Chapter 17: We keep each other grounded.
After finding out horrifying facts about Rosalind and what happened to her, I kept on getting this sick feeling. I wanted to be there to hug her.
Then I looked at Brianna who was fidgeting with the hem of her shirt, fighting back the tears and smiled to myself.
Her mother called me and informed me about the events that occurred recently. She told me that Brianna was in a dire need of friend.
At that moment, I knew that I had to be there for her. Screw my ego. I already lost Rosalind to it, but I was going to do right by Brianna.
"Hey, Bri." I called out to her, grabbing her attention. "Why don't we have a sleepover today? It'll be fun plus we both need it right now. We can watch movies, talk and you can tell me what's been bothering you or I could be your vent out buddy. Whatever suits you."
She gave me a longing look with eyes filled with happiness mixed with a little bit of hurt.. I knew she figured out why I wanted to do this, just like I knew what her answer was going to be.
"I'd really like that." She whispered and I gently squeezed her hand.
After everyone left, Brianna stayed back. We figured that she could have dinner here today. She called her mom and informed her about the plans for tonight. She was delighted that we were spending time together.
My mom was thrilled too. She loved cooking and now there was an addition to our dinner today.
Blake and Kelly locked their door and decided to work on the case. They were trying to connect the dots.
Till now we all were fixated that Rosalind's rapist killed her. It made a lot of sense and he had motive too. Kelly said that she'll place a call to her office and how his alibi check out the moment we find who did it.
We just needed a name. That's it. A name to find out his whereabouts and what this guy does now.
Jordan promised to take Blake to the club. Lenny didn't want to accompany them because of obvious reasons.
The two of them were going to go down there tomorrow and ask about. Jordan would not seem much suspicious asking around since he was a member to the gang.
When he broke the news to us, I had no words to express my shock. A lot of things made sense now. His motorbike, the leather jacket he wore around and the way he came off strong and had a neutral face.
While everyone was doing something in the house, Brianna and I sat there like couch potatoes watching her concerts and listening to her wild stories and fan encounter moments.
I hardly interrupted her since she was having so much fun talking about it that I just wanted her to go on speaking.
"I know my mom told you about my recent breakdown. It's not a big deal, you know." She stated.
"It is a big deal, Bri. At least it's a big deal to me. I was not there for Rosalind and I will not repeat the same mistake. I won't judge you for crying again. But please, talk to me. I don't think we should still dwell on the fight. We were young and career driven. It's time for us to mend our egos and differences."
She gave me a long stare, it was clear that her mind was thinking the same. We might have good friends back in the city, but the truth was that we were the only ones who could take care of each other. We both knew our defense mechanisms and what we would do if we lost our minds.
We keep each other grounded.
We've had each other's back since the beginning and nothing could change that fact.
"I second that thought. Let's be friends again. Get to know each other better and strengthen the bond."
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"This is what your problem is! You always tend to think about yourself and nobody else. I have never met somebody so selfish as you." I yelled at Brianna as we stormed into Rosalind's room with our backpacks.
We thought it was a good idea to talk about what the future holds for all of us and naturally, Brianna and I both were planning to go to the city for college. Rosalind wanted to be closer to her family so she was going to go to Maplebirch's college.
She asked if we could probably all go over here but instead of politely declining, she had to go over board and insult Rosalind.
Now we have been fighting the entire way back home and instead of going separate ways, we decided to end the fight. We all graduated today and now had to apply for colleges, postponing this talk was not going to resolve anything.
"Who are you to call me selfish? You are not an award winning friend either. You want to go to the city too!" She retorted.
"Yes, but I was not rude to Rosalind. All she did was ask us if we could stay, you had no right to tell her to shut her pretty mouth. We are friends! You started the fight." I stated firmly.
"Exactly what I was thinking. We were supposed to be best friends. We were together before Rosalind came in the ruined our bond." She hissed and looked at Rosalind who felt a pang of guilt.
"We mutually agreed to be friends with her and hasn't it been amazing. I mean more people know you now and we have had some amazing adventures with her. You don't have a problem with her, you're just jealous of her and her selfless nature."
"Please stop fighting. You guys can go to the city. It's fine and Brianna I forgive you for being rude to me, I wasn't actually hurt and Valerie, please, you don't have to be rude to her. It's all forgiven and forgotten." Rosalind interrupted.
"You're supposed to thank me for standing up for you. I know that you don't want us to fight, but sometimes she needs to know that her tone and attitude hurt other people." I told her.
"I wasn't sorry for talking to you like that. You always are nice to everybody and that makes us guilty for abandoning you and going to the city. It's like you're using some kind of weird psychology with us." Brianna softly spoke.
"I just didn't think that we'll go to college at different places. I want us to stick together you know. I like it with you guys and I wanted to share my college experience with ya'll. I just didn't think that where we go will be important." Rosalind confessed. Her tone was low and hurt.
