Someone's Someone

Days passed so fast at hindi ko na namalayan na we’re already working here in BelleRose Resorts and Hotel for three months and last month ko pa napapansin na may mali dito kay Eloah e

She gets easily irritated and she’s starting to crave for some foods. I don’t want to assume that she’s probably pregnant but I think she’s really is. Now we’re on our way home when I remember to ask her about Enzo.

“Sis, kayo pa naman ni Enzo diba?”

“Why?” she asked me back na parang nagulat pa siya sa tinanong ko

“You seem so problematic these past few days Eloah. Are you really okay?” tumigil siya sa paglalakad at humarap sa akin

“Just don’t mind me Klerah” she said to me at iniwas ang tingin sa akin but I caught the pain in her eyes

“You can’t hide the pain everytime Eloah. We’re friends right? When you think that it’s too much for you to handle, learn to tell us about it”

“it’s….. nothing, Klerah. Tara na” We continued walking dahil mas gusto naming nilalakad from hotel to our subdivision kahit na it’s twenty minutes’ walk

What the heck happened to them?

I badly wanted to ask her if she’s pregnant pero baka magalit lang siya

When we got home Averill and Ailey are at home as well because it’s their day off bukas pa ang sa amin ni Eloah.

“May ulam na? Anong ulam?” I asked as soon as I enter the door

“Gutom na gutom Klerah?” nakita ko naman na lumabas si Ailey sa kitchen na may hawak pang sandok

“Nag caldereta kami, your favorite”

“Mukha kang nanay hahah” sabi ko kay Averill at tumakbo pa pasok ng kwarto dahil inambaan niya ako ng hampas gamit yung sandok. Ano ba yan parehas pa sila ni Ailey na may sandok

I washed up at nag bihis na nang pang tulog kahit ala-sais pa lang naman. I get my phone at pumunta na sa kusina. Tinawanan ko na lang si Averill nang batukan niya ako pagka kita sa akin. Azar

“Sarap ah” tukoy ko sa luto nila siniko siko ko pa sa Averill

“Masarap din yung nagluto”

“Ewww! Nawalan na ako ng gana, nagdilim pa paningin ko bigla!”

“Ang sama mo Klerah kanina ka pa ah!” singit naman ni Ailey

“Bukas ikaw magluluto, lagot ka sakin”

“tologo? Scary naman”

Pagkatapos naman naming kumain nagsi akyatan na sila sa mga kwarto nila at ako, nandito pa sa kusina dahil ako ang naka toka sa mga hugasin.  I get my phone to play some music on my playlist ‘cause its concert time beybe!

I wasn't raised in a castle
I grew up on the outskirts of town
No dresses with golden tassels
The rings on my hand are handed down

But I'm gonna find the one that needs me,
sees me
And treats me like I'm already royalty
There ain't nothing priceless on my wrist
I might not fly private, but that don't mean I ain't a queen

Queens don't hate, queens don't fight
Queens don't stay unless their king treats her right, oh
Every jewel on my crown, you better believe I earned it
Won't keep people around that don't believe I deserve it

No, queens ain't fake
A queen's gonna rule just the way she was made, oh
I ain't 'bout to let nobody come and take me
off this throne
Some girls might, but queens don't

No, I don't need the tallest tower
To prove to anyone I ain't weak
I turn my pain into power
Every tear's a diamond on my cheek

Queens don't hate, queens don't fight
Queens don't stay unless their king treats
her right, oh
Every jewel on my crown, you better believe
I earned it
Won't keep people around that don't believe
I deserve it

No, queens ain't fake
A queen's gonna rule just the way she
was made, oh
I ain't 'bout to let nobody come and take me
off this throne
Some girls might, but queens don't

Queens don't break, they just get stronger
There ain't nothing they can't conquer

Queens don't hate, queens don't fight
Queens don't stay unless their king treats
her right, oh
Every jewel on my crown, you better believe
I earned it
Won't keep people around that don't believe
I deserve it

No, queens ain't fake
A queen's gonna rule just the way she was made, oh
I ain't 'bout to let nobody come and take me off this throne
Some girls might, but queens don't

Hindi man lang ako naka dalawang kanta talagang isa lang! trip na trip ko pa naman mag concert

“Ay palakang martyr!” I screamed when I turn around habang nag pupunas pa ako ng kamay dahil pinapanood pala ako ni Eloah habang may iniinom sa tasa at naka upo sa lamesa

Why is she smiling like that? It creeps me out to the highest level

Hindi ko man lang naramdaman na pumasok pala siya dito sa kitchen masyado ko yatang dinama yung pagkanta ko kanina

Queens don't hate, queens don't fight
Queens don't stay unless their king treats
her right, oh

Oh diba damang dama!

