" Hey, Natasha!" Ashley was brushing my hair with her hand. " Are you okay? Fine? Great?" If they're asking me about my mood, I will cry immediately. But instead I just kept it. I don't want to cry during the examination hours.

Last night was a hard decision to make. I know to myself that letting go was the best option to choose. Even though that the option was torturing me.

I'm here at the school taking the first day of exam. It was hard for me, but I don't want to leave my Junior High School a huge disappoint for me.

I remember last time during the Local Math Quiz, he even came to the house so he can review me, but now he was reviewing with another girl.

Proctor came and I didn't continue to respond Ashley's question to me. The exam was started and I only want to focus here, but the picture of Taya kissed Gilbert was flashing repeatedly in my head. I hate flashbacks.

We were now at the canteen, recess came.

" Beh, ayos ka lang ba talaga? Kanina ka pa natutulala." Leigh asked to me, she even holds my face to consult it.

" I'm fine girls." I fake chuckled. I don't want them to worry about me. For sure if they'll know that I broke up with Gilbert, they will go there and talk to him last-longing. " Don't worry about me."

" Stop pretending, Girl." Zophiya mentioned this to me.

I let out a fake laugh. " I'm really fine."

The first exam was clearly done. Some minutes were wasted because I kept staring there for a long time. I just can't really focus.

I went back home late and I saw my dad and mum having their dinner.

" Sweetie, you're back." My mum greeted me. " Join here." She ordered. Wala akong gana kumain and I continue to snob them.

" Natasha!" My dad shouted. Probably he was in bad mood. I don't want this.

I scratched my head. " Why?!"

" Follow her order!" He immediately replied.

I throw my bag on the sofa and went to the dinner table. I removed my phone from the pocket and placed it on the right side of the table, near to me.

I just have a poker face while eating.

" How's the exam?" My mum asked, calm.

" Fine," I answered without looking at them.

My dad coughed. " So, are you accepting the deal?" My dad asked me. I know that he was talking about that I will fulfill my senior years in UST.

I shook my head as a sign of no.

Second passed, I quickly felt a vibration on my phone.

I had a glimpsed on it and I saw Gilbert's calling.

I looked at my mum and dad repeatedly, but I don't want to answer this call. I said to him that we were already finished.

It was gone and seconds passed, he was calling again.

My mum glazed at me. " Why don't you answer the call, sweetie?" She questioned.

" N-Nothing." I stuttered. " It's not that.. important." Palusot ko.

It was repeatedly on and off. I was going to continue to eat and he was calling again.

My dad suddenly snatched the phone. Aakto na sana akong kukunin yung phone, but he suddenly answered it. He even turned on the speaker.

[ H-Hey, darling] he sounded like he was crying and sad. [ Please.. please come back. I-I miss you. I need you.] He sounded suffering.

Seconds passed and I was shocked because my dad suddenly throw my phone. It made a loud sound that made me surprised.

" Dad!" I directly ran to my phone. And it was broken and glitching.

My dad immediately stood up madly. " Who was that?" My dad held his head with both of his hands, questioning. This is the moment that I don't want to talk with dad. Because he was so dangerous.

My dad suddenly came in my direction and he gripped my hands I felt pain.

" Who's that?! Hindi ka sasagot?" My Dad asked me, outraged.

" I-I'm hurting dad." Napaawang yung mukha ko.

" I don't fucking care! Who the fuck was that?!" He gripped more.

" My B-Boyfriend ." I slowly answered, it was hurting to answer my dad's question. It's like my throat has thorns. " My e-" I was going to say that he was my ex but he stopped me.

" Stupid, god damn it! Natasha!" My dad throw my hands that made me almost dropped from the floor. " I clearly said to you na bawal kapang pumasok sa mga ganiyang relasyon! Hindi pa ba malinaw?!" He shouted which made me fear.

I almost fell on my knees " D-Dad!" I was sobbing and I even holds my mouth.

