Posted August 7, 2020

For the Wattys 2020

Laying on the grass, in a field, under the stars, felt like being in heaven.

Twenty-five minutes later, heaven was shattered and I was in hell. I wanted nothing more than to leave him far away behind.

a couple of hours earlier, Isic sent me a text, telling me to dress up because he wanted to show me something. Since I had discovered my enemy's name and told the police who went to investigate, I was in a good mood.

I also felt a bit lonely, but didn't want to call up my friends. What if I was a burden, and they felt the need to come see me when they didn't feel like it?

When he asked me, it felt like a good idea.

"Coming to your house in twenty. I wanna show you something. Get ready :)"

"Alright." I texted back. it was seven fifty-five, and hour before sunset.

By the time we got there, it was dark.

"lay down, like me, in the grass."

That's what I did. A few seconds later, shooting stars brought to life the sky. I smiled, and when I looked at him, I saw him smiling too.

He remembered. He remembered how much I loved stars, and the sky.

"It's my secret calming spot." he said. "where i come when i need a breather."

That's how the conversation went. It felt like having another bestfriend. we were by ourselves in this secluded part of the forest. The air was fresh, the weather was good.

Then I received a text.

Everything was going smoothly, until it wasn't.

"You can't stop what you can't see. Beware of where you put your feet."

It fell from my hand after I looked at it. "Are you fine?" asked Isic.

"Uh yes-yes-yes." i said, hurrying to put it back in my pocket.

He went back to talking, but he knew something was up, because he kept looking at my fact, instead of the stars.

Abruptly, he stopped talking. "You're not fine."

He sat. I did the same. "Yes. I am."

"no. you're not. Please tell me what's wrong. I can help you"

I shook my hand. "I said I'm fine."

He couldn't help me. He didn't even care about me. I was not who he thought I was.

"I'm here for you. Give me your phone."

"No"

"Give me. I'm trying to help you. Why are you always pushing away the people that care about you like family."

"because they don't care!" Everybody leaves me. they always leave. Mom, dad, Daniel, him, multiple friends at school, his mom even though she couldn't help it.

I couldn't get attached to anyone else, and risk being hurt again.

"they do" he yelled back.

I stood up, and started running as s possible to my car. I knew he would follow. And I was right.

My car was a solid ten minute run from there. But I could do it. I needed to hurt him so he would stop following me.

"I don't know why you even bother at this point."

"Because I care."

"We're not friends"

He stopped running. "You're right."

Something broke inside of me. I didn't know which was worse, having him in the first place but risk losing him, or hurting him so bad he stops chasing after you.

I got into my car, and drive straight home. In my room, I was up till morning, because the shadows in my room scared me.

The worst part?

I had absolutely no one to tell it to.