Posted august 3rd, 2020

Amber snapped.

"Just shut up." She was holding her head in the middle of the street, her Frappuccino knocked out on the ground.

"Just shut up." She was saying to Tess.

Me, Amber and Tess had been taking a walk in the city when it all went down. Her pain freaked me out.

Tasnime and I both noticed that Amber was acting weirdly. She wouldn't say much, ignore our questions, and sulk in silence like we had just done to how the most horrible thing possible. She seemed nervous and very irritable.

But if she didn't want to go, she didn't have to. And if she was mad, she could just say it.

Me and Tasnim ignored her bad attitude. Instead we tried to focus on the sunny evening, and each other's company.

But when she started screaming, it was the drop that made the vase overflow. it was enough. Ignoring her wouldn't help anyway.

"We're trying to have a nice time Amber. Calm down." I said.

"You don't get it." She screamed. A lot of people turned to look at us. "I can't be the only one. I can't. "

"only one of what?" Tess said, bending over her crouched figure on the asphalt. She had both hands on it.

She crosses her fingers. Tess held her arm, while I sat beside her the same way. "I can't do it anymore. I feel like I'm losing everything and everyone I care about. I feel like..."

She trailed off. My heart squeezed. I touched her back, and started rubbing it.

That feeling. I UNDERSTOOD IT. I knew how much it sucked.

"continue please?" I said, coming closer to her. Tess sat beside her. we were totally oblivious to all the pedestrians that had to turn around us to pass. we must have received death glares. But again, we were too busy to pay attention.

Our friendship was special. We were good for each other.

I couldn't afford to lose-

No. I wouldn't go down that road. Tess was staring at somewhere far away, her eyes welling up.

"I feel like life's moving too fast. But I can't catch up or keep up with the changes. I feel way behind on life and everybody else."

She looked at us both. "I can't be the only one." Her broken puppy's expression brough tears to Tess'. I swallowed mine.

She wasn't.

I locked my arm with hers. "You're not alone who ever felt like this. Feel like that too sometimes. But we have each other."

I looked at Tess.

"We do." She said, locking her arms too. We stood. "Sisters forever and ever. Circumstances changes but they don't have to change us."

"lies. You don't get it. We are changing too."

Tess didn't blink. She recovered after a few seconds. And her answer was well phrased.

"change doesn't have to be bad. And it doesn't have to tear us apart. The secret is to fight for each other. Friendships are like companies. We work together towards a goal or we go bankrupt. "

"Yes. Change is supposed to make you better."

I could see my twelve year old self snickering. Look how change made me. I, for sure, didn't work to make me a better person. I let it make me bitter.

It made me ashamed of myself.

"If it matters, you fight for it. Don't let yourself go to a point where you become ashamed of yourself."

Her eyes welled up. I hugged her before she could see mine.

I think I was even more emotional because the next day, I would infiltrate Calumn's workplace as another agent to try to understand what they know and say about me.

Maybe I would never see them again if I blew my cover. Who knew what they'd do to me if I was in their hands.