" Whether you like it or not, You will gonna fucking break up with him. And you will take your Senior and College in UST. Final." My dad ordered me, he even stick his tongue inside of his cheek.

" Dad! Tama na 'yan." My mum came to me and she even holds my arms so she can calm me.

" If you didn't break up with that fucking guy, you're going to be my puppet." I suddenly shivered and I wiped my face but the tears were kept falling.

Puppet?! I'm your 'puppet' ever since!

" You can't.. do that." Pagmamakaawa ko sakaniya. " Please don't. I will gonna break up with him." The best option to choose. I know that I already break up with him. I know that I already accepted it, but it's still hurting me. 

" Well!" He clapped. " Do your part."

" Roland!" He called, shouted. His hands were in his waist.

Kuya Roland immediately appeared. " Yes po, sir?" He asked, confused. His eyes were touring what was happening right now.

" Did you know about this fucking whole mess?" My dad pointing at me.

" He doesn't know anything about this!" I defensed to him, shouted and crying.

" How?! He was your driver, Natasha. Why don't we ask him?" He fired back. And he looked to Kuya Roland.

He just silently nods at my dad.

My dad holds his head. " What?!" He asked, irritated and upset. "Pack up your things now." My dad suddenly controlled Kuya Roland that made my hands weak. " You're fired."

" Fucking no!" I shouted at my dad. " He can't fucking leave!" I don't want him to leave because I made the wrong decision.

Kuya Roland was having a small smile and he came to me. " Ma'am... ayos lang po. Sabik na sabik na rin po akong makapiling yung pamilya ko po." He was moving his lips.

" N-No!" Pagpigil ko sakaniya. I even ran to him. " You can't leave, Kuya." I sob at him, hugged.

Kuya Roland caressed my hair. " Salamat po sa lahat, Ma'am Tash." He acknowledged, he made me relaxed. " Salamat po nang sobra." And he removed my body from the hug.

I saw Kuya Roland was going back to his room. He looked at his back to see me and he beamed.

" H-How can you fucking do that!?" I asked him and I looked at my mum. " P-Please convince him!" I pleased to my mum. " Please!"

My mum looked so shocked and still not absorbing what was happening now.

My dad smirked. " You must face the consequences of your actions, Natasha." He came in my direction and he even have the guts to touch both of my arms.

I kneeled to him, wrapped my arms around his knees. " I will do anything. Just don't fire, Kuya Roland." I close my eyes and I let out a cry. " Please."

I was shocked that he removed his legs from the wrap. " Before you act, Natasha. Make sure you're always prepared for them."

My mum suddenly raised me from the kneeled. " Go to your room, Natasha. I will talk to your dad." She whispered to me. " I love you, sweetie."

My heart became soft when I heard of someone who loved me. It was like cheering me up from what's happening.

I immediately wiped my tears and looked seriously at my dad, frowned.

I curled up like a young child on my bed, crying. As if heaven and earth were falling on me. If this is the real meaning of love, I don't fucking want this.

Minutes passed on the verge of my tears a notification came.

I wiped my tears from my face and I just saw a violet, green, and crack. But I can still saw some of the messages.

The text came from Vincent.

"Cme hr"

I can't read it. And I felt a vibration.

I keep pressing the call, but because my phone has a crack, I have a hard time answering it. But after pressing it more times, I answered it.

[ N-Natasha, bro.] Vincent greeted, he sounded worrying. [ You busy ba? Something came up here eh. I mean kanina pa pero mukhang kahapon pa ata. Ewan malay ko ba. Pero busy ka ba? Luh! Sumagot ka please, oy.] He continually continued. He was now losing his breath.

I slightly coughed. " N-No. I am busy. R-reviewing." I stuttered, I even lied to him.

[ Agh! Wait.] And the sound became low but I still can hear it. [ Bro, Lance. Should I say it na ba?]

[ G. lang bro.] Lance answered.

[ He-hey. Natasha. Still there?] He asked to me, hindi siya mapakali.

" Hm." Matipid kong sagot.

