Well... Ik I'm not eligible for forgiveness but I'm so sorry for leaving y'all hanging for 4 years. A lot happened in my life, and I'll tell you all about it in the A/N at the end. Happy reading!

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"I don't want to be with anyone else, Louis. Just you. Is that love?" Harry asked totally confused.

Louis stared at Harry speechless because one, this may mean Harry loves him but is it because he has nobody else in his life that he is close to as much as he is close to Louis or does he really feel romantically about Louis? And two, how the heck is he supposed to answer that question without figuring that out himself?

"I- I don't know, maybe?" Louis knew the answer was not enough and that he is going to get bombarded with more questions from Harry because he is a curious lad. 

"I want to be with you, forever and ever. Is that love?" Harry questioned again, hoping to get answers. 

"Do you feel like that about your mommy too?" Louis asked trying to clarify the difference between love towards family and love you feel towards a romantic partner. 

"No..." Harry trailed off, getting distracted by the strings of the sweatpants he is wearing. Louis didn't know what to say at this point. Does he tell Harry that he may love Louis, or does he let the question be and feel tensed all his life? 

Louis feels Harry's love for sure, but the problem is he himself is unsure about how he feels about Harry. He knows that he doesn't want to get away from this marriage and that's not because he pities Harry. That's because he, himself doesn't want a life out of this happy little bubble he has created with Harry in his life. 

Louis then started thinking about explaining all the things that comes with starting a relationship. Right now, in their lives, Louis is more like Harry's caretaker than he is his husband, and these circumstances would definitely change if they established a romantic relationship. 'God, imagine explaining sex and all to him' Louis thought and groaned internally. He doesn't mind, of course he doesn't but things can get a bit overwhelming sometimes.

 Then another thought popped into his mind making his eyes go wide. 'Is Harry even gay?' It seems like Desmond automatically assumed that he is gay and came up with this brilliant idea of secretly getting Louis to marry him. Louis believed it is because deep down Desmond had another shitty belief that Harry would need a 'male' partner to take care of him. Louis groaned out loud this time before laying on his back on their bed. 

This caught the attention of Harry, and he sat next to Louis on the bed before laying his head on top of Louis' belly. Louis smiled fondly, forgetting all the messy thoughts in his head before stroking his fingers through Harry's hair. 

'Explaining this can wait until I figure out my own feelings' Louis thought as he left out a sigh. 

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Louis groaned in his sleep because he could feel his ear burning with sweat running down his neck. He sat up to flip his pillow to the cold side and laid back down after doing so. He was about to close his eyes and go back to sleep when he saw that harry is wide awake and is staring at him. Their faces were just few inches apart and thanks to the shining nigh light Louis could see that Harry is staring at his lips. Louis couldn't help when he bit his lip because that's a nervous habit of him. 

"Aren't y-" Louis was interrupted by Harry's lips on his. When Louis figured out what is happening, Harry was already pulling away. Louis couldn't help it when he chased after Harry's full lips to steal a proper kiss this time. Harry whimpered a little surprised but he didn't panic and pull away. Louis gently sucked on Harry's bottom lip, determined not to make him have a sensory overload. He pulled away when he could feel Harry's breath quickening. 

"T-that was wonderful Harry" Louis couldn't help the wide smile on his lips. 

That is how they ended up kissing all night. Each kiss only lasts few seconds because Harry pulls away when he feels overcrowded, but he doesn't want to stop kissing. He pulls away and grin like a madman before coming back to Louis' lips once again. 

"You are a wonderful kisser Ha-" Louis was once again interrupted by Harry's lips on his. He couldn't help the fond smile that crept up his lips, interrupting their kiss. Louis knew that Harry is going to keep doing this until he has had enough and to be honest, he doesn't mind at all. Harry's lips felt like clouds covered in fine velvet and he wouldn't mind kissing them till the day he dies. 

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"I've gotta go to work baby. I'll be back in the evening. You have your classes with Ed all day anyway." Louis explained as he put the things he need in his clutch.

"No, stay..." Harry whined once again because apparently it is time for another kissing session. That was a new feeling that Harry couldn't get enough of. He loved it and wanted to keep doing that every time he felt like doing that.

"Okay, five more kisses and I really gotta go" Louis chuckled because he never thought he would have to set a kiss limit with his partner. Harry beamed happily before jumping over to Louis and starting his kissing session. 

Louis was absolutely late but he couldn't help it when harry extended the kissing session to from 5 to 10. Because of that he had to run out of the mansion as Harry kept on whining. Apparently, he doesn't want to stop for the day, and he doesn't like the fact that he won't be able to kiss Louis whenever he wanted. 

Louis called Harry on his way to work to make sure he didn't have a meltdown or something because that was possible due to how much Harry hated when things didn't go his way.

"Hey, you alright baby?" Louis asked over the phone and sighed when Harry made something like a growling sound from the other end of the line. 

"Listen, we can kiss all night when I come back but you need to get ready for your classes. Shall I ask Albie to help you?" Louis asked. Even though he knew that Harry didn't need help with his routines now, he wanted to make sure that he will be okay throughout the day. Harry didn't reply to that question either. He just whined making Louis' heart fall. He was two seconds away from turning his car around and going back home.

"Can you talk to me please?" Louis asked carefully not wanting to make Harry feel overwhelmed. 

"Come back" Harry whined out again. That was the last stroke for Louis. He turned the car around from the next roundabout. 

"Okay, I'm coming back now. Do you want me to stay on the line or should I ask Albie to check on you?" Louis knew that his constant worrying and babying Harry doesn't do any good to Harry or himself but he can't bear to leave Harry alone when he is so clearly sad. He wanted to call his assistant and Ed to cancel both of their appointments, but he didn't want to hang up the call either. 

"Stay on the call" Harry was so clearly sad and Louis wished he didn't leave the house now. 

Louis kept on spilling sweet nothings to the phone as he drove back home. He only hung up when he was parking the car in the front lawn of the mansion. He gave Albert the keys and asked him to park the car in the garage before walking into the mansion. He found Harry with tear tracks down his face and Louis didn't think his heart could break more. 

"Oh, baby, I'm so sorry." Louis apologized pouting and his pout was soon washed away by Harry's lips on his.

"Give me two seconds to call Ed and cancel your class today. That's unless you want to do it today?" Louis asked when Harry pulled away from the kiss he started. 

"No" Harry whined and Louis wasn't sure if the no was for the phone call or for the class. 

"Do you want to do the class today?" Louis asked again to clarify. Harry was about to kiss Louis when Louis stopped him and repeated the question.

"Do you want to do the class?" Louis rolled his eyes when Harry whined again without giving a proper answer. He decided to call Ed and cancel the class anyway because he didn't think Harry would want to a class now. 

He barely got to finish the call before being attacked by Harry's kisses. He internally groaned when he knew that he would have to interrupt Harry again to call his assistant. 

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A/N - Hiiiii

Sup my baby potatoes? 

Y'all must be all grown up now and I'm not even sure y'all will be reading this now. Anyway, I wanted to extensively apologize for disappearing for almost 4 years. Well, I graduated, found a job and got married. To say the least, my life has been chaotic with ups and downs in the last 4 years.

I drifted out of the fandom with all the chaos in my life, but I returned after Liam's death (which I still don't believe happed. I just keep on thinking it's just a lie/ a nightmare) To help myself recover from this shock I started reading these fics again and I thought why not finish what I started? So here I am trying to finish what I started.

I hope you loved the chapter if you are still reading this. Please let me know your thoughts. 

I love y'all so much. Thank you for all the love and patience. (: xxx

-Ash