“Sis sayo yung ice cream na rocky road diba? Akin na lang pleaseee”

“Diba you don’t like rocky road? Anyare?”

“I don’t know crave na crave talaga ako e”

“Wow teh ah halos araw araw kang crave na crave? Actually nung mga nakaraang buwan pa. akala mo di ko napapansin yung mga bawas sa ice cream ko?”

Nakita ko namang napasimangot siya at mukhang nag tatampo. Luh?! Bakit parang kasalanan ko?

“Iyo na nga. Palitan mo bukas ah”

“Yey! Thanks K!”

Kumuha naman ako ng kutsara at isang Tupperware ng grahams sabay akyat sa terasa namin. I played my playlist again as I sit on the couch. Gustong gusto ko talagang tumatambay dito dahil kitang kita ko yung buwan at mga bituin.

I always dreamed of becoming an astronaut maybe because it makes me curious how it feels like to be somewhere you know that’s impossible for you to reach.

I suddenly remembered the dream I had months ago though I kind of forgetting some parts but the part of me saying ‘There are still things around it that makes it beautiful; those stars and moon helps to give color to the dark sky and make it more appreciated’ stays on my mind

I shifted the weight of my neck to the left as I think of the man in my dreams. That’s the first and last day I dreamed about him at bakit parang gusto ko pa? I want more! More!

Is there really a chance for me to be in love?

To be in a relationship?

Duh! I don’t need one

Or maybe that’s a lie

Maybe I do really need and want it

‘Cause if I don’t really need one, why am I feeling like there’s something missing?

But is there someone for me?

Maybe this is crazy
Crazy just to wonder
Wonder if there's someone meant for you

I look at my phone as soon as I heard the lyrics
Kausap mo ‘ko sis?

Sunshine when it's raining
Raining over lovers
Lovers in the shade of color blue

Is there someone to give it all?

We all wanna be someone's
Wanna be someone's someone
With somebody we can't live without

My mouth parted the moment I heard it’s lyrics
It’s not my first time hearing this song but hearing this right now at this very moment made me realized that maybe I do really keep on lying to myself

Maybe I really wanted to feel that
That I am someone’s someone

We all wanna be someone's
Wanna be someone's someone
With someone we can't live without

So completely perfect
Perfect with no reasons
Reasons are for people you meant to lose

Someone full of secrets
Secrets in the shadows
Shadows with excuses breaking through

But is there someone to give it all?

We all wanna be someone's
Wanna be someone's someone
With somebody we can't live without

We all wanna be someone's
Wanna be someone's someone
With someone we can't live without

Someone we can't live without
(Somebody we can't live without)
Someone we can't live without

Wanna be someone’s someone…..

How does it felt like to be someone’s someone?

To be the treasured somebody….

Maybe I’m just making myself believed that I’m already contented with what I have now
With the love and care my families and friends have for me

With the love and care I have for myself

I blinded myself because of being scared to be scarred

But how will I learn? How will I know? When I fixed my mind to believed that I can be completely fine even without it

Now, I realized that I’m really longing for something I can call home

I sighed heavily first before going back to the kitchen

I stilled when I heard someone vomiting, so I check the common restroom and there, I saw Eloah sitting on the floor and facing the bowl; struggling.

I helped her stand and gave her a towel
She walked to the sink para mag hilamos

“You’re pregnant”

“No, I’m not” I rolled my eyes at her

“It’s not a question Eloah. I am informing you” Napatigil naman siya sa pag pupunas ng mukha dahil sa sinabi ko

“I am not! Wag mo na ngang ipilit”

“Are you aware that you’re carrying a child?” tuluyan naman na kumunot ang noo niya

“Klerah I told you that I am not!”

“Does he know?”

“Who?”

