These photos at the beginning of each chapter are hints to the chapter. Enjoy!
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Taehyung nudged Jimin to follow him after they ended their comeback v live and Jimin was surprised to see Taehyung with a frown etched on his features. He followed Taehyung quietly as he was afraid to be a trigger to unleash the slow anger bubbling inside of him.

"We should tell Jeongguk," Taehyung concluded and Jimin looked up to him immediately not liking the conversation. "He can deal with her and everything would be better."

"That incident happened two weeks ago, what will Jeongguk do now?" Jimin questioned as he found no need to open up something so old. After hearing the muffled sobs as he passed by his room, there was no way Jimin could build up the courage to demand something like this. "Besides we have to focus on this comeback."

"He will talk to Youra of course," Taehyung said as he rolled his eyes, failing to understand how Jimin couldn't see that there were people's lives at stake. He shook his head as he replayed the memory of her deep brown orbs widened in fear. He brings his head up and speaks in a low voice:

"What if she tries something again?"

"She won't, " Jimin reassured and he really felt for his dear friend, but Taehyung wasn't having it. He knew that as long as those girls were in the building, Youra would threaten them again.

"I'm telling Jeongguk," Taehyung said and before Jimin could tell him anything, they were joined by the maknae.

"Tell me what?" Jeonguk asked as he looked at both of them with a smile. "Why does it look like you guys are arguing?"

Jimin kept signaling Taehyung to not say anything, but Taehyung ignored as he spoke:

"Youra sent a couple of boys to Eira and Cecilia as a way to 'test' them."

Jeongguk's mind went black as he looked between his hyungs trying to understand the situation.

"She did what?" Jeongguk questioned once more as he couldn't believe what he had heard. He could imagine how terrified both girls would have been. "Why would she do that?"

Jimin sighed.

"I told you not to worry him," Jimin muttered as he elbowed Taehyung.

"Ouch!" Taehyung yelped as he glared at Jimin.

"Guys," Jeongguk stated as he didn't want them getting sidetracked with their petty arguments. "I want answers."

"We don't know," Jimin shrugged.

"When did this happen?" Jeongguk asked slowly.

"Two weeks ago," Taehyung told him honestly and he watched as Jeongguk's smile dropped and was replaced by pure anger shining in his dark orbs which grew darker.

"Why didn't you tell me?!" Jeongguk questioned losing his temper. "This is not normal."

"We didn't want to stress you out especially with everything going on," Jimin told him with a sad smile.

"What's going on with me?" Jeongguk asked confused as he stared at his hyungs.

"Don't tell us you aren't stressed because we have seen how down you have been looking since yesterday," Jimin pointed out quietening down the younger as Jeongguk rubbed his forehead.

"It's nothing," Jeongguk replied already knowing where Jimin was about to take this argument.

"Nothing?" Jimin asked frustrated. He couldn't believe the audacity the younger had to even say that. Jeongguk should come clean with his feelings and emotions instead of lying over and over again."Why do you keep pushing away your feelings? I don't even know if you are okay. Have you been taking care of yourself lately?"

"I do take care of myself," Jeongguk argued as he patted his foot.

"Really?" Jimin questioned as he let out a dry chuckle. "Why were you crying last night? Don't play dumb with me. You are not okay."

Taehyung stared at Jimin in shock.

"He did what?" Taehyung questioned unable to believe that he was left out again. Jeongguk used to talk to him before but now it felt like he was slowly losing him. "How do I not know this?"

"It's just," Jeongguk tried to defend himself but there was nothing to say as he looked at the two boys guiltily. "I'm sorry."

Taehyung and Jimin just hugged the younger and this was the final straw as tears fell from Jeongguk's eyes. Everything was slowly building up and it was taking a toll on him.

Jimin wiped Jeongguk's eyes as he ruffled his hair lovingly while Taehyung held onto him from the back.

"Please talk to us," Jimin requested softly.

"I can't do this comeback," Jeongguk said as he watched the boys stare at each other and Jeongguk held his breath waiting for them to talk. He wanted to do it but it felt wrong all of a sudden.

"Why?" Taehyung finally asked.

"I think it's for the best that I figure it out," Jeongguk told them as he was scared of messing up and ruining everything they had worked for. He knew how tough it was to prepare and if little arguments were draining him then how would he do well in the comeback?

"It's those comments huh?" Jimin stated getting scared as bad memories flashed his mind. The image of a scared boy staring at him in fear as he looked at his own blood pouring. His black hair that had grown looked jagged as Jimin noticed some strands scattered on the floor and silver scissors laying beside the sink. The only thing Jimin did was allow a lonely tear to escape as he rushed towards the younger and helped him. This memory still haunted him as he had never would have expected Jeongguk from all people, the boy who smiled brightly and covered his ears while getting excited to drag a dagger along his skin.

"You read them again and you only did that when you were cutting yourself. Your hands kook. Show them to me."