[ Si ano kasi.. Gilbert nandito, bro. Wasted. Baka naman gusto mong dalawin? Hindi ko rin kasi talaga alam kung bakit siya gan'to eh. Basta if you have time, come here.]

" I-I don't have time. Sorry." I replied to him. I don't want them to know that I cried. Plus, my girlfriend's responsibility was already done. I don't have the right to go there.

[ Ay! Gano'n ba. Basta nandito lang kami sa bahay nila.] He answered. [ Kung magbabago lang naman isip mo, bro. And may sasabihin din sana kami.] And he suddenly ended the call.

I left my phone on because it doesn't have sense anymore. It's already broken because my dad just throw it. UGH!

I curled up again and I'm looking at my knees. Silently crying.

After I let some of my pain in my heart. I changed my clothes and I went there. Vincent made me curious! What was he supposed to say earlier?

Kuya Roland dropped me off. He sneaked me out because I told him the story between me and Gilbert. He understood that. To the point he let me go to Gilbert's house. I'm still standing at the gate. Looking at it. Thinking if I need to enter. But I think it would be so much pain to go there.

I turned around and I saw someone who was staring at me.

" Angel?" I glazed my sight at her, questioning, almost no voice coming out. " What are you doing here?"

" Why so shook, babe?" Napaawang yung mukha niya dahil sa tanong ko. " And also..." She twirls her hair. " I'm the one who's gonna ask you 'what are you doing here' Right?"

" I... I need to go back now." I glimpsed the car waiting outside.

" Oh! You have the guts to leave again after you hurt my babe's heart?!" Ipinamukha niya sa akin that I left him. But I'm wondering why she knows about that?

" Shook again? Did I say something..." She was looking her eyes around. "That offends you?"

I turned around at her and I decided to go inside. I toured my eyes into the living room. I remember that last time, we have a movie date here. Memories. I saw his friends that looks so frustrated and they don't know what to do.

" Natasha, bro!" Bungad sa akin ni Vincent after he saw me on the door.

I gave him a small smile. And I looked to Gilbert who was passed out on the table. I sat beside Vincent.

" W-What happened t-to him?" I slowly whispered at Vincent. Why he looks even more hurt?

" A-Ano kasi bro..." He looked at Lance who was sitting in front of us. 

" He did not take his exam earlier. That's why we decided to go here." Lance responded, his hand was in his head.

" He.. what?!" I asked at them, shock. I got shivers. Knowing that he didn't take the exam because he was so damaged.

" Yeah." Lance nodded his head.

" And my babe didn't cheat on you," Angel mentioned immediately. Pointing him.

I seriously looked at her. " You don't fucking know everything!" I cursed at her. She even didn't know what was going on with me right now. She was always defending him without knowing that I'm hurting too. That I am damaged too.

" Hey, you two. Not now." Lance calmed us. " Not now, please."

I rolled my eyes on Angel and I immediately reached for my bag. I was going to go outside until Vincent called me.

" Bro..." He repeatedly poked my arms.

I looked at him. " Why?!" I replied, irritated. I came here to know what was happening and that Angel just ruin it!

" S-Sorry, bro. Pero we need your help. Kung hindi i-tatake ni Gilbert kasi yung exam..." He scratched his head. " Babagsak siya for second sem."

My hands started to shake and my feeling got weak when I heard that. I don't want to ruin Gilbert's dream for me. He was there to cheer me up. He was there for me saying that I always need to chase my dreams.

" What will I do?" I asked him as a friend. " I will do anything. Just tell me, please." I begged. I don't want to see Gilbert failed his 11th Grade. I don't want him to be a repeater.

" Can you convince him?" He simply asked, worried.

I stuck my tongue inside of my cheek. " How?" I asked.

" Just say it to him. Personally." He shrugged his shoulders.

" Can you just video me? I don't want to talk with him." I removed my sight from him and I looked downwards. I just don't want his eyes to stare at me.

