Ok sorry guys, I know you're probably wondering where my books are and why i haven't updated in like three days.

Please don't let this dampen you're day and a little warning if you have sensitive feelings please don't read but I know you're going to read because, yolo right?

Ok.... A lot of you have been asking (You know who you are) why my stories are so dark? I didn't mean to make them dark and sad...

My writing bases off of my emotions, a lot of you know this but..... The reason why it goes so low in my books, to the point where your just about ready to let out an awwww...

Is because I have been at rock bottom, and still am.... Anna knows, Minecraft_Always knows.... But I think it's only fair if you guys knew too....

I've been in a depression..... For three years, at first it was fine.... Didn't have a problem hiding it, my little secret I would probably blurt straight out immediately...

I'm a person who bottles herself up, and this has been hidden... For three years... I am literally at rock bottom right now....

Fake a smile, force a laugh that's what I feel like. And the reason why I'm so attached to Preston? The reason why? Because I was like him before...

I used to be happy, confident, goofy.... Cheery.... Like anyone else would be... I changed, and I feel like my old personality... Is the exact same as Preston's... That's why I'm so

Attached to him, Vikk as well... Vikk is like what I became... Shy, quiet, I mean sure he is not depressed and stuff like that but.... I still feel a connection with him.. If you understand...

And if you're wondering why I don't update as much, I've been trying to keep myself busy... Been thinking some things that's should not be thought of..

And this is the type of depression that can't be fixed,,doesn't help much either I was bullied for eight years.... So many horrible things slapped onto my path...

I'm just waiting a little while to finally see the end of the tunnel... School doesn't help, let's me collect my thoughts, I don't want yo think...

So I pour all my emotions out onto here, so all you guys can see and vote, love, read and comment... If I'm feeling sad, it's a pretty depressing chapter..

Sorry guys, I just can't update at the moment, maybe tommorow... But I'm not promising...

Sincerely, Darcy May