don't have any other choice! She reminded herself, as they walked in to the backstage.

She could hear the swarm of the reporters outside in the hall, getting ready to write articles, which will confirm or deny the fact Baekhyun is in relationship with SM trainee of unknown name.

As soon as she stepped inside the room of backstage, her eyes landed on him. It didn't take even one second, until she found his tall slender figure, standing in the farther corner of the room, facing her with his back. She was happy for few seconds she was given time to regain her sanity, when he hadn't had idea about her arrival yet. She took a deep breath, stopping in her pace at once and gawked at him, looking ever so dashing in the dark green suite, tightly hugging his body frame, like it was made just for him.

She didn't even realize, that she is still gaping at him, like she sees him for the first time. And she didn't have chance to see his front yet. What a hell is wrong with you Dee?

The fact their clothes are somehow matching, was just a detail, she couldn't get excited over, because he just turned around, when someone from her escort informed him that his fake girlfriend has just entered the room.

His eyebrows shot up, when his eyes found her standing by the door. His mouth opened in disbelief, while his sight wondered over her body, making her feel exposed. Now that she could see his face, she wished for him to never look at her. The view of him was too disturbing, to stop her stupid heart from jumping in her rib cage like it's high or something.

She gulped, when he was finally done with his inspection and returned with his eyes, to meet hers again. The dark chocolate of his irises melted her insides and turned her legs into the jelly, making her unable to move, or think whatsoever. Did he always make her this stunned?

Get you act together, for heaven's sake! She yelled at herself in her mind.

Baekhyun started to move, when she grew still, while he crossed the distance between them, his hands tucked in the pockets of his pants. His lips spread into the smile. It wasn't smirks, she's expected to see. It was genuine smile, which made her feel weak in knees.

She remembered everything what caused her to be here right now and felt her cheeks turning rich shade of pink.

"You came," he breathed out, like he couldn't believe that he sees her before him. He reached one of the arms, wanting to touch her, but he refrained from doing so at last. Seeing him hesitate was always so unusual for her. In cases like this, she didn't know what to do and knowing what is coming next, didn't help her overwhelmed mind either.

"I did," she replied, causing his smile to change into a grin, while his eyes sparked.

"You have no idea how happy you made me," he told her honestly. Even though his words didn't have a special meaning, she couldn't help and feel pleased by it anyway. That meant the only thing, she was walking on very thin ice, but there was no turning back anymore. Once she made a decision, she can never back down.

"That stupid smile on your face, speaks thousand words, don't worry," she couldn't help and be sarcastic as always. He chuckled.

"You even transformed yourself into a proper girl idol," he pointed out. Even he noticed the difference between her normal self and this one. She shrugged her shoulders nervously.

"You look tense," he added, seeing how she fidgets, under his glance. She gave him dry look.

"Do you really wonder why, right now?" she sputtered glumly. She didn't know what to do, when he looked at her the way he did right now. His cheeks went up, with the wide smile, he managed to conjure up on his face. His delighted expression was telling her openly how happy, like he said, he is to see her by his side.

"We are in it together now. I'm not letting you go again," he told her suddenly.  He took her hand now, without second thoughts, intertwining his fingers with hers. She almost lurched thanks to abrupt touch. "I will protect you from now on," he pulled her closer to him and she wished he would stop with those statements, making her heart pound for no particular reason.

"We need to set some boundaries, mate," she spoke to him in English, when their proximity became too intimate. He didn't care that there is tons of people peeking at them, while doing their work.

"We can discuss this matter, after the show, we have to put on now," he winked at her, then started to make his way to the side of the stage, with her following close behind, thanks to his tight hold on her. He stopped behind the curtain, where the sound staff installed microphones on their clothes.

"Don't be nervous, I will do all the talking and you just need to look lovingly at me," Baekhyun instructed her.

"I don't think I can do that," she hissed at him, making him laugh quietly.

"I bet you can. Just look at me the way you did when you first saw me today," and here comes same cocky Baekhyun she knows so well. She felt the urge to kick his clavicle like she did during their first encounter. How far in a past does it felt at this moment? And who would know she would end up standing here, prepared to pretend she his romantically involved with Byun Baekhyun.

"One minute," the organiser reminded them. Baekhyun turned into the professional, adjusting the wire of his mike; she could just stand there with frozen expression in her face. Baekhyun took her hand again, feeling his thump drawing the circles into her skin.

What was happening afterwards was like a dream. The moment they set their feet on the low stage of the conference hall, in front of all the people, everything became blurry. In the end she was glad, Baekhyun never let go of her hand, because the second he would, she would be out of here.

It took ages, until the clicking of the cameras and overall noise died down and she and he finally sat down behind the table, with dozens of curious eyes glued on them.

