Okay, I know it's the middle of the night, but I literally need help.
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So you know that feeling when you fangirl? (Or fanguy, this 2017, I'm not assuming your gender.)
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That feeling is possibly the best and worst feeling ever.
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Well, bitches, I need to rant so here we go-

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"Fuck me gently with a chainsaw." That's my current mood right now. I need help. I have been lying in bed since 6:00, under my covers with literally, a bag of semi-sweet dark chocolate chips and my charger. I watched Heathers.

Holy fucking shit, is J.D hot!!! Half of me wanted Veronica to get with him again, and then I remembered he was insane and creppy. But damn... He's hot.

So you can't watch the movie without watching the musical. So I did. By now its like 9:30. And let me tell you, any fangirl knows that after you watch something to the first time, you can't sleep. So I did something I've been meaning to do.

I watched the Outsiders play.

Oh my god, I need someone to shoot me. Like, this whole fangirl shit got me fucked up. Where the hell are their accents? Why doesn't Darry have muscles bigger than my brain? And why the hell did I not see a wet Sodapop Curtis come out of the shower in only a towel?

So around the end when my husband died is when I started having an attack. I was crying, and trying my best not to wake up my mom. So pretty much through the whole thing I was taking deep berths and giggling at the most random shit. And then Dal died. And I want to jump off a bridge.

Does anyone else get like super hot when they fangirl. I'm literally sitting in my Breakfast club shirt and my socks. I'm not wearing pants. I need help. And so obviously I need to get out of bed, so I went to the bathroom during the middle of the play and tried to find munchies, but we were out. So I have a loaf of bread by my side.

I can't sleep. I have school tomorrow and its 11:51pm. I'm staying up to watch Secret Admirer. I need mental help.

I want to die
I hate everyone
I'm gonna stab someone
I hate that girl, because she gets the hot guy
I wanna cry
Why can't I have a love like that?
Damn, he's hot
I need help
I don't want to exist
Holy shit, someone kill me

Just the normal thoughts of a fangirl.

This is rough. I hate being a fangirl, but I love it more. Someone, please. Comment down below if you can relate. I don't wanna feel lonely.

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