For LailaIzQueen I hope you like it! Sorta changed it a bit!

I was sitting down cuddled next to my boyfriend Soda. We have been dating for about four months. I mean, we haven't done IT yet but then again, we aren't really serious...I mean, I don't think we've ever actually KISSED. I mean, yeah, we kiss and all but not make out or whatever. Yeah...

"Ello hoes!" Winter yelled walking in with Jax not far behind. He was laughing along with everyone else. She's honestly funny it's not even funny.

"Hey, you're being nice to my TWIN sister right?" Soda spoke exaggerating the word twin making me laugh.

"Of course mate" Jax spoke kissing Winter. They were pretty serious and I thought it was cute because anyone could see they really loved each other.

I mean, I'm happy with Soda and all but I can't help but wonder...do I really love him? I mean, he has said it, that he loves me. I haven't. Can't. I'm kinda too scared to commit. Moments passed and I realized I was talking to myself...In my head of course but still. Anyway, I realized that Win and Jax were gone. Then I heard thuds. Wowwwww. Honestly not shocked.

"Well, now I feel like we move to slow" he chuckled. I couldn't tell if he was joking...

"Soda, you know, I'm not comfortable w-"

"Lai, I was only kidding" he smiled lightly. I returned it.

The rest of the time he pulled me close and kissed me. Soon enough we were making out. It was...odd. I didn't feel anything...any...sparks or whatever.

"GET IT SODA!" Winter yelled making us pull apart. I noticed her hair was slightly messed up and her shirt was on backward. It made me laugh.

"Well, at least I didn't do a certain THING with my boyfriend" I smirked and she blushed. She hid her face and Jax came over hugging her. They were soon on the couch cuddling.

That's what our day contained. Me and Soda cuddling on the couch. The gang was watching Mickey. Everyone was doing their own thing when I noticed Dallas wasn't here. Odd. Ish. Probably out getting drunk like normal. I wonder why he even does it? Like, why?

Time passed again and I looked around. Everyone was either asleep or watching tv. I'm so confused sometimes. No, all the time actually. That's when Dallas walked in...stumbled in.

"I'm gonna get a drink" I spoke to Soda softly and he nodded kissing my cheek. I smiled and got up going to the kitchen.

Once I got there I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist. For a second I thought it was Soda but I knew oh too well that it wasn't Soda. I mean, I never cheated but I just knew. Knew that it wasn't Soda but Dallas.

"What do you want," I said softly and turned around to have him kiss me softly taking me by surprise. My eyes widened and he smiled. It was real...

"Dallas, I can't. I'm with Soda" I spoke and he nodded. The smile on his face went away and turned into the same cold face as always. I was so confused.

When he left Winter walked in shaking her head.

"Win! It isn-" I spoke but she raised a hand cutting me off.

"You're dumb" she spoke and my brows furrowed. I'm so confused.

"I didn't kiss him"

"No, that's not why Lai. I love my brother I really do but let me tell you something, Dallas and I once went out. That was before you came here. Dal and I we were...in love. Maybe. I don't know, we never got serious but..." she said softly and I was honestly shocked that her and Dallas could even be a thing.

"But, he didn't love me and I didn't love him as much as we hoped or thought. I guess he thought he could fix me and I could fix him but once Evan, my other ex, did something I told Dallas I couldn't do it. That no matter how much I said it I could never love him as much or more than Evan. Then he told me he never even felt anything. That was a year ago"

I was still so shocked. My mouth was probably open. Dumbass me.

"Anyway, he went with Sylvia and I went with Evan. Then I met Jax and I couldn't be happier" she smiled. I was now confused. What was the point of this?

"What's the point?" I spoke softly not wanting to be rude and she laughed.

"I'm saying, I love my brother and all but you have to break up with him. I don't think I've seen Dallas look at a girl like the way he looks at you. He has this look and everyone knows it. I think Soda does too"

I was really shocked by this. He couldn't like me! Plus I'm with Soda and it's gonna be like that.

"You're funny Win but I'm with Soda and Dally definitely doesn't love me. Let alone like me" I spoke and she sighed. I didn't know what to do so I left to see Dallas freaking out slowly. What the fuck?

"You okay Dally?" Johnny spoke and Dallas shook his head and hit the table in anger I think.

"NO I'M NOT FUCKING OKAY!" he shouted.

"Dallas, calm down" Winter spoke standing up placing a hand on his shoulder. His tone calmed down. I knew he liked her. Not me.

"Don't touch me" he growled and she stepped back crossing her arms.

"Hey mate, calm down. You don't have to get mad" Jax said grabbing Winter.

"Shut the fuck up...mate" he seethed.

"Hey! I don't give a damn who you are but you don't talk like that to Winter!" Darry snapped.

"Well Winter is a whore" he snapped and I saw the genuine hurt on Winter's face. She just shook her head and walked out the door. Jax following so she wouldn't do anything dumb. That's where I crossed the line.

I stormed over to him and pushed him into the wall slapping his chest hard.

"I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHO YOU ARE BUT YOU DO NOT TALK TO HER LIKE THAT! SHE TOOK YOU IN! GAVE YOU A CHANCE! YOU DATED HER AND YOU COULDN'T EVEN GIVE HER A REASON TO STAY! SHE'S BEEN WITH THREE GUYS HOW MANY FUCKING GIRLS HAVE YOU BEEN WITH YOU LITTLE SHIT!" I yelled slapping him and I saw the anger on his face. I walked away and he walked over to me. The gang yelling at him to back away. He pushed me into the wall. I flinched ready for him to hit me but nothing came.

I opened my eyes to see him looking at me with tears in his eyes. He blinked them away and pulled away throwing things.

"FUCK!" he yelled and I hugged him quickly. He calmed down and he kissed my head but pulled away. I looked over. Soda had an angry expression. Dallas a hurt one. What was going on?

"Don't fucking touch my girl" Soda snapped and Dallas frowned. He said something quietly but no one heard.

"What!" Soda snapped and so did Dallas.

"I SAID I FUCKING LOVE HER!" he yelled bringing a wave of shock into the room. To me, to them, to him, to all of us.

"What?" everyone but him and I spoke.

"I love her. I can't do it anymore. I know I dated other girls and all but out of those girls, I never have felt this way towards one. I can't help but feel scared and have this feeling of someone stabbing me. I think I love her but I can't have her so I'm fucking sorry for such a loud shit whatever the fuck this is but I love her and I won't stop because fuck, I haven't loved since I was four"

We all stood there when he walked to the door. I said something I don't think I would ever hear in a long time or ever.

"I love you too Dallas"

After I said that everyone turned to me. Oh fuck.

I looked at Soda with tears.

"I-I'm sorry but I-I have had these feelings I can't get rid of...I-I think I love him Soda. Not you...I-I'm sorry" I cried and Soda walked over hugging me.

"It's okay. I just hope he makes you happy. Go to him. I'll love you and miss you but I hope you'll be happier. So, I'm breaking up with you Laila Woods" he spoke and I smiled crying. Not sad but happy.

Now a month later Dallas and I are engaged and I'm pregnant with our second kid...the first one I had a miscarriage but still, we're both happy and will always be because...I love him.