"I didn't cut myself after that," Jeongguk told him softly even though he wasn't going to lie he wanted to revert back to the little habit. He took a sharp breath and showed them proof. "See no fresh cuts."

"Real ARMYs would never hurt you Jk," Taehyung comforted, hoping that if the real Jeongguk was anywhere then maybe these words would click. "I promise you that they love you just as much as we do and whatever dumb things going in your mind need to stop. I don't know what side of the internet you are, but take a look at this."

Taehyung opened twitter and handed his phone.

I miss Jungkook

When will they go live together?

Jungkook being cute, a thread

Jungkook having the best vocals, a thread

Missing Jungkook hours are open

don't open this thread if you miss Jungkook

Jeongguk smiled as he read through some of them.

"See kook, they love you and miss you so much," Taehyung told him carefully as he saw the younger as a fragile piece of glass that one word would break him. This didn't mean Taehyung saw him as a weak person, but whatever had caused this in him was making him this way and all of them had to talk to him.

"If you still want to skip though," Jimin suggested thinking that maybe it was too much for him. "Then, we will inform the rest."

"I won't," Jeongguk reassured them as he regained some energy from all that sweetness ARMYs had left them. "I'll talk to Youra too."

"You don't-" Jimin said, but Jeongguk interrupted him.

"It's important," Jeongguk said as he walked away, his mind spinning.

I love you hyungs but I can't burden you, he thought.

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Eira had been pacing after they had finished dance practice with Black Rose and Cecilia had been watching her friend silently as she gathered her things. It was sad that even after more than a month, no one bothered to interact with them and Cecilia wondered when she would stop bothering them. They were only idols for dorm rooms and maybe it was time she figured a way out of this.

It looked like Mina had been staring at her for a while as she opened and closed her mouth, but decided at the end to turn around.

"Do you want ask me something?" Cecilia gathered her courage to ask and Mina froze but continued to walk away when the other girls stared.

They even spoke to Eira sometimes, but whenever Cecilia tried to talk to them, they ignored her and pretended she wasn't there. It kind of stung even when she tried to pretend it was okay.

"Let's go," Cecilia told Eira with a sigh.

"We are going to be makeup artists for BTS," Eira blurted out which caused Cecilia to burst out laughing, and when Eira looked at her dead serious, she laughed some more and fell to the ground still laughing.

"Good joke," Cecilia said as she wiped out the tears that escaped her eyes while she was laughing.

"I'm serious," Eira told her rolling her eyes at her friend's behavior, but could she blame her? Even she would have behaved the same way if their manager didn't tell her personally with a whole schedule. "We are doing their makeup for the comeback."

"Now, if you excuse me, I will go faint," Cecilia told her when she realized it was real and not some practical joke. "What about Youth?"

"They were practice and we are still doing their debut stage which got pushed because of Jeongguk's wedding," Eira explained and her voice lowered down at Jeongguk's wedding.

"I will be fine," Cecilia assured Eira and herself as she was working on the whole 'Jungkook has a fiance which means your dumb feelings don't matter anymore'. "I knew he was getting married and I'm coming to terms with it more. I think I'm slowly moving on."

"Really?" Eira asked happily as she felt proud.

"It's a progress, but yeah," Cecilia told her and felt bad because Eira looked proud and maybe this could be her motivation to cut him out.

"Why do I feel like you are lying," Eira said as she narrowed her eyes at Cecilia causing her to gulp. "Talk about him."

"Now?" Cecilia questioned taken back slightly and felt her mind leading her far from what she should say.

Her mind starts working on her own as one thought after another fills her mind.

Beautiful

Angelic

Doe - brown eyes widening

His eyes holding galaxies

His body moving sensually to a song while he stares right into my soul.

His eyes crinkling when he smiles.

His cute whines when he wants something.

when he covers his ears when he is excited

The way he looks at every ARMY with love.

The way he is not afraid to be emotional.

when he wants to be good at everything and hates losing

his sweet, angelic, heaven like vocals driving my emotions

Eira saw the lost expression in her eyes and if hearts could form in real life like the one Isabella had in Phineas and Ferb then that would be perfect. Nevertheless, she pushed her to talk.

"Yes now," Eira said as she shook her head. "I definitely don't want them after I die."

She knew her best friend and even though most of their friendship was online in the time they had spent, Eira had picked up a few of her habits when she spoke of her bias and until now, nothing had changed.

"What should I say?" Cecilia asked, closing the dumb thoughts rushing in her mind.

"Talk about how you felt on that little hangout where you ran away from me and ate the best food ever," Eira said saltily causing Cecilia to giggle.

"What's up with all the shade?" Cecilia asked as she laughed at the way her friend kept making constant remarks.

"Speak," Eira commended and Cecilia stoped laughing and glared. After the intense interaction, Cecilia decided to speak.

