OK im gonna do it!! im making myself update...come on dude you keep pushing this back dammit procrastination anyway... umm words. 

Leo's POV

The very feel of my little brother's body hurt.
"Leo?" Mikey whispered, lighting raising my head. I blinked back tears. Mikey pulled off his hood, revealing his face. I bit my lip in, Mikey... My hand reached out to touch the scarred face. Mikey tried for a smile.
"Hey Leo?" His voice cracked. I lowered my eyes, eventually bowing my head into my little brothers chest. Mikey looked down.
"Hey Leonardo?" Mikey whispered, he had no idea, no idea what was going on. A sob.
"Leo please talk to me." Mikey whispered, he didn't dare to move my position. I opened my mouth, but not enough for Mikey to know.  
"Everything's that happened.... its just so hard." I admitted.
"Hmm." Was muttered, with a rub against my arm as he was indicating for me to continue. I shook my head and bowed it back in.

"Mikey." Casey whispered, Mikey lightly pushed against me, like he wanted for me to leave. Casey stumbled towards Mikey.

"It's really you." A grin on Casey's lips. Mikey smiled.

"No shell for brains its Leatherhead." Mikey grinned. Casey nodded, his hand reached to touch Mikey's plastron. I lowered my line of vision, when the last time I saw Casey smile? A flicker that one day when he beat Raph?

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"See that!" Casey smirked, standing over Raph's body. I took a cautious look towards the best friends. Raph was laying on the floor, his sleepless nights etched under his eye. The slow pant gave the effect of Raph's allowed beating. Raph shrugged, grabbing his sai. A shrug.  Casey's shoulders flopped down.

"What about patrol?" Casey bounced, the frown on my lips increased. Patrol what? Can't the city take of its self? The sane part of me scowled. Come on Leonardo, get hold of yourself. My mind whispered, I shook my head.

"Hello Casey." The pain drawing in through my lungs. Casey flipped around, as if Raph didn't matter anymore.

"Leo!" Casey blinked, his hands twitched nervously next to him. I cocked my head, Casey frowned, his eyes circled the area. Escape, was all that was read through his dark blue eyes. It would be a lie to tell you I didn't enjoy the fear, my back pulled its self up, even if I was shorter than Casey I still owned the power. He knew that... Don't smile. Wait what the shell was I doing? I pulled my leg back, allowing myself to stumble.

"Leo?"

"I'm fine."  I snapped, turning on my heel. Through the corner of my eye I could see Casey Jones for who is he was. Other than straight out idiot he was a friend someone who cared for his family, he'd kinda adopted us and April as his family, since his father was apparently abusive. I refused to lock eyes with him. Maybe that's why he cared so much about us? Because we gave him the freedom  that he longed for so long... Or Casey was just a brainless idiot that had no idea what he was doing.... The second option would make more sense.

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I blinked back the tears, wasn't this all my fault? Arms around me.

"Leo I'm here," April whispered to me, her perfume reminded me of the farm house, the soft care free days of the passed. I looked at her, it made sense why Donnie fell in love with her, I nudged my shoulder against the 19 year old. April blinked. "Leo?" She whispered.  "You know I'm here?"

I wanted to laugh out, how many times people have said that. "I will never leave you I'm here." Then you went and died! Good job Master Splinter it was all that Takashi's fault. I told Mikey I was there for him no matter what and look what happened. Look what did happen.

"YOU ACTUALLY DID IT?! PROPOSED TO HER!" Mikey grinned, his hand punched Casey's chest. He hid that pain so well, every single day to him was a drag through the mud and this whole Michelangelo kept his smile. Pain builds people, pain are people. Our hearts see an obstacle and we're given the choice to give up the world and as Master Splinter would say follow your mind and allow it to break apart? OR chose the heart options and build on and around that. The Mikey option, maybe sensei was right Mikey was the closes spiritual wise.

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"Just relax Donatello."  Splinter said softly, smiling at Donnie.

"I am sensei!" Donnie protested, eyes flashing open. Splinter smiled. 

"No your mind is over run... deep breath."  The rat said softly, kneeling infront of Donnie he stood up and walked towards Raph, whose face was curled into a deep scowl. A light chuckle.

"Raphael meditating is not something you train for... it just is, Master Splinter lightly massaged Raph's head, whispering soft words in Japanese. He passed me, knowing that even at 10 I was the greatest at mediating. (Lol no 10yr old Leo....your not) .

"Michelangelo," Master Splinter soft hands grabbed Mikey's hand.  "My son please relax."Mikey pouted. "Why? The voices are boring!"

"Voices?"

Mikey  rolled back so his shell slowly rocked himself on the floor. "Yeah the ones about you guys," Mikey took a moment before snorting. All eyes went to the orange masked ninja.

"You guys don't hear them?" He frowned, he sat up from his shell hammock, for a second mystery tinted in his eyes. Splinter shook his, later  Splinter talked to me after my complaint that Mikey didn't try and yet he was so good.... at everything. Master Splinter believed Mikey had the ability to tap into his emotions,  maybe thats why he was able to take over his body from Takashi....

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So umm thats my update done....cause i think ive heard in the comics casey's dad was abusive? if anyone wants to back that up for me or correct me feel free... but i realised i changed from Takeshi to Takashi.. good job me... *slow clap* haha anyway im so happy people actually like this book!! hehe Casril for day! i actually hate 2012 casril but im deliberately trying to hurt donnie more....  (im sorry my baby!!) anyway gtg to bed so until next update!!

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