I sat inside our house pissed as ever. This was the fifth time she was out late...again and again and again! I can't fucking take it anymore! I was done! Impatiently I was tapping the couch waiting. Why else would she be out besides going out and cheating one me!

My thoughts were soon broken by the sound of the door opening. It was 12 am.

"Where were you" I said angrily.

"Nowhere" she replied taking off her jacket.

"Nowhere?! Nowhere?! It's 12 am and you were nowhere?!" I yelled looking at her making her snap her head towards me.

"It's not your fucking business Dallas" she seethed. That's when I lost it.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn. But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

"Not my business! If I'm correct which I am! I'm your boyfriend so it is my business!"

"It's late and I'm tired" she said walking towards the stairs. No. I was done. I grabbed her and pushed her into the wall.

"WHAT THE FUCK DALLAS!" she yelled getting up angrily. I pushed her again.

"DON'T FUCKING PUSH ME!" she snapped pushing me down the stairs.

I got up and pinned her against the wall gripping her wrists tightly.

"Did you just fucking touch me?"

"D-Dallas, you're hurting me..."

"DID YOU JUST FUCKING PUSH ME!"

"YOU'RE HURTING ME!" she yelled as tears fell from her E/C eyes.

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie

I let go as she ran up the stairs hearing a door slam and things being thrown on the ground. I felt something shatter in me...

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife, in my windpipe

Slowly I walked up the stairs and knocked on the door. I felt this feeling wash over me. I couldn't tell you what it was...

"GO AWAY!"

"Y/N, let me in..."

I can't breathe, but I still fight, while I can fight As long as the wrong feels right, it's like I'm in flight

She opened the door and I saw the bruise on her wrist and her glossy eyes. Tears falling slowly then rapidly. It was like an uncontrollable flood.

"W-what" she whimpered. That hurt.

High off of love drunk from my hate
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer I suffocate and right before I'm about to drown She resuscitates me, she fucking hates me, And I love it, wait

"I'm sorry Y/N look, I didn't mean it I-"

"I hate you" she seethed walking away down those stairs quickly. That feeling earlier went away as fast as it came being replaced by the feeling I know too well.

Where you going, I'm leaving you
No you ain't, come back
We're running right back, here we go again

"Where the hell do you think you're going?!" I snapped.

"Somewhere. Anywhere but here but it's not like you care" she spoke still descending down the stairs.

"No you're not. Come back here!" I yelled angrily.

"Why! You hate me! I should just fucking go! Get out of your way! Maybe you'd like it if I was dead!" she screamed and I pushed her against the wall kissing her quickly.

She wrapped her arms around my neck pulling me close. I pulled away and she looked at me with lust filled eyes. I kissed her again and again and again kissing down her neck.

It's so insane 'cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman, with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane

Hours later she got up and smiled at me. It was like what happened the night before never happened. It was like time was still. Happy.

"I'm sorry" she whispered.

"No, it's me who should be sorry. I'm the one who yelled"

"No it's not. You had every right"

"NO I DIDN'T!" I snapped making her eyes darken.

But when it's bad, it's awful
I feel so ashamed, I snapped, who's that dude I don't even know his name, I laid hands on her I'll never stoop so low again, I guess I don't know my own strength

"Why the fuck are you getting mad for! I said it wasn't your fault and now you're yelling at me! I can't fucking believe you!" she yelled getting up and dressed.

"Where do you think you're going!" I growled and she looked at me.

"Away from you because we aren't together anymore Dallas Winston. We. Are. Done"

I snapped and pushed her against the wall slapping her.

"YOU AREN'T FUCKING LEAVING ME Y/N GOT IT! YOU'RE MINE AND ONLY MINE!" I yelled slamming her again up against the wall.

"No. I'm not" she hissed and I hit her again. Hard.

She looked at me with this look.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

Both of us were frozen. I stopped. Thinking. I saw a huge welt appear on her face. It made me sick. It made me think. Who am I...

"I fucking hope you die" she growled turning and that broke me. I grabbed her again and slammed her against the wall making an ident into the white dry wall making her flinch.

"Dally please"

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I stayed there frozen. I was pissed. Angry. Mad. Broken. Hurt. Heartbroken. How much she made me crazy but oh how much I fucking hated her.

"Dallas" she whimpered and I hit her again.

She pushed me off tears flowing down her beautiful face. What did I do...

She raced down the stairs and I followed her.

"Y/N!"

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe, when you're with them, you meet And neither one of you, even know what hit 'em,

She didn't turn back. She didn't even look. She quickly grabbed the door opening it walking outside into the bright day light. No. She wasn't going to leave me.

I ran out pulling her back in shutting the door slamming her against the door. My hand was around her throat as she looked at me with this look. A look that made me melt.

Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills, used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick, of looking at 'em

I looked at her as my hand tightened making her gasp lightly for the air I was slowly taking away. She made me sick.