"I was happy," Cecilia said as she reminisced on their little unplanned outing, but then her expression dropped. She couldn't relive the little image forming in her head when Jeongguk started ruining video she was creating which was the birth of  a video so perfect that she didn't touch it in fear of loving it, but it seemed like staying away didn't matter when the whole universe including herself was against her. "I'm sorry I can't do this."

Eira sighed as she decided to do the one thing that Cecilia would love to hear and she had been not telling her despite her constant pleas.

"Let's go best friend," Eira said as she draped her hands over her shoulder. "Let me tell you what happened when you locked Taehyung and me."

Cecilia smiled brightly as they left.

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Jeongguk bit his lip as he paced around in his room as his phone lay on the bed. He glanced at his phone and let out a sigh of frustration.

"Just talk to you fiancee!" he yelled at himself.

"Ugggghhh," he said as he fell on his bed. "What am I doing?"

Torturing yourself, what's new, his inner voice spoke.

Shut up, he replied.

You love her so what's the problem? his inner voice taunted.

It's not that, it's her sister. She will get upset, he defended himself.

What about when you get upset? It's all love and kisses. Maybe you should try that, his inner voice said and he swore he heard it laugh at his misery.

No, we talk, he argued.

Talk? You tell her nothing and all she does is talk about herself while you listen, his inner voice spoke hitting a nerve

I make her talk, okay? It's me, he stated annoyed.

It's me, his inner voice mocked.

Wake up and realize how stupid you sound arguing with yourself about something so simple.

Jeongguk grabbed his phone and dialed the number.

"I'll show you that I can do it," Jeongguk mumbled but as soon as he heard a voice at the other end, his heart sank.

"Hey fiancé ," Yun Hee said and giggled after that. "I love saying that."

"Hi," Jeongguk replied and he felt bad that he was going to ruin her mood. Maybe it was best if he kept quiet and talked some other day.

We all know you won't do it later, his inner voice came back and he sighed way too loud on the phone.

"Kookie, did something happen?" Yun Hee asked worriedly.

"No, actually yes it's about your sister," Jeongguk started already scared of how she will react. He was going to go to Youra but decided to tell Yun Hee since this involved her sister and she deserved to know. "Your sister sent a couple of boys to Cecilia and Eira to 'test' them out. I think that has gone too far. We don't want problematic idols to ruin our reputation, so please talk to your sister before anyone takes action on her."

Silence. The other end was so quiet that Jeongguk shuffled his feet as he continued to listen to the little breathing in his phone, telling him the call was still going. Then, he heard laughter and felt uncomfortable not knowing how to approach her.

"You are joking right?" Yun Hee asked unable to believe what she was hearing. "You want me to believe my sister would do that? I know you don't like her much but isn't this taking it too far? Who told you this anyway? Eira? oh, Cecilia? I'm sure it's her that's why you called."

Jeongguk silently waited for her to finish and he couldn't believe Yun Hee brought Cecilia into this conversation for no reason. He didn't even talk much about her because he knew his fiancée wouldn't like that and he wouldn't like if she babbled about some boy, but he also made sure because Yun Hee always acted extremely towards her which confused him since Yun Hee knew the rest of his group, and she had spoken to them multiple times and would even fangirl over them and he got jealous but he knew it wasn't deep and trusted them.

"Jimin and V hyung told me," Jeongguk told her ignoring everything about Cecilia since he didn't want more problems.

"I'll ask Yun Hee but I'm pretty sure they are mistaken," Yun Hee said.

Jeongguk felt his blood boil because he knew his hyungs would never lie.

"I'm pretty sure my hyungs didn't lie," Jeongguk snapped then realized what he did. "Uggh, I'm sorry."

"It's whatever," Yun Hee said shrugging it off as she was still pissed.

"Are you coming to our comeback stage performance?" Jeongguk asked changing the topic. He really hoped to see Yun Hee in the crowd while he performed.

"I'll try," Yun Hee told him as she thought about her schedule. "I have this event that should end early so yeah I think I can."

"I'll be waiting," Jeongguk told her as he felt excited and decided to do extra extra well just for her.

Yun Hee laughed.

"See you," Yun Hee said and Jeongguk replied before closing his phone with a smile.

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Let's just say I can't keep promises. I actually wrote this on time, but then hated it and staring at it made it worse and worse. I gathered some courage and here it is.

These chapters are getting emotionally draining and I'm scared I won't be able to convey the mess of emotions that's happening.

Will Yun Hee come?

Will Cecilia actually start getting over Jeongguk?

Will Jeongguk finally talk to his hyungs?

Will he figure out his feelings?

What will happen next?

The corona seems to be getting worse so I hope you are all taking care of yourselves. Let me know how are you all coping. Personally, I feel this is my normal life except the fact that my mom will drive me crazy because she thinks I'm not studying enough. I swear I'm trying but mothers will be mothers I guess.

See you all soon. Bye!!!

Take care and stay safe,

Anera