Posted August 22, 2020

For The Wattys 2020

I TRIED TO MAKE PEACE  with Isic. It still turned out to be a full-blown fight with him, this one bigger than all the ones we previously had.

The night I broke in Blake's office, I sat at the dinning table, eating my dinner. I called him to the table. Maybe we could make peace. Maybe I hadn't been nice to him in the past.

Wrong. He was just a jerk.

"if we're going to live together for a while," I said, embracing my faith. "I don't want to be fighting with you all the time."

He put a spoonful in his mouth. "Easy. Stop starting all the fights."

I sneaked a glance at him over my food. The table was small and white, with four chairs..

I had a different opinion, but I wasn't going to start a fight. "So what do you say? Peace?" I asked hopeful with a hand extended to seal the deal.

"how about you tell me where you go every morning till now instead?"

I put my hand back on my lap. I didn't want to tell him.

It started small. But then anger and the pain escalated. We started throwing things, yelling at the top of our lungs, yelling insults.

I couldn't help but notice that Isic's eyes kept as if he was under the influence. Was he?

This time, Isic was the one going upstairs furious. I had won that fight. But when I thought back to today, and the fact that if I had disappeared, no one would know where I was, it pushed me to do something I hated with all I had to do.

"I was at 130 queensplate building today, pretending to be an apprentice. It's the Enforcers Of Peace headquarters and training centre."

He looked at me, eyes wide, with the hint of a smile from the top of the staircase. Then he bowed his head slowly, and walked the rest of the stairs, already making peace with him.

I hadn't.

Was I changing? Had I just relied on someone, had I just let someone in voluntarily instead of hurting them?

I fell on the couch like a block, with my back first. I couldn't recognize myself.

All the fatigue, and hut wore me out. I passed out on the couch. When I woke up, someone had covered me with a blanket, and Isic wasn't home.

The truth slapped me first thing in the morning, like ice cold water when you have just woken up. I fell back on the couch as soon as I stood.

I forgot to come up with a plan convince Blake to keep me yesterday. I couldn't just show there like nothing had happened.

I stared at the ceiling.