"D-dallas" she gasped clawing at my hands. It only make me tighten my grip.

"DALLAS!" she wheezed out and I let go. She fell to the ground breathing rapidly looking at me with sadness. Hurt. She looked as broken as I was. As I am.

"Y/N..." I said softly but she ran out those doors faster than I could even breathe...

You swore you've never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em,
Now you're in each others face,
Spewing venom, and these words, when you spit 'em

I sat there on the porch waiting for her. The whole thing going on through my head. The screaming. The yelling. The fighting. What have I done? What did I do? Why did I do it? Most importantly...what is wrong with me...

You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em,
Throw 'em down, pin 'em, so lost in the moments, when you're in 'em

I looked down head in hands as tears felt. I never meant it. I never meant it. I never meant it.

It's the rage that's the culprit, it controls you bothSo they say it's best, to go your separate ways, Guess that they don't know ya 'cause today, that was yesterday

I sat there all day and all night. Days passed. Maybe people were right. I didn't deserve her. Maybe it was best we split...It wasn't until I saw her again. Her beautiful yet broken and hurt face right in front of me...

Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records, playin' over, but you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint

"Y/N..."

"Dallas"

I got up hesitantly walking towards her and cupped her face. I saw the way she flinched. The way she looked scared by me raising my hand. It hurt. It really, really hurt.

"Y/N, I'm sorry. I promise. I'll never. Ever lay a hand on you. Ever again..."

She nodded lightly as she walked back in. If only I knew I was going to break that promise because not even an hour later we were going at it...again.

"WHAT DID I DO NOW?! AM I A CHEAT OR A WHORE! PICK ONE!" she screamed and I slammed her against the door slapping her... immediately she pushed away and walked up the stairs.

"Y/N! I'M SORRY!"

She didn't even respond. Didn't even flinch. Move. Or even whisper. She stopped loving me...

You don't get another chance,
Life is no Nintendo game, but you lied again Now you get to watch her leave,
Out the window, guess that's why they call it window pane

I followed her up the stairs that filled and told many stories. Good and bad. It wasn't until I got to our bedroom when I saw it. I saw her open the window stepping out. Leaving me. Leaving us...and I let her...

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

Days went by as I cried and cried. It was all my fault. All my fault. I ruined the one thing I had...

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

Maybe we weren't meant to be. Maybe we weren't the perfect match...

Days later I was sitting there again. The same couch. Drinking. The doors opened and I saw her walk in. She came back.

Now I know we said things, did things
That we didn't mean and we fall back into the same patterns

"Y/N, you're back"

She didn't respond.

"I didn't mean it. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry"

She just walked past and up the stairs. In anger I followed and pushed her making her fall to the ground.

Same routine, but your temper's just as bad, as mine is You're the same as me, but when it comes to love, you're just as blinded

"WHAT THE FUCK DALLAS!" she snapped getting up and I pushed her again.

"YOU DON'T YELL AT ME!" I screamed and she shook her head at me walking back up the stairs and to our room.

"Where do you think you're going?! Are you just gonna leave out the fucking window to fuck your other boyfriend!" I snapped and she shook her head and pulled out a bag. She was packing.

Baby please come back, it wasn't you,
Baby it was me, maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems

"Y/N, what are you doing?" I asked panic laced in my voice.

"Leaving" she spoke grabbing the bags walking down the stairs.

"No, please come back. Baby please"

"I'm not your baby" she spoke harshly walking out.

Maybe that's what happens When a tornado meets a volcano All I know is I love you too much, to walk away now

"Come on Y/N! It's just a couple of arguments! We'll get through this! I promise! I'm sorry!"

She never answered.

"Come on doll! Please! You know I didn't mean it!"

She set her bags down and looked at me.

Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk Don't you hear sincerity, in my voice when I talk,

"Doll, baby, Y/N, I'm sorry. Please please come back inside..."

"Why?! You're just going to hurt me again!"

I froze. Was I?

Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the dry wall

"Hello?!" she snapped a angrily. I took a deep breath.

"It's my fault doll and I'm sorry. Look at me. Next time we get into a fight I won't hit you okay. No more hitting"

She looked at me bitterly. What did I do...

Next time, there will be no next time
I apologize even though I know it's lies

"Next time...there shouldn't be a fucking next time"

"I know. I know. I'm sorry" I said and she laughed. She laughed at me.

I'm tired of the games, I just want her back, I know I'm a liar

"I'm leaving Dallas. All you do is lie and I'm done" she said picking up her bags and started walking but I grabbed her and dragged her inside. No. She's never going to leave me.

If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'm a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

I pushed her into the wall lightly and kissed her. "You're mine and if you ever try to leave me I'll tie you to the bed and set this fucking house on fire" I growled making her blush. God how that made me crazy.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

"You won't hurt me?"

"Never"

She chuckled lightly. What now....

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

"I love the way you lie"

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Ahhhhh part one! I hope you like it angels! Part two tomorrow!
~Lynn😇