I awoke one day but could not see, I was not blind .. Life just did this to me. It took my voice and my sight too, now how can I speak or even look at you? Contradicting myself, overthinking and sinking. Losing all of me and I fell.. In love with the madness, the anarchy and disorder. It fueled and enlightened me beyond borders. No control, disregarding my loved ones and tarnishing the reputation of a place I call home. Poor mom's all teared up when I walked out the door, poor dad had a heart attack and fell to the floor. My heart crashed down just as he did too. But I had to leave, I had so much more to do. I'd given up their hopes to fulfill hopes of my own. This is what happened when I left a place called home. Sisters and brothers begging me not to leave, shrugging them off while the little one screamed "PLEASE!" He was just 6 years old, oh how he has grown. Running and riding bikes all on his own. I taught him all these things and he looked up to me, now he must look at me as I leave. Always a zealous child, never once sad now I will be the one to break his tiny big heart. But this isn't about him, this is about me you see.. Not seeing the things that I should have seen. I was depressed and couldn't bear this life much longer, I kept it to myself but the pain had gotten stronger. One pill did nothing, neither did two. So I took 12 then started to turn blue. But it wasn't enough, I was still hurting, ran throughout the house screaming and cursing. Alerted everyone, but they were all crying, why should I care, when I was the one dying? I took my own life as I stepped out that door, remember that's when poor ole daddy hit the floor? I was so tired of being all alone, I left the one placed that I called a home.