" Agh!" He sounded frustrated. " G! Baka pwede nang mapaniwalaan 'yan."

After he recorded me I went back to the car immediately.

" Kuya Roland," I called his attention while we were spanning the road.

" Yes po, Ma'am Tash?" He smiled at the front mirror.

" How are you?" I asked him, worried. I remember what my dad ordered from him earlier.

" Maayos naman po, ma'am." He replied. " Eh! Kayo ho ba? "

I tilted my head. Thinking. " I don't know what to feel. " I answered. " Should I act like I'm a girl with heavy baggage or I'm just gonna ignore the fact that I'm in pain?" I didn't know that a tear began to drop from my eye. That made me laugh.

" You know, ma'am. In many years ho na nakilala kita. Hindi po ikaw yung babaeng susuko." He mentioned, sounded like a sincere parent. " Kaya Ma'am, marami ka pang haharapin na gan'tong problema. Kung nasa pagpipilian mo ang pagsuko, Ma'am. Eh mas mabuting 'wag ka nalang ho pumili."

" Sorry," I told, I'm just so fucking pissed about my dad's decision about firing him. " Please forgive me." I began to cry and I hold my face with both of my hands.

" Ma'am Tash, 'wag naman po kayong umiyak. Mas lalo po akong nasasaktan, ma'am." He let out a short chuckle.

" Can I treat you? Please?" Pambawi ko. I will gonna miss him so much. That's why for the last time, I will gonna treat him a dinner.

" H-Huwag na po, Ma'am Tash." He responded, timorous.

" You deserves a treat for the sacrifices you've done for our family especially to me," I said, forcing him to accept it. " Please?"

He laughed. " Pwede rin po ba akong mag-request, Ma'am?" He asked me.

" You may, of course." I shortly answered, I wiped my tears.

" Can... Can Kuya Roland take you to school... to the school for the last time po, Ma'am Tash?" He stuttered. He was speaking in English so hard for me that made me sob. I just had flashbacks saying to Ate Lita and Kuya Roland that they must speak English if they will have a conversation with me. It's like they tried it for the first day of my class and Kuya Roland wished for the last time that if he can take me to the school for the last time in English.

" Kuya!" I laughed while the tears kept falling from my eyes. " Of course. You can po."

I treat Kuya Roland that night, and when the day came, he took me to the school for the last time.

" U-Uh, Kuya Roland. Thank you for everything. Just call me. I'm one call away." I smiled at him.

" Salamat din po, Ma'am sa lahat. Kung hindi po ako naging driver niyo ma'am hindi ko rin po makikilala si Lita." He mentioned to me.

" Kuya, don't make me cry. I will take my exams pa." I slightly punched his shoulders. " I will go now."

" Ingat po, Ma'am." The last smile that I saw from him. " A-Ay, Ma'am! Saglit lang po." He poked my shoulders as he was getting a box from the compartment.

" Hindi naman po sa panghihimasok po, Ma'am Tash. Pero po kasi..." He mentioned and he even scratched his head. " ... nakita ko po na basag po 'yung phone niyo po kanina." And he gave me a cellphone box. It's not the same as my broken phone, but I appreciated it.

" No need. I'm fine." I returned the box from him.

" Sayang naman po, Ma'am Tash." He frowned.

I sighed. Maybe I can use this for a backup hanggang wala pa akong nabibiling phone. " Okay, Kuya Roland. I will take it." I laughed. " You even left a thing for me, huh."

" Para maaalala niyo po ako, Ma'am." He even smirked.

" Whatever." I chuckled. " Thank you for this." I raised the phone box.

I stood still in front of the Novaliches High School's big gate.

" Without you, If it were not for you, I would not have known the important persons who completed my high school life." I let out a sigh and I held my bag tightly and joined the students from walking inside the campus.

Exams were officially done and my friends were already preparing to go outside. We were waiting for Zophiya because she was a cleaner too.

I got to admit that I really wanted to cry while answering the questions. Why was my whole week so unlucky?