“Wow teh maang maangan tayo? I am talking about Enzo. Your Boyfriend” pinagdiinan ko pa yung ‘your boyfriend’ sa kanya

“Bakit naman siya napasok dito? Hindi nga ako buntis Klerah”

“Why do you keep on lying when it’s super obvious that you are?” ibinuka niya ang bibig niya para magsalita pero sinara ulit at yumuko na lang

“Where is he? Di ka kayang panindigan?” nagulat pa ako ng bahagya ng marinig kong mag salita si Averill sa likod ko. Nakatayo na pala sila ni Ailey at nakacrossed arms habang nakasandal sa hamba ng pintuan

“What are you talking about?” sumandal siya sa sink at tamad kaming tinignan

I rolled my eyes to her dahil naiinis na ako sa kakatanggi niya. I go to the cabinet here inside the restroom at kinuha ang PT

“You use this para malaman natin” inabot ko sakanya ang tatlong PT

“I won’t use that Klerah” sabi niya at tinampal ng bahagya ang kamay ko

“Afraid to find out that you’re really pregnant?” sabi ni Ailey na nakataas pa ang isang kilay

I saw Eloah staring at the PT on my hands and then she suddenly grabs it at pumasok sa cubicle

“Why do you have a pregnancy test kit Klerah?” Averill asked me as we are waiting for Eloah.

“Bruh! May pinsan ako na nag regalo nung graduation ko ng Pregnancy Tesk Kits pati condoms ugh! May naka note pa na use wisely. Nanggigigil ako pag naaalala ko”

“Maglagay ka sa wallet mo ng condom diba pampa swerte daw ‘yon?” suggestion naman ni Ailey kaya pinanliitan ko siya ng mata

“Try mo mag isa mo sis”

Nagtatawanan pa kami nang lumabas si Eloah na umiiyak. Tinignan namin yung tatlong PT at lahat puro positive ang result

“I’m not yet ready for this”

“Then why did you do it unprotected in the very first place?” Ailey is fuming mad because we knew that Enzo won’t accept it

“I told you so many times right? That he’s no good for you”

“I-I’m sorry. I s-should have listened. I just…. l-loved him so much and I thought that he changed already…. but I was wrong” pabulong niyang sabi sa huling mga salita. She covered her face with her hands and started to cry more

“We can’t do anything about it now, andyan na yan. But, what’s your plan now? How about your family?” nilapitan siya ni Ailey at sinubukan pakalmahin

“I don’t know. I don’t want my family to know this. They’ll hate me and they might hurt me. Ayokong mapahamak yung….. yung b-baby”

“Are you going to tell Enzo about it?” panandaliang tumalim ang mata niya na nakatingin sa kawalan

“I’ll try to call him, I guess. If he doesn’t want this then It’s fine. I’ll raise this child alone”

“We’ll visit an OB-GYNE tomorrow, day off naman natin”

Kumuha muna ako ng tubig sa kitchen at iniabot sakanya then we continue walking heading to our rooms

I’m actually furious right now pero I’ll save it na lang muna hanggang sa mag krus ang landas namin. That fucker! Mabaog sana siya leche!

“Seriously Eloah next time you have a problem talk to us. Take extra care to yourself now, okay? We’ll help you get through with this” Averill’s really controlling herself right now, she’s aware that we cannot stress her out

“Gago kasi si Enzo! Padilig lang ng padilig tapos pag nag bunga iiwan lang tapos dilig ulit sa iba?” I can’t help but to rant. The fact na boyfriend pa siya ni Eloah.

“Tsk! He got no balls, that fucker! Tinatawag ko talaga lahat ng engkanto ngayon para maging baog lang yung Enzo na ‘yon” I can’t help but to laugh with what Ailey said

“Hay nako Ailey. But Eloah If your family can’t support you, we are here. Love and value yourself more this time. It’s fine. Everything will be fine and that baby is a blessing. We still accept you sis, nothing will change except the fact that you’ll be a mom soon!”

“Thank you for everything!” she said as we hugged each other before we separate and head to our rooms

I laid myself to my bed after brushing my teeth. I can’t help but to think why there are men’s out there like Enzo, still existing?

What the heck kasi e! If you don’t want to have a responsibility, you should be more extra careful.

I got even more scared because of what happened to Eloah but I guess that’s really what they call ‘love’

You’ll be blinded by the love you have for another person to the point that you’re giving away the love that supposed to be for yourself without noticing it

Magugulat ka na lang na ubos ka na pala