this chapter is around leo... bit on Donnie's condition so yeah.... *cries*its just sad. Based what happened before the previous chapter, and what was happening lair side of things!! i was looking back and damn this story is so dark and depressing!! and ive almost got a thousands views!! so thank you so much for all the veiws and comments! and votes!! yep...

Leo's POV- 

~before chapter 12~

I drew in a slow careful breath, clenching my fist tighter. Sweat running down the pores in my skin. All I wanted to do was help my family... All I did was hurt myself... WHY?! Why was I such a failure? One of the first lesson from Master Splinter was your family comes first. I had broken that rule... As the thoughts continued to flow through my head, but none could form a single thought... Takashi... he killed his father, his little brother. My precious little brother... The anger building on my chest  was only bringing heaver weight on my chest. Some days I just wanted to cry... then again i'd look weak against his family.
"Leo... You ok?" Donnie's whispered. My opened his eyes. Scared legs met his eyes. I  scowled.
"What do you want?" I growled. I wanted to help, maybe i could. If i really tried, but it only seemed to hurt more.
"Just go away." I grumbled, closing my eyes. Donnie sighed and left.

I heard a loud bang then an angered groan. I bit in my lip. What was Donatello doing?
"Argh!" He yelled out. I bit my lip in.  It sounded like things were being thrown.
"Donnie!" Raph yelled out. My stomach flipped. If Raph was worried about him... I stood up walking towards to lab. It was exactly as I heard. Donnie was throwing a temper tantrum. I frowned as I dodged a broken pair of saftey goggles. 

"Donatello!" I snapped, leaping in and grabbing his shoulders. Donnie flipped around, tears threatening to roll down. Honestly his face broke me. My little brother, in so much emotional pain. Call me heartless, because that's who I was now. Blame that jerk Takashi. I wasn't trying so hard so, Donnie broke free. Metal head, that amazing little robot beeped next to Donnie. I think it was trying to speak, but Donnie hadn't added a voice box yet.  Donnie turned around. Clenching a wrench in his hand. He smashed it. Metal grinded as Donatello smashed his beloved machine. Metal head seemed to be doing a robots form of a scream. Could it feel pain? 

"Donnie stop." I'd kinda ignored Raph till that moment. Just because it hurt too much.  Raph jumped in front of the yellow robot. Donnie, who was too anger driven and with the tears rolling down his face. The hammer smashed against. Raph's skull. Raph's head flung back as the metal hit. Blood started poring down his face.  His expression ran too fast. It was first surprised, but slowly melted into an expressionless blob. His legs buckled, but as the heartless monster ive become I did nothing. Donnie was horrifed. 

"Raph!" Donnie screamed out. I stumbled back over a stray hammer. 

"WHAT THE SHELL DONNIE YOU TRYING TO KILL HIM?!" I screamed out, pushing him away from Raph. Donnie's tears were streaming down. Regret so obvious in the genius eyes. 

"I'm... sorry." 

"ARE YOU?! YOU HURT RAPH!" 

"It was an... accident...." Donnie mumbled, words struggling to form. 

"You have no right." I shook my head. Donnie started to ignore me and set towards fixing my head, but I wasn't done yet. I sent an angered kick at his chest. 

"Stop!" Donnie whimpered, he was on the floor. His long hands fiddling over Raph's head wound. I shook my head, eyes narrowing deeply. I couldn't move. Raph was breathing deeply, blood spurting out what seemed like no end. Donnie's condition wasn't helping my present mental health. I hated my life. Why had I resulted into abusing my depressed younger brother? He'd lost his best friend. Became slighty skits... I sighed and bowed my head. Donnie was ignoring me.... Taking in a breath I left to Casey and April's maybe they could help me... 

Takashi...

I clenched my teeth. 

"What the shell is he doing here?" I muttered to myself. Instinct drove over as I climbed to April and Casey's new apartment. The only reason I hated their engagement, was it only becasue it brought Donnie's depression deeper... what the shell is going on?! Why is he their?! To bring them to their deaths too? To ruin peaceful lives?... 

Sorry this is short! mums calling me to get off and i like living!! haha yeah... feeels!! 

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