" Mga beh, sino may load? Pa-text naman." Leigh asked to us.

I immediately took my phone inside my bag. " Here." I gave.

" 'Yon! Salamat, beh." She mentioned and I just nod at her. " B-Bakit naka box pa?!" She asked to me, wondering.

" You will use it or no?" I replied back.

" Heto na, kalma." She fired back and she opened it.

" Wait! I will put my sim card." Pahabol ko.

Minutes passed.

" Let's go na girls." Aya ni Zophiya while holding her books in her arms.

We just nod at her and we were already locking the door and my friend, Ashley called my attention.

" Girls..." She was looking at the wheelchair ramp at the S.B. Building. In front of this was the printing shop.

I immediately saw where Ashley was looking.

It was a guy who was in a heads-down. Sitting at the wheelchair ramp.

Napaawang kaagad ang mukha ko and he looked familiar to me.

" All locked." Zophiya suddenly mentioned to us and she glazed where we were looking at. " Oh."

" Let's just go." Banggit ko sa kanila. And I didn't tell them that I broke up with Gilbert last time.

We were now walking downstairs until he raised his head. His eyes were red and mukhang hindi pa natutulog.  He was so helpless and sleepless.

" D-Darling." He mentioned immediately when he saw me. I had pity on his face because he didn't seem to be asleep and also they just had an exam earlier. " L-Let's talk." Banggit niya at napapansin kong gustong-gusto niya makuha ang presensiya ko.

I looked at my friends. I don't know what to do.

I slightly coughed. " We have nothing to talk about." I respond without looking at his eyes.

I looked back at my girls and they looked frowned, sad and some are wondering what's happening.

" Uhm, Halika na?" Leigh asked awkwardly.

I just nod at her and we walked going outside the campus without looking back at him. Looking sad and I wish that he didn't appear earlier.

I saw a car parked at our front already. And Ashley suddenly grabbed both of my hands.

She looked at me, sincerely. " I know everything." She slightly smiled. " You're a brave girl, sis! And also." She gazed around at me. " I know na hindi ka magtatake ng Senior years mo rito." And she bowed her head.

I placed my palm on her cheek. " Hey! How do you know about it?" I asked, wondering.

She moved her cheek. " Mahalaga pa ba 'yon? Nakatatampo ka nga, eh." She rolled her eyes.

I sighed heavily. " That's why I didn't talk about it. I don't want you all to hate me." I grabbed her both hands. " Just promise me. That even without me, you will pursue everything you've been planned. And also we have graduation yet to celebrate." I continually replied.

She just nod slowly. " I will miss you, sis."

I pinched her cheeks. " Me too!" I said. " I will go now."

" Okay! Ingat." The last thing I heard coming. "Wait!"

I turned my back, looking at her. "Yes?" 

"Hindi mo ba sasabihan kina Leigh, Emma, and Zoph?"

"I guess not." Tipid akong ngumiti. If it would be better for our friendship then I rather bring this alone. 

I opened the car door and already sat. I looked at the front mirror and I saw a man in shades and a bodyguard uniform.

Napatikhim ako. " L-Lets go." I said heavily because Kuya Roland wasn't the one who will drive me from now on. I miss him already.

We were now going outside of green fields and I planned to listen to music and just looked outside. I already got my AirPods, but I'm still finding the phone that Kuya Roland gave me earlier.

I even lifted my bag upside down to find it, but I didn't see it.

I coughed so I can get his attention " Hi." I mentioned to him looking at the front mirror. " Can we go back to school?" I asked

" Your dad told me to send you home right away." He simply fired back.

" Please?!" I shouted. " My phone was not even here! Damn it!" I messed up my hair, frustrated.

" We can't grant your request, Ma'am De Verra."

" Fuck! Just drop me off here. I'll fucking go back by myself!" I cursed at him. It was his fucking first day, but he was giving me his attitude already.

He stuck his tongue inside his cheeks. He swiftly rotated the steering wheel to the left side.

