Merry christmas!!i know its boxing day but yeah! im happu i got exactly what i want FullMetal Alchemist bk4,5 and 6! which mum said a week before I COULDNT GET IT CRYSTAL SORRY you lied to me *narrows eyes in judgy look* haha im kidding i love mum and i also got magnus chase bk3! woo that was all i asked for...well and a vinyl pop figurine of Darth vader..but i only asked for that AFTER i was told i couldnt get the manga..but i got a darth vader jacket..that has a hood! yaaa and a raph plushie and some tmnt stuff! i had a pretty good christmas...we just watched movies the whole day! anyway thanks to...i forgot their username but they commented on my book yesterday and it reminded me to update haha anyway new chapter!

sorry couldnt think of a chapter title...any suggestions?

Raph's POV

So I had a brain worm, I stared at my wall. The sick feeling in my stomach not going away. I had spent two years trying to change myself, trying to help Donnie keep his depression at bay. But now I had probably opened wounds that couldn't be fixed. I closed my eyes and took in a  deep breath. Calm down Raph, its over. I stood up and walked into the kitchen. Mikey looked up and grinned, his smile seemed to light up to world when Mikey smiled it meant he hoped, when he hoped it meant there was hope. Maybe thats why we all broke, because he couldn't find the hope that took its self home in Mikey's heart. 
"Hey." I said gruffly. Unfortunately Leo took this moment to smile himself. I scowled in return. "Where's Donnie?" I asked. 
"He's in his lab!"Mikey shouted and grabbed my hand and lead me into the lab. 
"Shell." I cursed, the lab was a mess. Donnie had taken himself on top of the battle shell curled into a thick ball. I sighed and looked at Mikey for him to go. Mikey caught my eye and nodded. I climbed on to the vehicle. 

"Hey." I said and gently touched his arm. Donnie jerked and looked up at me with watery eyes. 
"Hi..." He mumbled. 
"Whats wrong?" I asked immediately, it at first it had felt weird taking my thoughts into words asking people- or more just Donnie to tell me whats wrong. I'd always cared Leo had complained about me being careless, but I wan't I just didn't know how to talk to people, not that way anyway. Donnie looked up at me, carefully studying me. I smiled gently.
"Raph..."Donnie said eventually. He curled his legs closer to his chest. "I saved your life today, but....the voices...the voices treat it like a bad thing," He looked up at me. "Is it a bad thing?"   I frowned and shook my head. Donnie nodded, he stood up and climbed  off the truck and walked out. 

Karai's POV

I cursed, she glared at Chaplin. "You said this would work!" I  yelled and shoved Chaplin across his lab. Chaplin's eyes widened. 
"Mistress Karai! I didn't know!" He begged. I shook my head.
"That's not good enough!" I yelled and sent a kick at him. Chaplin curled himself into a ball, we was pathetic, it almost hurt that someone like this WORKED in the foot, under MY command. I growled. "Get up!" I yelled and shoved my boot into his rib cage. Chaplin whimpered. 
"Let me try again." He begged. I shook my head.  I leaned into his face.
"You mean let you fail again?" I growled. "Over my dead body." I sent him another kick and walked into my office. 

It was Father's old office, it calmed me. The blood stains that ran down the walls and through the black carpet, the blade rips down the walls. In the dark I could almost here the echos of long forgotten screams. I smiled and relaxed myself into the chair. Father was gone, that still hurt, I lost the one person who...I paused my thoughts thinking what Oroku Saki had ever taught me, he taught me how to fight. How to kill how to focus one emotion into everything. How to kill, to hurt people and not feel a thing. Emotion was useless, or more emotion other than anger. I sighed and stood up, taking one last look at the office and walking out.

Rahzar was sitting next to Fish face, their voices low. I smiled silently and walked passed them.  "I swear Karai's a witch, almost like that Shinigami chick, she used to hang around in Japan." Rahzar hissed under his breath. I heard Fish Face chuckle. "Shes a freak." He continued. 
"Says you." Fish mumbled, Rahzar sent him a punch with his stump. I smirked at the weak punch.  Fish face jumped. "Mistress Karai!" He yelled, lowering his head into a bow.  I stared at Rahzar until he did the same. Power was good, yes I could see why Father loved it so much

so...that sucked sorry umm also side note..no offense but i really dont like people who just read the book and never vote...its like are you enjoying it? guys? idk yeah umm so really short and half tried! im trying to watch Stranger things s2 ep2!  i love dustin..hes my son..theyre all my sons......but dustins my fav haha 

oh yeah and im thinking of re-writing the chapters..idk if i should post'em here like over the old ones or under this book..OR a new book..like later? thoughts guys?

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