"Relax," she heard Baekhyun's whisper, instantly making her feel more at ease.

"Annyeonghaseyo, I'm EXO's Baekhyun," he introduced himself, like he always does, bowing his head in polite way. She heard her heart beating in her ears. She turned her gaze away from the crowd in front of her, looking up to a man beside her, who returned  her gaze. His eyes softened when they met hers.

"This is Kim Dee, trainee of SMent," he took up the opportunity to reveal her name. She had to peel her eyes off Baekhyun and bow her hear tot the people who came here to see them.

"Annyeonghaseyo, please take care of me," she managed to form a sentence. She saw people already getting ready to shout obvious questions, but the organizers held them, so Baekhyun could continue.

"As you are probably wondering already, the person next to me, is indeed my girlfriend. We convened this meeting, to make it official. Please write good articles," Baekhyun told everyone and the whole room went completely motionless for split of second, until they all burst into the swarm of excitement.  She heard them screaming question. Where did they meet, and when did they became a couple, how did it happen and more. It was difficult to understand and she didn't even realized that she slowly leaned closer to a Baekhyun, who never stopped squeezing her hand.

Baekhyun started to answer one question after the another, usually saying the complete truth, about how they met, he didn't even forget to mention, that it was him, who kept following her around, making the reporters melt over his confession. While Baekhyun did all this, she was trying to smile and listen to what he says, to react adequately to the situation.

Then she finally spotted him, standing with other man in the suits, in the back of the room, his arms folded on his chest, glaring sternly at their happy couple. She automatically returned Baekhyun's hand squeeze, gaining his attention by it. He glanced at her, seeing her gazing stiffly in front of her. He followed the direction she was looking, spotting him there.

"Alright, it will be all for today, they have schedule to follow, last few pictures can be taken now," one of the organizers announced and she was happy it is almost done. Baekhyun stood up and she followed his lead, when they went to stood next to the table.

"Let's show them some affection," he mumbled, while looking at her. She lifted her eyebrows. What did he just say? Before she could think about it, he already started acting, standing near to her. She turned her head to face the crowd, but he didn't get taken back by it and leaned towards her that she could sense his body heat. He gave her simple, innocent peck on the temple. Blush rushed into her cheeks, causing her lower her eyes, probably making her look like little pathetic girl. But she escaped being blinded by flashes like before, when he kissed her forehead and the throng went mental.

When they eventually left the stage, she felt like her legs are not even hers, while she was being dragged by Baekhyun. People were telling them all sort of stuff like, good job and all, but her mind was empty, for her to create some kind response to it. They went out of the backstage room, into the hallway, walking next to each other.

"Let's get changed and then go," Baekhyun suggested, when he stopped before her dressing room. She gave him blank glance.

"To where?" she let out.

"We are officially couple now, it's only natural, that we leave together, there will be many people outside," he explained and she just nodded. "You've done a good job," he praised her, studying her face.

"You did all the talking, I just stand there," she responded with expressionless voice.

"Snap out of it, Dee. It's done, now you need to own it," his tone suddenly changed from gentle one to insistent.

"You forgot, that I'm not here the one familiar with acting, like you obviously are," she frowned at him. She can't just switch from normal Dee to a glamourous Baekhyun's girlfriend.

"I know, then just follow my lead, now get changed to something more comfortable," he urged her. She wanted to turned around and do as he said, when his hand still holding hers halted her. She glanced at him with puzzled expression.

"When you are done... let's go for a date," he blurted out. She widened her eyes on him. Was it her wild imagination or Baekhyun looks shy right now? It took him some time, until he was able to meet her gaze and when he did, she already felt her heart softening over the sudden sight of him being like this.

"Okay," she heard herself agreeing without a second of indecision, gaining dazzling smile from him.

That was the moment she knew for sure, she is in big ass trouble.

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- heya my lovely cinnamon rolls (don't ask me how did I come up with this hah) 🍩

I completely forgot to tell you, that we are past the half now... I once wrote the whole book (in Czech) in one month, posting almost every day a new chapter, I don't think I will ever break that record... But I didn't know I will really be able to write and post as I promised even in English 🙌

Wohooo

Anyways, how did you like this... Its a bit filler, I'd say, but few imprortant statements were made there😊

And in my opinion where there is Baek mentioned, being his usual self (in this story ofc) is never waste of chapter 😂💞

I'm hoping you liked the chap from Baek's POV ... cuz there is another one coming soon, but you might want to prepare some tissues just in case ☺️ eh... just friendly warning😭

So how about the date, where do you think our shy player will take her to? 💘 hah

Okay let's stop here for today!

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