" Thank you!" Padabog kong sabi. And the thunder joined me.

I was looking outside and I think it will rain hard.

We were now back at the school.

I stand outside and looked again at Novaliches High School's word on the gate. I walked immediately to the gate and I guard stopped me.

" Tapos na school hours. Bakit ka pa nandito?" She asked to me, raised her brow.

" I forgot something in my room," I answered back.

" Bawal na po pumasok." She responded with her hands were in waist.

" I forgot something at my classroom and it is freaking important. So can you please?" I continually respond. Pleasing her. " Please?"

" Natasha! Girl. Why are you still here?" I glazed at my right side. It was Zophiya that was inside their car. Waving at me. " It's almost raining, girl."

" I forgot my phone inside the room." I quickly answered to her question. I went near so she can hear me.

" Oh!" She nodded repeatedly.

" Hey! Ate. Please allow her. Thank you." She smiled at the school guard. " And also this is the key. Give it back to me na lang next time." She winked.

I took the keys on her hand. " Thank you, Zophiya." I smiled. I looked at her mom in the driver's seat. " And thank you for the time, Mrs. Addison."

I was walking going to the room and I'm already at the S.B. building.

I'm so surprised that Gilbert was still there. He was still in heads-down again.

I was jangling the keys. And I entered the classroom. The thundershock me which made me nervous. I looked outside of the classroom and it was raining.

I opened the lights and I found my phone on the teacher's table. Leigh really forgot to bring it back to me.

I closed the door immediately and I will go back to the car because I can't even stay here.

I'm now walking downstairs and I had a glimpse of Gilbert and he was now looking in my direction. I feel pity for him but he really wanted that pity?

He was now standing " N-Natasha." He suddenly grabbed my wrist softly. "D-Darling?"

I didn't say anything, I removed his grip and I continue walking outside even though  I'm getting wet because of the teardrops.

" Natasha.. please just listen." He ran to me. And a thunder sound came that made me covered my ears.

" I don't need to listen, Gilbert because I saw it." Mahinahong banggit ko sa kaniya.

He stuck his tongue inside his cheeks. " Please?" And he suddenly kneeled on me. He even wrapped his arms around my knees.

" Stand up, don't make a scandal here," I whispered to him and he didn't answer after it.

I kneeled at him para magpantay kami. " I'm really sorry for what happened to us last time. But I will say it to you clearly." I looked at his eyes. It is already wet and teardrops coming from the rain covered his face. " I'm breaking up with you."

" No." He said, calmly.

" I-I don't need your permission." I replied back. I don't want to continue the conversation with him dahil nasasaktan na naman ako.

I stood up suddenly and he whispered something.

" Sabi mo diba may tiwala ka sa akin?" He explained. His eyes were turning red.

" I trusted you! But your actions spoke the fucking truth." Napalunok ako para pigilan ang luha ko.

" If you're angry with me because of what happened to us, darling. You just need to listen. Please." His voice broke. "Hear me out naman."

" I can't listen to you anymore, Gilbert. I'm so fucking tired of your explanations!" I mentioned to him and a tear fell from my eyes, but the teardrops continues to drip on my face.

" I didn't do anything." Walang hiya niyang sagot, and he wiped his tears.

" Stop with the fucking lies!" I shouted at him. " I'm not a fucking idiot, Gilbert. I am fucking not!" Napatakip nalang ako sa mukha ko sabay sa pagtulo ng aking mga luha.

" How long have you ever been lying to me? How fucking long!?" I continued.

" I-I didn't lie, darling." He shook his head while keeping his tears from falling again.

" And you didn't take your exams!" I immediately replied. Pointing at him.

" It's just an exam." He replied na parang taking exams was not even important to him. "I can re-take it. "

" It's not that fucking exam, Gilbert! Once you failed your semester, you have a chance to be a repeater." Pagdiin ko sa kaniya.

" I-I'm sorry." He pleased.

" I'm done with you. I will go now." I reached for my bag. It was already wet.