"That's not fair, Rose. You know that college is important. I cannot go to college here and then expect a good internship in the city. People over here consider the therapists crazy and they're reluctant to send their kids to the shrinks. You know that and you're also aware that Brianna won't be a known singer if she pursues her career over here." I said, running my hand through my hair to avoid sounding frustrated.
"And we want the same thing. We can share the college experience if you apply to a city university. You'll learn to be responsible and independent too. We can have crazy sleepover or even better, we can all pitch in and be roommates!" Brianna enthusiastically said but it didn't have the strong impact she was hoping to go for.
Rosalind scoffed at that, "I don't know why the youth thinks that staying with your parents is an obstruction of independence. If you'll are not aware, my dad is going through a tough time in his business and Derek wants to open his own company which seems less likely with the financial trouble. If you expect me to just leave them than I'm sorry, but you don't know me that well."
"It's not like you're leaving them forever. You can always work extra jobs and support them financially." I remarked.
"Hey, I never forced you to stay here, I just wanted to know if it was the possibility. And Bri, you want me to speak my mind, right? Well guess what? I think both of you deeply hurt me by assuming I'll come to the city or even by assuming I'll be fine. I actually am weak a lot of times. I pretend to be strong because I don't want to be a burden. Befriending you was the best thing I did, but at the same time, I liked it more when I knew that I could not count on people for comforting me. I know I sound childish but there were times I really needed you guys here. Just coz I had Lenny, that didn't mean I wanted to tell him everything. I just feel so helpless and lonely sometimes and there is nothing you'll tried to do. I am just tired of putting up the facade of being brave and happy when all I ever wanted to do was scream and let the tears run loose."
"Rose, I-"
"Let me talk." She held up a hand at Brianna, stopping her mid sentence. "My dad is suffering from depression and the only person who keeps him going is me. How can I leave him when I have such a huge responsibility on my head? Derek's been figuring out a way using loans and opening up his own company but he has no assurance that it'll work. I am the only one who keeps him motivated. My mom cannot see her husband and son falling apart like this, but she gets her hope when she sees me. I have to pretend to have my life together for her. Lenny's mom recently left him and he is broken from the inside. The only time when he knows that time will heal him is when he's with me. Now, tell me how do I leave all of this and come to the city? Tell me if its too much for thinking that you guys will keep my on my toes and give me the energy to support all of these people who are crumpling on the inside? TELL ME HOW DO I KEEP GOING ON WITHOUT BREAKING ON THE INSIDE?"
Without wasting another second, I rushed to hug her and Brianna followed my action.
"I need some time to myself. I would like if you left me alone." Rosalind whispered.
We looked at each other and then at her. She was holding the door open for us to leave. I wanted to tell her how sorry and guilty I was, but I know she had enough of us.
So, we both picked up our bags and left the house.
I looked at Brianna who was battling on the inside. "Hey, do you wanna come home for dinner?" I knew that what happened was hard for us to digest.
"You think I'm selfish and put up with me because we have been friends since childhood. I don't think I should come home for dinner." Brianna said and left.
I walked home with my hear broken. I rang the bell and as my mom opened the door, I walked inside, shutting the door behind me.
"Valerie?" My mom stopped me and searched the pain hidden behind my eyes.
She engulfed me in her eyes and that made my walls that I had been trying to hold for so long, collapse. Moment by moment, the tears fell, rolling down my chin and wetting my mom's dress.
A constant feeling of fear and doom lingered around my heart.
What if that was the last time I saw both of them?
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After having a stomach filling dinner with jokes passed around the table and laughing heartily at them, Brianna and I retired to my room after helping mom with the dishes.
The first thing we decided to do was take a few pictures for Brianna's Instagram. She was longing to do this. It was going to be her first post in many weeks.
After that, I talked about my roommate and her cringey moment that I had to witness with her boyfriend. We also giggled at a few memories which we thought would be fun to make, but were actually very stupid.
"You know there was a time when I had this knife in my hand and I stared at it thinking if it was worth committing a suicide or not." Brianna spoke which startled me.
'That's dark. Did you talk to somebody about it?" I stated.
"No, but I had written an apology in the suicide note to you and Rosalind." She let out a small laugh.
I patted her back, smiling but then my eyes widened and I immediately jerked from my bed, opened the door and then loudly and aggressively knocked on Kelly's door.
She opened it, looking at me for an explanation of my sudden impulse. Brianna too came out of the room and looked at me confused and dazed.
"The killer, they made a mistake." I blurted out.
Blake got up from the floor, now intrigues in the conversation and stood up next to Kelly. "What mistake?"
"They made it look like Rosalind committed a suicide, right?"
Everyone nodded to my question, still having no clue of what my point is.
"If it was a suicide, where is the suicide note?"
Hello Angels!
I was so emotional while writing the fight. Something about it triggered me and I had literal tears in my eyes.
But now ya'll know what fight Brianna and Valerie have been referring to since the beginning.
We also found out that our not-so-smart killer slipped up and made a mistake.
Will it help to catch them?
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