I was going to turn around at him but suddenly he reached for my hand.

" D-Darling don't do this to me." Pagmamakaawa niya. " I'll do better after my explanation. Huwag ka lang umalis."

I couldn't respond anymore. Because I'm already fucking drained and my chest was like punching.

"How could you give up so easily, Natasha?" He moved his lips. He looked so wrecked and damaged. "How did you not find a reason to stay?"

" Because." I looked up to the sky. Embracing the rain. And I went back to look at him. "You deserved better. You deserved her." I smiled in pain. Even though I accepted that we were not compatible with each other.

He shook his head. " I dont. You are already the best, darling." Pagkatapos niyang sabihin ang mga katagang iyan ay parang tinutusok nang paulit-ulit ang puso ko.

" S-Sorry, Gilbert." I wiped my tears and face him bravely to say this last card. " I-I don't... love y-you anymore." Mahirap mang sabihin pero kailangan ko na siyang bitawan. Mahirap mang gawin dahil mahal ko pa siya. But that's not the issue. My dad said to me that I will gonna break up with him. For my dad's sake. I used that last card. And for sure that our breakup would be easy for me to leave here.

He was shocked when I said those words coming from my mouth.

" No! You love me, right?! Right?! You love me!" Pagpupumilit niya sa akin.

I nod at him saying no.

" Mahal na mahal kita eh!" The words that made my heart cracked. " Mahal kita, Natasha!"

" Stop with that lies anymore!" I wiped my face but my tears kept falling. " I don't want to see your fucking face again!"

I moved my hand away.

I will gonna remember this place.

I slowly walking outside of the campus. Looking straight-forward at the big gate. I'm hurt.

Suddenly a phone call came.

I turned it on and I put it on my ears without looking at it. Nakatulala na lang ako.

The voice was humming. And the hymn was familiar.

" I will stay... through the b-bad times."

The voice was familiar. And I know who was singing. The thunder and lighting were joining the moment.

"Even... even if I have to fetch you everyday."

I didn't notice that my tears suddenly fell from my eyes that made me stopped from walking.

" We'll get by."

He was making sure that he still got the note even he was hurting to sing it.

" With a... smile."

I remember the first time that I met him. It's because of the bottled of water.

"What's your year, you blind?"

" I'm Anche, 8- Bohr, Why'd you ask, Huh?"

"You can never be too.. h-happy in this life."

I also remembered the poem you gave to me during the awarding of English Month and that sucked!

"'Cause.. cause in a world where... everybody."

I had flashbacks while crying because you treated me to a movie date during the foundation day. And he made me calm about the boys who were cat-calling me. I feel so safe around him at that point. 

"Hates a happy... e-ending story."

The time during Local Math. You were there for me.

" Hey! Natasha. Listen."

" You're doubting yourself, again. It's not healthy."

" And about your friends. They would be more proud of you! It's not because you fail. It's because you try!"

I know you can do it, darling!"

You were the one who believed in me. You were the one who supported me.

"It's... it's a wonder love can make... the world go 'round."

The time that I met your mother. And I remember when you introduced me to her.

" Ma, Natasha. Girlfriend ko po."

"But... d-don't let it bring you d-down."

"And also, darling. You're very different sa mga girls na na-entertain ko in my life. It's like the first time I met you I really felt that thing. And realizing that--"

"I didn't choose you, my heart did."

"And turn your face into a...a f-frown."

" There are many stars in the sky tonight, my darling.

" but only one star shines through my heart and that is you."

I began to wipe my face with both of my hands. I can't continue this. I don't want to hear his voice anymore. because I keep hurting and hurting.

I looked back to see him and he was still in kneeled; he was showered in rain.

It was a painful and grievous night when I came back to the mansion. I thought the pain was already done. But he even sent me a farewell message. When I read it, I'm just so broken and my tears were kept falling and falling. I hope that I made the right decision.

gilbertxanche: I care for you deeply. So always be happy. Promise me that you will take yourself and your other half in the Paradise.

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